sissy slave jamie property of Mistress Phoenix

2011-12-31T20:01:00.001-06:00

Happy New years everyone! i wish you all a wonderful year to come!

Everything seems to evolve. Domina is not working outside Her house now. She loves to take care of it as well as having to have the freedom She has to do what She wants. bear doesn't work either and of course now T/they can see each other whenever T/they want. i work and i love my job. leopet works too.

Its been a long time since W/we have ventured out of the house to see what the local BDSM scene is doing. i used to be very involved with the group here but they have changed so much since five years ago.

i continue taking my herbs and massaging my breasts as well as using my cup set on them. i love having breasts although small :) Domina says i have breasts larger that some girls She has known.

i continue growing my hair and plucking my eyebrows. i haven't been wearing much makeup beyond eyeliner and mascara and lipstick on my days off. Such is the life of a sissy girl working in a male job teehee!

When bear is here he is always the man of the house. i've lost that place long ago.. Its his place in Domina's bed. When he isn't here Domina allows me to sleep with Her.

Domina said She would like me to research chastity devices. She would like to have me in one. That was really an eye opener giggle.

Have a wonderful year!!

sissygirl

Rainy Saturday

2011-12-03T12:55:00.001-06:00

Hi everyone! Today is my last day off for the weekend. i've developed a bit of a cold but it hasn't been too bad. Just some stuffiness and a little sore throat. Hopefully it will be over soon and i will be back to feeling more sissy girly!

i slept in to about 11:30am this morning and heard Domina and bear coming in the front door. Domina came up to Her bedroom and told me that it was 11:30 and its time to get up. i said yes Domina. She then said that bear and She had been shopping around and T/they are going to rest awhile in Her bedroom.

i got up and came downstairs and got coffee and cereal. It is rainy outside but i don't feel much like going out there anyway lol.

This has been a very restful weekend especially since last weekend involved replacing my dead boot drive and reloading Windows 7 as well as doing Black Friday Shopping all night. At least this weekend i can keep my mind focused on girly thoughts :)

sissygirl
http://bimpie.no-ip.com/dsdiscussion

2011-10-14T12:29:00.001-05:00

Today is my Saturday so its started already lol.

Domina and bear took off this morning for T/their out of town trip T/they have planned for some time. i know She is ready to have a break from work and have a great time.

Last week i found a nail polish that Domina and i think i can get away with at work. Its called "Hint of Pink" and i love it. Last week i worked on my nails with one of those 5 step nail buffers that made my nails so smooth and applied the Hint of Pink. Its so nice to know that all my nails are pink now :)

i love the Fall air!

sissygirl

Car fixed

2011-08-20T14:10:00.002-05:00

Yay! leopet fixed my jeep. It had been running very rough and after taking it to getting it diagnosed found that the problem was related to a coil problem. he bought it at a local parts place and installed it and now all is well!

bear is over spending the weekend with us and of course Domina's bedroom is off limits to me when T/they are together there.

i did upgrades to the http://bimpie.no-ip.com/dsdiscussion site and its looking great. Lately some bad storms have gone through here and we had some short outages but its up and running fine.

sissy girl

Ds Discussion is back!

2011-07-13T12:03:00.002-05:00

Hi everyone! i have my Ds Discussion site back online. It features chatting, forums, groups, video, pictures, profiles etc. i hope to see you there!

http://bimpie.no-ip.com/dsdiscussion

sissygirl

Friday! 5/20/2011

2011-05-20T23:06:00.000-05:00

i think Friday's are so sweet. Its nice to be able to sleep in since my weekend includes Friday and Saturday. i was on my computer for awhile and before i took my shower i massaged my breasts with my deep massager. So nice :). i took my shower and used an exfoliant body wash. i was planning on shaving my legs but just shaved my bikini line, clitty, and pits. i'll save my legs for tomorrow.

i went out shopping for awhile and picked up some things at Target. One of the things i was looking forward to using was some champaign colored lipstain. Tonight i haven't been able to find it. Domina and bear are up in bed together and i cannot disturb T/them for such a trivial thing.

bear came over after i returned from Target and W/we all had dinner together and watched some comedies i missed this week from working late a couple nights. At about 8:00pm Domina went to bed and bear soon followed. i am sleeping on the couch tonight. That is the norm now.

i'm watching the third season of "X-Files". i never had watched it and am really into it!

Maybe tomorrow i will pick up more lip stain :)

sissygirl

Saturday April 23 2011

2011-04-23T14:07:00.000-05:00

It is a nice but overcast Saturday. i've been on the computer all morning and soon will be up showering and shaving my legs, bikini area, etc. i sure love feeling and being smooth! Staying as feminine as i can be. i'm not sure what i will wear but i feel like something pink today.

Domina and bear are out of town again. They left this morning for somewhere and will be staying out over night. i hope They have fun :) leopet and i are home alone and we will probably have Long John Silvers and watch something on tv tonight.

sissygirl

Emasculate, emasculation, etc

2011-04-03T09:54:00.001-05:00

I suppose the word means taking away masculinity. Is it really a bad thing? Especially for sissies, can't it be hot?

I believe emasculation can be accomplished in alot of ways:
1. The Wife/Mistress may have Her husband wear panties.
2. Refer to Her submissive husband with only feminine pronouns.
3. She may give Her submissive boyfriend a feminine name.
4. Etc

Of course the boyfriend, submissive, husband, etc should be receptive to it all.

What other emasculating things can you think of?

sissygirl

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April 1 2011

2011-04-01T13:38:00.000-05:00

Hi everyone! How are you all doing? W'eve all had some kind of sinus/cold thing all week. Most of the household is over it but i woke up with a sinus headache.

It is the start of my weekend since i get off Friday and Saturday. Domina has been working out in the yard and leo came home for lunch. bear came over for the weekend. Domina and bear just left to get some groceries and some meds for me. i sure hope to get over this thing very soon!

Happy April 1st!

sissygirl

Saturday February 19 2011

2011-02-19T20:00:00.002-06:00

Very nice day today although I was feeling a bit run down. I got up
and showered. I shaved my legs and felt so nice and clean.
I was on my computer for a while when bear came over for the night. I left and went to Microcenter. I looked at parts like motherboards and cases. My server for my D/s site http://bimpie.no-ip.com/discuss has been down for awhile when it died. I've been thinking of setting it up again and also maybe a sissy site focusing on the lifestyle and emasculation, cuckolding, etc

sissygirl

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Blizzard!

2011-02-01T19:35:00.002-06:00

sissygirl holding a bottle of True Blood at Hot Topic

Wow! Like most of the country we are having blizzard conditions here.i hope you all are staying warm. We sure are. Domina made soup for us and it was tasty. leopet has been outside shoveling snow. he seems more manly doing that.

Domina hasn't said anything about Her weekend with Her submissive boyfriend bear but I'm sure They had a good time. it's always a turn on to me.

I haven't had any cummies for quite some time but I love feeling more and more girly and fem of course. Domina loves me more and more like that.

I usually wear my hair in a pony tail but today I wore it down. For some reason stray hairs don't bother me as much as when I wear out in a pony. I shaved my legs today and they feel so nice and smooth mmmm!

Stay warm!

sissygirl

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Saturday January 30

2011-01-29T12:02:00.001-06:00

Domina and leopet went to the car place and bought a new Ford Fiesta yesterday! Yaaaaaaaay! She is so happy! Me too! leopet especially since the broken kia is going away.

Domina and bear is going somewhere and spending the night in a hotel tonight. Domina told me she will tell me the juicy details Sunday. Oh the life of a sissy cuck!

sissygirl

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Today Jan 19 2011

2011-01-19T12:06:00.000-06:00

Happy 2011!

Today i'm off from work. i work full time now. i usually take off on fridays and saturdays but i am covering for a coworker.

Yesterday Domina and i went looking for a new car. W/we took a Ford Fiesta and a Honda Fit for a ride. i think W/we both liked the Honda better. Domina's Kia has been down since August and although leopet has poured countless hours and effort in getting it up and going it still is leaking coolant. It will be great seeing Her in a new car!

After W/we went shopping i dropped Domina off and went shopping. Besides groceries i got some natural brown hair color. i got a couple Bees brand lip shimmer. Rhubarb for Domina and Watermelon for me. i love how they feel on my lips.

This morning i painted my toenails 'Everlasting Pink'. i am now waiting for my hair to set with the hair color. i love looking and feeling pretty.

i'm soon to go out and do some more shopping. Domina said there will be a big snowfall coming!

Everyone is doing great! Domina, bear, leopet. Last weekend bear was here from Saturday to Monday morning. Of course i slept in the guest room.

i haven't had a cummy for a long time. i do get so excited when Domina reminds me of my place :)

sissygirl

Happy Holidays!

2010-12-24T12:05:00.000-06:00

Happy Holidays everyone! Merry Christmas! i hope everyone has a safe and wonderful holiday!

sissygirl

A nice weekend

2010-10-23T19:08:00.000-05:00

Domina and bear went out of town leaving leopet and me at home. i spent a few hours today tidying up my office while leopet is working on Domina's car. i sure hope Her car gets up and going again. The problem was that the timing belt lost some teeth and caused damage to the valves. She has been without a car for several months now.

Domina and bear are having a good time although bear has had some stomach trouble. Domina says She is feeling very relaxed and charging Her batteries for Her return Monday.

sissygirl

New things :)

2010-09-18T11:25:00.001-05:00

Domina and bear are downtown spending the night together. Domina has charged leopet and this sissygirl with rearranging the living room.

i got a new part time job. For the first time for a long time its a real job and Domina (and everyone else including me) are so happy about that! :)

Its getting cooler now. i love this time of year. So many festivals around the area. W/we are going to visit the annual Renfest sometime soon. yaaaa!

Yesterday i went to Paris II the beauty school and had my hair trimmed. Its getting pretty long now and it was good getting it trimmed and feathered :)

sissygirl

Saturday August 7 2010

2010-08-07T23:19:00.000-05:00

This morning bear arrived and Domina and he left to go spend the day and night at a motel. T/they plan to have a very nice dinner somewhere downtown.

Domina left chores for me to take care of. leopet and i moved Her craft table to the garage and i mounted a couple peg boards on the wall above it. i also moved the exercise bike to Her craft room and performed a few other chores.

Later i went shopping and picked up some bratwurst and beer for supper.

leopet and i later watched a movie called THX1138 which was George Lucas' first movie.

sissygirl

Out shopping again teehee :)

2010-07-10T23:04:00.000-05:00

Today i went out shopping for awhile. Domina, bear, and leopet stayed home. W/we were smoking a brisket as i left.

i shopped in several places. The first was at a local hardware store for an alarm that detects when power is out at an outlet. This is to help warn us that the power to the deep freezer is out. A couple weeks ago it did since the breaker went and all was defrosted. i couldn't find any there though. So i continue my search.

Next i went to Big Lots where i picked up some dog bones and a dvd. When i went up to check out the girl behind the register said, "Hi girly girl!" my my that was wonderful! She had checked me out before there and she was so cool :)

Lastly i went to the grocery store and bought Domina some Bagelfuls and yogurt.

i came home and i put some red potatoes on the grill. The brisket was done so W/we all had a nice dinner in front of the tv watching the first episode of Rome.

Domina took bear to bed and a little later heard some playful commotion from Her bedroom :) ahhhhh

sissygirl

Sunday June 13 2010

2010-06-13T16:42:00.006-05:00

Well, its like soup outside. Its 82 degrees and the humidity must be around 100 percent. i just took our dog Titus out for a good walk while Domina and bear went to take a nap. i have BBQ baby backs smoking in the smoker i picked up in a yard sale. Domina's oldest and youngest (29 & 12) year old boys are home with U/us and are playing games on the laptops.

A couple days ago i took O/our dog and Domina's cat to the vet for shots. my 17 year old cat died of old age the other day so W/we were less one cat. While at the vet i saw a couple ladies with a box of kittens. They begged me to take one so i called Domina who said it was OK. i picked one grey one that had perfect markings for white socks and a white tipped tail. i brought him home. W/we named him 'Spartacus' Lately W/we have been naming O/our pets after Roman names. O/our dog's name is 'Titus' lol.

Not much more has been going on. teeehee!

sissygirl

Our Anniversary

2010-05-27T16:00:00.003-05:00

Today is Domina and my 4th wedding anniversary. She is taking the day off from work. W/we woke up and went straight to a nice restaurant who specializes in breakfast. It was so good! Domina had strawberry crepes. i had a traditional bacon, eggs, and country potatoes breakfast. Next W/we went to the local thrift store. Domina was looking for some jeans but She found some capris and i found some jeans and ladies shirts for me.

i know i haven't been writing too often. i guess its just getting motivated to. Last weekend Domina, leopet, titus our westie and i traveled down to Oklahoma and spent the weekend with Her sister. On the way down there W/we picked up Domina's oldest son. He will be spending the summer with U/us.

There in OK i could be all girl and be myself. Her niece was having a high school graduation party. It was a lot of fun spending the weekend with them all. i was introduced to all her friends as Domina's sissy girl. i was so accepted. It was wonderful being there. W/we did have a bit of a problem with the dogs since Her sister has a German Shepherd but it mostly went well.

Last week i colored my hair lightest golden brown. i think its still pretty dark.

Today i'm smoking some baby back ribs. Yummmm! W/we are planning on seeing "Prince of Peria" tomorrow.

bear is sick with the flu i guess. i don't know when he will be back over.

sissygirl

Back home April 30 2010

2010-04-30T10:43:00.002-05:00

Well my temp job ended yesterday. It lasted 90 days and it was a wonderful experience! i worked with such a great team who really worked together. Everyone had great things to say about each other and they let us know they would have loved us to stay.

After i got off work yesterday one of the girls from work and i went out to a gay/lez sports bar and talked about everything. She saw through whatever my exterior was and knew i am a t girl. She is a lesbian and we are such friends! Domina is so happy that i have a great friend.

A couple days ago i had quite a shock. i came home from work and met Domina at the front door who said, "Take me to the hospital!". She had been working out in the garden and was using electric grass shears and ended up getting Her thumb caught in it. i rushed Her to the hospital and ended up getting 7 stitches. It just missed hitting the tendons. It was terrible seeing Her like that. i am so happy though that She was so well taken care of and it wasn't worse!

Domina said bear is coming over today and staying over the weekend. i am back to being a full time girl at home but will certainly be looking for more work outside the house.

sissygirl

Saturday April 17 2010 Overtime

2010-04-17T17:37:00.003-05:00

Today i went to work and worked some overtime. Domina was very happy about that. my temp job will soon end and this sure helps.

While i was at work bear came over and Domina and he worked in the garden. T/they put in the koi pond. Yayyy!

leopet has been working around the house and left to go to Walmart for some parts for the yard wagon. i'm preparing BBQ chicken for the grill right now with smokehouse beans and crisper fries. Yummmm. Domina enjoyed this last weekend.

It looks like W/we will watch Lost tonight from the dvr.

For some time now when bear is in the house he is the man of the house and of course Domina's shares Her bed with him exclusively. i'll be sleeping in the guest room and working overtime again tomorrow.

Today is surely beautiful outside!!

sissygirl

Beautiful weekend! 10 Apr 2010

2010-04-10T16:07:00.003-05:00

i thought i was going to have to work overtime this weekend but that was cancelled. This morning Domina and bear left for an overnight at a B&B in the area. leopet and i are left at home. leopet is working on a storage shed he is building outside the house. i'm inside cleaning up. So far i've vacuumed the house, doing the laundry and cleaning and organizing the office.

It is soooo beautiful outside at a perfect 71 degrees F.

We'll see how the weekend goes :)

sissygirl

Saturday March 27 2010

2010-03-27T11:58:00.002-05:00

i just woke up! teehee! Its raining a bit outside and about 42 degrees. Domina said yesterday that She and bear were going shopping downtown late in the morning to the middle of the afternoon so i guess that's where T/they are :)

bear came over yesterday afternoon. i just got home from work and saw his car in the driveway. W/we had a nice dinner of brats, hot wings, etc. bear made She and he shrimp. W/we watched the last couple episodes of Lost.

leopet is watching Lady Gagas Telephone video. i like it too :)

i dont know much more. W/we'll see what happens this weekend lol

sissygirl

Sunday February 21 2010 Snow!

2010-02-21T21:13:00.003-06:00

Its been snowing all day! Wow! It looks like i am going to have to get started a bit earlier in the morning to get to work.

Its been a nice weekend despite the snow. Domina let me upgrade my computer. i got a new motherboard, memory and CPU. Its an AMD quad 765. i got it all together this morning and was trying to install Windows 7 64 bit but ended up finding i had incompatible ram so i put that aside. i hope to exchange it tomorrow.

Domina and bear had planned on going out of town together this weekend but bear got sick. With Domina's urging he came over and Domina cared for him. i think he is getting better.

leopet had an Internet friend come over yesterday evening but i guess they just didn't click. i felt bad for him.

Its pretty wild to be working again. i do put my hair back in a pony tail and wear some of my girl clothes but mostly appear boyish. It is nice bringing money in!

Not much else is going on

sissygirl

Friday is here! Yaaay!

2010-01-29T10:16:00.004-06:00

Not much has been going on except Monday i start a new job. Yaay! i'm finally going to bring some income into the house. That really does please Domina since i haven't worked for some time.

my server crashed terribly the other day that hosts Ds Discussion After a lot of time i found that the system stopped recognizing ide drives so i took one of my sata drives out of my computer and put it in. It sees it. Now i am working on getting it all back up.

Being Friday, bear will be arriving around 1:00 pm. Thats about when Domina should be home from work. She said that bear can take a nap with Her.

leopet has been letting U/us all know he dreads seeing any more snow on the ground!

W/we are planning on dining at a Chinese restraunt tonight and maybe seeing Avatar sometime this weekend. Yaay!

i colored my hair a darker brown the other day. Its called 'Dark mahogany brown' i like it a lot. Such a different look from my blonde. Teehee. Its getting longer and longer :)

Well, nothing more this time. See you!

sissygirl

my birthday!

2010-01-03T23:12:00.003-06:00

Hi all :) Yes today is my birthday :) i slept in a bit. Domina and bear slept together of course. i came down and got on my computer and had some toaster pastries and coffee. i was doing my breast massage when Domina told me to come down and get my presents. i started down there and She told me to take the suction cups off and put a top on which i did.

i came down and got a beautiful card from Domina addressed to sissygirl. For presents i got a new vibrator and an LP to CD record converter. i've wanted to convert my LPs to CDs for so long! Domina is so wonderful!

i took a shower, put on my makeup. i am using Covergirl's Aqua makeup now in natural beige. i put on mascara, eyeliner, lip stain and gloss. i let my hair down and brushed it up and over.

i dressed quite warm since its been down in the teens here. i went to Vitamin Shoppe where i picked up some Fenugreek and Red Clover. Next i went to Hyvee for some of our dinner (red bell peppers, onion, Worcestershire sauce and a couple steam veggies) Then to Sams Club where i picked up some sirloin tip steaks for the four of U/us. Then to Big Lots where i picked up some hair detangler and hairspray. Next to Price Chopper where i picked up the rest of dinner potatoes and milk for Domina.

i came home Domina was worried that i was out so long and afraid i might have driven into a ditch. i apologized and then fixed dinner. i grilled the steaks inside and sauteed the onions and bell peppers together in olive oil. W/we nuked the potatoes. It really turned out so well. Domina was very happy!

W/we watched 'Desperate Housewives" and had Turtle cheesecake from Sams Club. Yummmy!
Then Domina said She and bear were going to bed. i followed T/them up and kissed Domina goodnight. i went back down to the kitchen and did the dishes.

Whew what a day!

sissygirl

Happy New Year! 1 January 2010

2010-01-01T22:24:00.003-06:00

Its been a very nice holiday. Domina's oldest son came in before Christmas and Her two younger ones came in on the 26th. Those two left yesterday. i had to dress down and be less girly when they were here but when they left i could be myself.

W/we have had lots of snow and the temperature has stayed quite cold so the snow has stayed around. i haven't been out much but went out a couple times to go shopping and also to take our dog Titus out to the local park for walks. The park is quite hilly and perfect for sledding. The boys weren't interested in getting out in the cold though.

Today bear came over and upon his arrive Domina and he has been almost tied to the hips. T/they played a bit in Her bedroom and came down later for supper and a couple movies. About an hour and a half ago Domina said T/they were going to bed so i followed T/them up and kissed Her tonight. i am sleeping on the futon tonight. Tomorrow Domina said i am going to be the one played and abused with lol.

i tried on a blouse one of Domina's co-workers gave to me. i love it. Domina said She likes my hair down instead of brushed to the sides or in a pony tail. i like it too :)

sissygirl

Sunday, Dec 27 2009

2009-12-27T12:14:00.004-06:00

i hope everyone is having a safe and fun holiday!

bear was spending Christmas with his family. They were going to drive out to Colorado but of course the winter storms prevented that. They stayed at home. Yesterday bear came over and Domina was so happy!

Domina's boys flew in last night. Their flights were delayed by a few hours but they arrived in pretty good time. She braved the wintry roads and drove the jeep out to the airport to get them.

Now all presents have been unwrapped. i got Domina several things from the "New Moon Movie" as well as a hair straightener/dryer which isn't working too well with Her hair. i got a new butterfly necklace/ear stud set, an Australian ear stud set, a couple pretty candles, butterfly walllies, and a novel. my big present is my new video card which really enhances my computer.

We got several inches of snow and leopet has been spending a lot of time out on the driveway shoveling snow. i hope to get out and do some shopping today.

While the boys are here i can't dress as enfemme but thats ok. We are having a great time!

sissygirl

Merry Christmas everyone!

2009-12-25T10:38:00.003-06:00

Merry Christmas and happy holidays! W/we got lots of weather here. Snow and sleet and all. Please everyone be safe and enjoy this wonderful holiday!

sissygirl

Dec 7 2009

2009-12-07T11:16:00.004-06:00

This weekend W/we worked on Christmas decorations. Domina put up the artificial tree Friday. Saturday bear came over and T/they worked on various other decorations including putting up garland.

Saturday Domina and bear went out of town together to a bed and breakfast and had fun in the casino as well as fun playing in the room. Its been awhile since T/they have had the chance to go out together and Domina said T/they had lots of fun :)

i went out shopping for a gift for Domina and an ornament for leopet at one of the local malls. It was so wild going by myself to a large and crowded mall en femme! It was lots of fun! Love being referred to as "she" and"her" etc :)

Sunday Domina and bear returned and W/we worked on the tree some by putting up the ornaments. leopet finished putting up the outside lights. Later Domina made up some spaghetti and W/we all enjoyed watching tv. bear on Domina's left and me on Her right. W/we watched an intense episode of "Dexter" wow! What a series!

Domina has been wanting O/out spare bedroom finished as a guest bedroom. Its finally finished! Last night i slept in it as Domina and bear slept together in Her bed.
i woke up this morning to temperatures in the low 20s and some light snow on the ground.

sissygirl

Happy Belated Thanksgiving!

2009-11-28T22:43:00.002-06:00

Hi all! Sorry for the late greeting. i know its been quite awhile since i've posted to this blog. i used to post on my Multiply blog and it sync'd to this one but i got deleted there so i guess from now on i will post directly to this one (blogger.com).

Domina and i just got back from spending the Thanksgiving weekend with Her sister. W/we had a great time and i could be myself. Its so refreshing to know people who accept U/us for who we are. What a lovely time.

W/we just got back an hour ago. W/we got Domina a new Sony laptop as an early Christmas Present and i am setting it up for Her.

Be well!

sissygirl

Happy Halloween all!

2009-11-01T00:54:00.000-05:00

Sorry for not writing for awhile. Lately i've been up and down but feeling better the last couple days. bear came over last night. This morning Domina and he went out shopping and brought home lunch. i ate and then went out shopping for a few things and came home.

W/we grilled a turkey on the rotisserie. It turned out a little burnt but tasted great with Mesquite marinade and wood smoke.

i changed into my maids uniform. i put on much lighter makeup to make me look pale and put on some really rosy blush, very thick eyeliner and mascara. i also put on my fishnet tights and various high heels and ballet style shoes. Wouldn't you know the gas grill ran out of propane and i had to go to the nearest convenience store as i was dressed. Domina sent bear with me to protect me. i sure got some reactions lol!

Domina, bear and i watched a couple flicks: Drag Me to Hell and Shutter. Domina played with bear the whole time while i laid there in my maids uniform :) leopet was outside handing out candy to the kids. Afterwards Domina took bear to bed for more play. i went up and changed into some PJ's since i'm sleeping downstairs of course.

i spent awhile cleaning up the kitchen and now am massaging my breasts.

i hope all had a great halloween!

btw i got my Ds Discussion site back up (http://bimpie.no-ip.com/discuss). The server got corrupted but i got it fixed

sissygirl

Friday! Yaaay!

2009-10-02T16:58:00.000-05:00

Its definitely feeling like Autumn is on the way! Temperatures are dropping. It was down to the mid 40s yesterday morning.

Last weekend Domina's sister and brother in law drove up for the weekend. They arrived early in the afternoon after driving all morning. Since they were tired they took a nap.

After the naps we had dinner. Her sis and hubby had revealed that they were interested in BDSM, Femdom or whatever. It was all new to them. For a few months now texts had been flying back and forth about the lifestyle and lately Domina wrote several informative emails to them telling them about Dominance and submission, Bondage and discipline and Sm. Now they were here, we were going to have some examples demonstrated.

All of U/us were down in the craft room/playroom; Domina, Her sis, hubby, bear, leopet and i. Domina told me to remove all but my bra and panties. She then wrapped heavy saran wrap around me and the pole reaching from the floor to the ceiling. She had bear strip and put him on the St Andrews cross. She cuffed his wrists to it. leopet sat over on the side. Her sis and hubby sat on a chair watching.

It was wonderful being in bondage again. my arms were at my sides and the plastic wrap was so tight. Domina came over and with a knife cut the plastic right where my clitty was. She reached in and pulled my clitty out in the open air. She then went back to bear and started spanking him and telling him She is bringing the blood to the surface. That was mostly for Her sister's benefit. To let her know what was going on. She then took a flogger and lightly fanned it over his back and then started striking him with it. First on his back and then down to his ass. After awhile She took a leather strapper and struck him on his ass. Every so often She struck harder and his body twisted and turned.

As i stood there bound i noticed that my fingers on my left hand were getting numb. i thought i had removed my ladies wrist watch but couldn't tell from where i was. i told Domina i was getting numb. She came over and cut the plastic to relieve some of the plastic but it did little good. She then cut more off and then i felt relief. i looked down and saw i still had the watch on.. grrrr. i thought i had removed it!

Domina returned to bear. She picked up the quirt. There were a few transgressions he had. i think they were drinking cans of beer without asking permission. Domina said there will be two strikes of the quirt. She looked over at leopet and saw he was disinterested. Domina asked him if he wanted to play. he said no. She asked why. he said he didn't like to play like that. Domina said that he used to enjoy it but enjoyed the more sensual and soft play anymore. She then told him he didn't have to stay. he left the room.

Domina then struck bear twice with the quirt. You could tell it was really painful but now it was over. She then took him off the cross and had him crawl over to me. She then told him to suck my clitty. Which he did. my sis and bro in law watched intently since they are very interested in bi play.

i stood there and really enjoyed it. i got hard but Domina took him away before he could finish.

Domina then told me to go up and prepare Her bed. i left the room and did as She asked. i kissed Her tonight and then returned downstairs and talked with my sis in law and hubby. i asked what they thought of the play. They thought it was a bit intense. i then went to the kitchen and cleaned it up.

i slept downstairs. bear woke me up the next morning and told me that Domina wanted me to get up and get ready to go to the Renaissance Festival. i went up and took and shower and got ready. A friend from Domina's work lent me Her wenches costume but the say was supposed to be quite warm so i decided to wear jeans, a ladies shirt, bra and my ladies canvas shoes.

W/we went to the festival and had a great time. W/we walked all over and took O/our westie dog Titus. Domina got a few things including a Phoenix symbol stamped in a silver coin. The other side was the knot of love. Later i got a crystal butterfly necklace and ear ring set. i love them!

W/we left and returned home. Domina's sis and hubby left to return home.

bear stayed in bed most of the day. he wasn't feeling very well.

Some recent things going on:

Domina is building a bed/cage! This is something i told Her about a couple years ago and now its happening! Its going where the massage table is in the playroom.

bear is over for the weekend now. i went shopping and paying bills. Domina told me to get some brunette hair color for me. She wants me to color it brunette then let my hair grow out and rest like She is for awhile :)

sissygirl

Friday Sept 18 2009

2009-09-18T10:13:00.000-05:00

Here it is September and we are moving into one of my favorite times of year. i love the cooler temperatures. The festivities, etc.

Things have been changing around here. Domina's youngest son(11) decided he wants to live with his father. That has caused some drama and heartbreak. In that household he has several brothers and sisters. Here in the neighborhood there just isn't anyone his age to play with.

Domina's oldest son(28) is trying to get moved up here. Domina thinks he will be with U/us in December.

With the changes W/we are moving rooms around again. Domina's craft room is moving out of the garage and down in O/our finished basement along with the playroom. The old playroom is becoming a bedroom again.

Domina has been up and down with Her submissive boyfriend bear. Things have been fine when he is over here and sometimes after leaving to go back home i guess miscommunication over emails, texts, etc has caused some tension. It looks like things are stable right now.

When bear is over here it is pretty much a given that bear sleeps with Domina and i sleep in the living room on the futon. O/our roles seem to be more and more in place.

my hair is getting longer and longer. i colored it 'lightest natural blonde' the other day. Domina and i both like it alot :). i continue taking my herbs and doing my daily massages on my breasts. They are definitely growing. Its funny but looking down they definitely seem bigger than looking straight at me in the mirror :)

A couple weekends ago bear was over. Domina told me to come up and play. i did. She was playing with bear at first and then called me over. he was begging Her to suck my clitty. he did and after awhile i did cum and so hard!. i seem to last longer now. Probably due to my new meds i've been on. Talk about the meds. These were really something to get used to. At first i had some nausea, apathy, drowsiness but now i feel fine and don't feel so obsessive and anxious. Domina and i haven't had any fights or arguments since ive been on them. yaaaay!

hmmm i cant think of anything else right now.

sissygirl

Sunday August 30 2009

2009-08-30T11:30:00.000-05:00

Lately its been cooling down more and more but sometimes reaching into the 80s here. Right now it is 63 degrees F and i love the cooler weather. i think its telling us that Fall is on the way. i think my favorite season is the Fall. A lot of festivals like the Renaissance Festival and others come around that time. Maybe i'll get to wear and feminine costume this year. W/we'll see!

This weekend has been really laid back. bear arrived Friday afternoon and has stayed the last couple nights. Each night i slept down in the living room on the futon and he slept with Domina.

Yesterday, Domina and bear went out for breakfast and shopped downtown. T/they ended up at a grocery store where they were selling a nice baking table that Domina saw would work perfectly as a craft table. They were asking $50.00 for it and bear bought it for Her upcoming birthday. he bought steaks and potatoes for dinner and came home. i went out shopping myself. i picked up some lip color by Rimmel which i really like. Its pinkish and called "First Kiss". Domina really likes it.

With the new shaving gel i am using by Aveeno i don't need to shave as often so i am shaving my legs every 3 days. The hair on my face doesn't seem to grow as fast either but i shave every day. i must be as smooth as possible before putting on my makeup.

One thing i realized is that since my chest has always been sunken, my breasts aren't as prominent as they could be. i continue to take my herbs and do my massaging exercises daily.

Well, i can't think of anything more right now.

sissygirl

Beautiful Day!

2009-08-22T21:42:00.000-05:00

This morning i got up at around 7:30 am and had my coffee and a couple cereal bars. i was up for about 1/2 an hour when Domina yelled down asking if i was going and if i was going as i was or taking a shower. W/we were all planning on going to the city market. i know Domina does not like being kept waiting. i said i planned to take a shower. i hurried up and took my shower and decided to shave my legs tomorrow. The new shaving gel really has slowed down the growth of hair.

i finished showering and put on my makeup. i shaved very close and found a few nicks here and there that the styptic pen had trouble really stopping. i finally put some liquid bandage on one of them under my chin. i put on my eyeliner and mascara and red/pink lipstick. i wore my stretchy jeans, half sleeve grey and white shirt and my black female canvas shoes.

bear arrived and W/we were all off. i grabbed my purse and Domina, bear, leopet and i. Domina was driving. W/we stopped at QT and got some coffee and headed down to the river for the city market. my goodness! It was soooo crowded. W/we proceeded around the market and bear bought eggplant, zucchini, red bell peppers. Domina bought some large zucchini for zucchini bread. She also picked up some pita bread at the Middle Eastern shop and sunflower seeds. i picked up 5 scoops of fenugreek seeds, a bag of carr-away seeds, a bag of anise and coriander i believe. W/we then left and went to the Chinese grocery store and bear bought a pound of huge shrimp. i got a couple bottles of Liptovan an energy drink.

W/we all left and came home. Since it was much warmer i changed into a pair of denim Capri's and my sleeveless knit grey and white shirt. i then left and went to Target and picked up some new foundation and a couple concealing pens. One in green for red scars and such and the beige one for other blemishes and things. i then stopped at another grocery store for some wine coolers for Domina. i then returned home

i found Domina out back working in the yard. She and bear were talking. he was on the lawn chair. leopet had cut the yard and left the get a haircut. i brought my guitar out on the deck and played awhile and then went back inside. Domina and bear came inside. Domina took a shower and bear joined Her in the shower.

Later i saw that Domina and bear were down in the kitchen preparing dinner. Domina was wearing one of Her pretty nighties. i said i was going to change too. i asked Her what i should wear. Domina said something cute and pretty.

i went upstairs and took everything off and put on my pink baby-doll. This was the first time i tried tucking and wearing it without panties and it worked so well. Domina looked at me and loved it. She said She could see my tits too. teeheee :)

W/we all had dinner and watched "Tropic Thunder" What a funny movie!. W/we then watched an episode of the BBC series, "Being Human". bear was dozing off all through it. At the end of the show Domina told him that T/they were going to bed. i followed Domina up and kissed Her goodnight as bear came up and got in bed. Domina said there probably wouldn't be any play tonight

i went back downstairs and did the dishes and cleaned up the kitchen.

sissygirl

sissygirl's blog update 20 Aug 2009

2009-08-20T22:06:00.000-05:00

So sorry for my taking so long since my last entry. i'm on a new medication which takes some getting used to. i have been feeling better lately.

Domina and bear had such a great time together out in Colorado. bear drove out there and Domina flew. After missing the flight here in town Domina got to Denver and went to catch a connecting flight to Colorado Springs where bear was. When She arrived in Denver She hurried off the plane and twisted Her calf but was still able to walk. She hurried to the other end of the terminal but was told that all the flights for the rest of the day was overbooked so She never really checked in. bear drove up and got Her and the two drove back to Colorado/Manitou Springs. While there T/they went up to the top of Pikes Peak, visited the Garden of Gods Park, camped out in the woods by a stream and bathed in the hot springs. T/they also went to the spa there. There wasn't much trouble except She had twisted Her calf again while hiking. Domina also said it was quite cold camping up in the mountains.

Before leaving She wanted me to check to see if bear could drive Her back up to Denver to catch Her flight back to KC. i called the airlines and found that Her entire trip had been suspended when She flew into Denver. The travel agency cancelled it because of violation of contract by not checking in there. arggggggh! i tried to call Domina but Her phone's batteries were dead. i tried to get bear but his phone was out of range. i text'd him about it. Soon i received a call from Her and i explained the problem. She called the airline and the agency and couldn't get it resolved. It would cost $200+ more to resume Her flight back. Instead bear ended his time out there and drove Her back. he had enough of the mountains himself. Most of it was the altitude.

Domina surprisingly told me that T/they had no sex during T/their time out there. T/they were just go go go and so tired at night.

T/they got back ok after driving over 12 hours. bear hadn't slept much and was a bit edgy. he stayed the night and left the next day. T/they told leopet and i all about the trip and showed me pictures.

For the next few days bear was kinda distant. Domina finally figured out what had happened. During the trip T/they became more vanilla than T/they should have. After getting back it persisted. That weekend bear came over and there was more of a Big Mistress session. After that T/they said things were back to normal.

Last weekend bear came over Saturday afternoon. Domina was not too happy about it because She thought he was going to be here the whole day. Things got better though. One thing that was planned was that W/we were going to have dinner and then bear and leopet were going to watch the game. It was too late to grill so W/we had fish at a great seafood restaurant near here.

W/we got back and bear and leopet were watching the game. A bit later Domina and bear went up to Her bedroom. i went up soon and saw the door was open. i saw She was playing with him a bit. i watched a bit and then turned to go downstairs. Domina called "jamie" and i turned around. i entered Her room and She asked if i enjoyed watching. i said yes Domina. She told me take a seat on the chair. She then cuffed his wrists to the head of the bed and played with his cock. Domina then squirted some lube on my hands and told me to play with myself but not cum. i watched as She played with bear. Sometimes slapping his thighs. Sometimes stroking his cock. She then told me to remove my shorts and my panties as well as my top but leave my bra on. She told me to lick his thighs which i did. Then She told me to lick his cock and balls. i did that too. It was so wild! bear was begging to suck and She told me to come around. She told me to wash off the lube. i then went over to him and he sucked my clitty for awhile. It felt so wonderful! It had been a couple of weeks.

Soon Domina told me to go back to my chair and sit and play with myself. She told me that i will cum and will clean it up. i played with my clitty and watched Domina ride bear's cock. She used the vibe as well and wow what screams of ecstasy! i got to that point and begged. Domina told me to cum all over myself which i had no problem doing.

Soon bear came. When he cums now he barks like a dog.

Domina told me to get a wash rag and wash off bear. Then She told me to clean myself.

She then said i was dismissed. i thanked Her and left the room.

i really felt that afterglow!

This week i have been tackling some chores Domina has had for me such as organizing the cupboards and today cleaning and reorganizing the refrigerator.

Since Domina's little cat is always scratching to be let in and out of Her bedroom She bought a pet door. i mounted it but W/we found that Her cat couldn't figure out how to open and go through it. She would just tap at it and it made more noise than the scratching. Finally i removed the flap and all is well :)

Well, tomorrow is Friday. Yaaaay! bear will be over sometime this weekend :)

sissygirl

Domina is on vacation!

2009-08-01T19:57:00.000-05:00

Today started oh so early! i woke up at 4am and got coffee going. i think the storm woke me up. Domina asked what i was doing since the alarm was set for 5. i said i was getting coffee going and taking a shower. Sleep just wasn't happening....

i drove Domina to the airport in the rain. i wore my grey and white striped tank top, capri jeans and sandals and bra with forms. i didn't put any makeup on but i did put my hair in a pony tail. i felt eyes from everyone at the airport.

W/we got in and checked in at the computer near the check in desk. It said W/we were too late! The flight was at 6:20. It was 6:07! W/we went to the counter and he repeated the same. Domina was so mad She cried. i felt terrible. The man told Her it would be $150 for the next flight or She could try stand by. She opted for standby.

W/we stopped at the Starbucks cafe and got a latte and blueberry muffin for Her and a tall coffee and blueberry scone for me. As W/we ate Domina told me to go home. She would call me if She couldn't get on.

i got home and got on my computer for awhile. i texted Her. She said She got it! yaaaaay! She was on Her way!

i went to bed but had a hard time sleeping. It was prolly all the coffee but i was so tired. At about 11 i woke up and texted Domina. She was waiting for a connecting flight. i went shopping. i picked up a bottle of fenugreek and red clover. i then went over to Walmart and got a can of Aveeno's Positively Smooth Shave Gel which i have read by several reviews reall works for really close shaves and to slow hair growth. i picked up body wash too.

leopet called and asked about lunch. i finished shopping and hurried home. leopet and i then went to IHOP for lunch. we had an incredibly long wait for our orders. The waitress was embarrassed and said they had a new cook. i wonder if there is something about transgendered people and restaurant service. i really don't want to be paranoid about it but this has happened before at a Chilis restaurant too.

we finally got our orders. we did have a nice talk.

From there i exchanged a few texts with Domina. Her connecting flight didn't happen so bear drove from the town T/they are staying and got Her. Both were frustrated.

leopet and i stopped at Sally's Beauty Supply and picked up some generic Matrix shampoo and conditioner and returned home.

leopet went outside to work on a project and i went for another nap.

i woke up at 4. leopet went to the store and picked up some toasted raviolli and spaghetti sauce.

we watched American Gangster by Russell Crow and Denzel Washington. Both of us thought it kind of long winded. i thought it was an interesting movie though.

Domina took some pictures from on top of the mountains with Her bf bear and sent them via phone.

She is happy now :) She will be gone until Wednesday i believe.

sissygirl

Where did that come from?

2009-07-29T16:43:00.001-05:00

W/we had some drama tonight in the House of Phoenix. It all had to do with dinner and coordinating same. bear had meat and i had corn. bear flew off the handle and i didn't know where it came from. As Domina found out he is quite particular about how others help when he is in charge of dinner. he is also quite tired from lack of sleep preparing for this trip Domina and he are going on. i guess the last straw broke when i had pointed out a couple things that he took as accusatory which they weren't. i got upset during the course of it as well. W/we all learned something new tonight.
whew!

sissygirl

July 28 2009 Last weekend part 2

2009-07-28T10:49:00.000-05:00

The next morning (Saturday) i woke up at about 9am. i went up to the kitchen and noticed that no coffee had been made yet. Usually leopet is up by then. i made coffee. bear showed up and said Domina was really tired. She slept until about 11am. She said that both of T/them were very restless the night before and didn't sleep much.

During the afternoon i went out shopping for awhile and then came home. Domina had been working in the garden and bear was lounging around. i guess allergies were making me tired and feeling bitchy.

At about 2pm Domina said She was going to take a nap. If you were going to take a nap now is the time. i asked Her if i was going to take a nap. She said that i didn't need one since i'm a night owl. She wanted me to clean the veggies for dinner which amounted to quite alot. i went back down to the kitchen and started cleaning the veggies and feeling more and more bitchy. i started thinking about the play Domina had mentioned for that evening and thought about how i was feeling. Finally i went up to Her room. i didn't knock since i didn't want to wake up bear. i opened the door and saw that Domina and bear were both awake and naked in bed. She was playing with his man cock. She asked what it was. i told Her i was feeling tired and bitchy and all. She told me to come in and lay down since bear was just getting up. i went in and lay down. Both Domina and bear left Her room after She asked me what i was working on. i tried to sleep but it just didn't happen.

After about 1/2 and hour i got up and went downstairs. Domina was cleaning the carrots. She asked me what i was doing downstairs. i told Her sleep just wasn't happening. She told me to clean the rest of the veggies. i did and then cut up the green, red and yellow bell peppers. i also cut up the green and yellow zucchini and red onion. i threw it all together and made a marinade.

bear grilled several kabobs he put together and put them on the grill. While he was working on the grill i joined Domina at the patio table on the lower deck. W/we were talking awhile and bear joined U/us for a few minutes. Although W/we had the citronella candles going the mosquitoes were out in force! Domina said that W/we were going to play out on the deck. She was going to have me naked in whatever W/we were going to do but there were too many mosquitoes.

when bear was done grilling i put the veggies on a grill wok and stir fried them over the grill.

When i was done with the veggies W/we all had a fine dinner in front of the tv. W/we watched the latest episode of True Blood. W/we are so enthralled with that show! Like so many shows i identify with the female characters. In True Blood i identify with Sookie who is the main character. i've been thinking of making a t-shirt of Merlotte's Bar and Grill like she wears on the show.

After the show Domina said that T/they were going to bed. She told me that She was going to play with bear for 15-20 minutes then have me come up.

Domina had told me previously that She didn't want me present when She played with bear because he was in the role of a submissive. When i am allowed to be present both Domina and he are my Dominants since it is more in a cuckolding theme.

Domina called me up. She had bear naked and plugged. She told me to sit on the chair. She was calling him Her fido and had him bark. She then handed me the lube. Domina told me to remove my panties and skirt and play with myself. She got on bear and rode him awhile. She said, "How i love having a real man's cock in My pussy." i said it is so hot Domina! Your clitty isn't going in Me again She said "i fuck real men".. i repeated it. She said no, I don't fuck girls.

i was sooo turned on!

Domina rode him several times. She then had me come over and had him suck me and cum on his face calling him a slut and a whore. i came so hard! She then had me sit down and watch while She rode him again and then had him cum on his belly. i sat there with waves of endorphins passing through me. Domina then had me come up and clean him up with my tongue. i went over and bent over and began lapping his come up. i licked his man cock and sucked it to clean it. When i thought about what i was doing i gagged a bit but kept on. This is my place. Domina said that good girls do this and get used to it.

Domina then had me wet a washcloth with warm water and clean up his cock and his belly then my face.

She then told me to go and blog it all. i said yes Domina.

Domina later said She realized that during play She treated bear as a submissive but that it just naturally went that way. W/we were all amazed at how Domina is more and more vocal.

i put my panties back on and went downstairs and recovered. i slept on the futon that night.

Here it is Tuesday. Domina said that Her husband bear is coming over tomorrow to fuck and suck and relax before his trip out west. She is going to fly out there to meet him on the new adventure. Domina is so looking forward to it. Domina wants me to hold a garage sale while T/they are gone. She hopes the garage will be clear so She can park Her car in there again.

Its raining today. i will go out later and get the ingredients for spaghetti.

sissygirl

Happy Friday! July 24 2009

2009-07-24T22:22:00.000-05:00

Its been a very nice week. The weather has been nice and the temperature has been in the 70s and 80s.

Last weekend Domina's boyfriend or as She calls him Her husband bear was over on Saturday and Sunday and stayed for both nights. i thought it was interesting that i didn't think to sleep with Domina in Her bed since bear is Her man and as She calls him, the "man of the house". Unless i have something important to tell Domina, i don't interrupt T/them. If i have something i knock on Her bedroom door and ask permission to come in.

On Wednesday bear came over in the afternoon just after Domina came home from work. She was taking a shower and W/we were having girl talk. i was feeling irritable since the night before after having some trouble setting up my phone. i opened the door of the bathroom to go get Domina a towel and there was bear all naked and getting into Domina's bed. i was finishing up getting ready while Domina got in bed with him. She had said earlier that T/they were going to "suck and fuck". i repeated, "Domina, Your going to fuck and suck?" She then that T/they might not suck lol. Earlier that day Domina said loving Mistress was out. i curtsied and told them to have fun. i've thought of saying, "Do what i wouldn't do" lol i don't know how that would come out.

Wednesday night Domina and i was re-watching the last episode of 'True Blood'. While W/we were watching it laying on the futon in front of the wide-screen Domina slapped at my crotch. i was tucked so i thought Domina wanted to see if i was. After a couple minutes i asked Domina if She wanted to play with my clitty. She said yes and to untuck myself. i did and pulled my denim shorts down and then my panties. She then played with me for awhile. It felt sooooo good. Its been awhile since She has. The last several times i've been touched it was by Her boyfriend. Interestingly enough the next day She told him She played with me. he said he couldn't understand why She did that because he thought T/they were cucking me together. She told me She will play with Her toy when and where She wants to.

i colored my hair medium natural blond early in the week. It is much darker than the last time i colored it. Domina said She really didn't like that color on me so i am going to color it lighter blond next week.

my breasts are coming along. i have been taking the herbs fenugreek, red clover, saw palmetto, L-Lysine (amino acids) regularly. i've also been drinking a tea called Bustea from the Flat 2 Fem program consisting of fenugreek, anise, licorice root, caraway seed, and fennel seed. i boil it for several minutes in a couple cups of water and flavor it with lemon juice and sweeten with sugar. It has a kind of odd taste but isn't bad. Its supposed to help supplement the herbs. teeehee! Looking at me straight on one can see bulges. i can especially see my breasts looking down. i wear a bra all the time now.

i can't imagine going out and about pretending i'm a guy now. i would feel too uncomfortable and too plain really. Its funny though because i do have that paranoia thinking everyone is reading me but i know they all aren't. Domina tells me that i look and act very fem. She tells me that i glide when i walk. The only thing that would make people think is my 6'1" height. Domina is so wonderful. i feel more confident going out and about as a girl :)

i got up this morning when Domina came into Her bedroom taking Her first break from work. i got up and freshened my mouth and went downstairs and made coffee. i then took a glass of water into the office and took my herbs and read email. When coffee was ready i went in and grabbed a cup and put a teaspoon of raw sugar into it. i grabbed a breakfast bar.

Domina soon left for work and so i started my breast massage regimen. i then thought to wash Her bed sheets. i put them in the wash and hung up the dryer load.

i resumed reading email. Soon i took a shower and got pretty. i used blackest black eyeliner today and put first my all day red lip stain. i let it dry and then put my pink on. i like the tone. i then put on the gloss.

Today i wore short female denim shorts, my grey striped tank top and sandals.

While i was putting Her deep red sheets on Her bed Domina arrived. i finished what i had done
and greeted Domina with a kiss. bear arrived. What a surprise! i didn't know he was coming today. i thought tomorrow. i greeted him too.

Domina wanted me to take the yard cart to Her car to bring in some soil and flowers She had bought. i took it up and unloaded it and took it to the right spot in the back yard.

i then left and shopped at Big Lot, the thrift store and the grocery store. i couldn't find anything at the thrift store. i was looking for some casual shoes and the ever elusive 38A bra! i then went to the grocery store where i got some peppers and zucchini for tomorrows grilling.

i returned home and picked up O/our cat and took him out to a vet across town to get Her monthly allergy shot.

i left her at the vet and went down to the thrift store there and found a couple of wonderful sandals, a rainbow woven leather belt but no bras.

i then returned home. i greeted Domina and bear and showed T/them the treasures i found at the thrift store. i then told Domina, "i feel like putting my bikini on" She couldn't remember the bikini i picked up at the thrift store some months ago. i went upstairs to Her bedroom and put it on and made sure i tucked good. i came downstairs and showed it to Domina. She really liked it :)

leo had bought hamburger to grill so he made them up and i grilled them. he heated up the french fries.

When supper was ready i made Domina Her hamburgers, fries and wine. i brought it down to Her. W/we then watched a comedy.

At the end of it Domina told bear "Its was time for bed." She turned to me and said, "W/we are going to bed. i said yes Domina. She then told me to give Her a kiss. i asked Her if i could follow Her to bed. i did. i washed the makeup off my face with St Ive's. Domina and bear got in bed naked together and pulled the sheets up. Domina told me "Good night girly girl". i asked Her if i could kiss Her. She said yes. i came up to Her and kissed Her. She told me T/they were just going to sleep.

i said, "Yes Domina" and curtsied and left Her room. i closed the door to give Domina privacy with Her boyfriend.

i cleaned up the kitchen

i went to the office. Took off my bikini top and started my massage :)

Tomorrow all i know is that W/we are grilling veggies and other things.

i guess Domina and bear have a surprise for me tomorrow night teeehee!

One thing., Domina mentioned that its a week from Saturday that She is flying out to Colorado to spend the week with bear on one of his adventures. i'm really excited for Her and on the cuckold side of things. This is the longest time She will be out with someone else.

sissygirl

Updates Tuesday July 14 2009

2009-07-14T09:41:00.000-05:00

Last time i posted i said goodnight to Domina and Her bf/husband bear after i brought T/them up a glass of wine and beer. Domina told me that was all and dismissed me closing Her bedroom door behind me.

That next morning i was woken by loud thunder and rain on the roof. i was sleeping on the futon mattress which is sitting in between the couch and the tv. i slept really good but of course it isn't as comfortable as Domina's bed.

Soon i got up and went to the kitchen and made coffee. i was having coffee and an oatmeal fruit bar and then went into the office, closed the door and starting surfing and doing my breast massage routine.

A couple hours later i heard Domina and bear coming down the stairs. Domina came into the office looking so radiant! Her hair had been brushed straight and She looked happy and beautiful. She is so happy knowing that bear is home and that She has Her two boys and Her girl. Domina and bear went out in the yard and walked around. i was back in the office. i was going to go out and see what T/they were up to but heard spanking upstairs. T/they were playing! i giggled.

After awhile bear came down dressed and i went upstairs. Domina was naked on Her bed and so spent. She and bear had been playing and playing. She tried riding him and using Her big electric vibe on Her clit at the same time and discovered what it could do! She said She came like She never had before. It was wild seeing Her so happy and peaceful. Also wild thinking Her man shared that with Her.

Later Domina and bear came down and lay on the futon and watched some tv. i was itching ot get out of the house. i took a shower, got pretty and said bye bye to Domina and bear as i left to do some shopping.

i went to target and got some things. i looked around in the ladies department looking for a 38A bra. Just no luck. Anything 38 started with C. There were a few 36As but i was just browsing. i looked at shoes too. i ended up picking up an Entertainment Weekly and some loose powder mineral makeup and a lipstick called 'flirty'.

On the way home i stopped at the grocery store and picked up some beer. i stopped at the Starbuck's counter and got my Expresso Doppio. i do every time i go there. The girls there usually greet me with, "Hi jamie!" and get me my Doppio. Its fun chatting with them as girls :)

i got home and bear was asleep next to Domina. i showed Her the things i got and then went to the computer for awhile.

W/we had dinner and watched tv. Domina had told me several times that T/they probably wouldn't play tonight since bear has been so tired. She said it will probably wait til Wednesday.

Domina and bear left to go take a shower and go to bed. i followed Domina up and tended to Her needs. Soon bear came in and both got in the shower together. i was watching the door close and made a please sound. Domina said "jamie wants to watch. Should W/we let her watch?" bear said water might spray out on the floor. i said, "Please, please let me watch!" a couple times. bear then slid the door open a bit. i watched T/them soap each other down and rub each other. Skin on skin. Kissing. It was so wild. i felt i was in another reality or something. Soon bear left the shower and dried down. Domina continued and then came out of the shower.
i watched Her get ready for bed and soon bear came up. Domina then said to kiss Her good night. i would be called if anything calling for a 3 some materialized.

i went down stairs and starting cleaning up the kitchen and the dishes. i was down there for awhile when i heard bear shout that Domina wanted me upstairs.

i came upstairs and entered Domina's bedroom. i could hear the buzzing of Her vibrator and both were naked. Domina said i could get a chair and bring it around and watch. i should be a good girl and watch. i did that. It was amazing watching Domina, my Mistress Wife climb on top of bear's cock and ride. T/they were having so much fun! Soon Domina told me to come around and suck Her bf/husband's cock. i came around and got on my knees and sucked him deeper and deeper. Both were commenting on how T/their girl was doing. Soon Domina told me to pull my panties down. i did and She had bear suck on my clitty. my my my it felt sooo good! Soon She told me to cum. She said i was just a toy for Her and Her bf/husband. i came standing there so intensely! i felt so animalistic! Domina then told me i was dismissed. She told me i'd better stay Her sissy girl. i put on my panties and left Her room and went back to cleaning up the kitchen.

Soon i was back on my computer and massaging my breasts. Yes, cumming i lose that sexual tension and frustration. At that time i didn't feel so feminine and so horny. It felt so good cumming though.

After awhile and watching another episode of 'Quantum Leap' on Hulu i went down to the living room and fell asleep on the futon. i was woken up at about 4am when Domina told me to go to bed in Her room. She was leaving to go to work and bear was already gone.

i went upstairs and fell asleep.

What a weekend! Domina's bear is back. More and more my place in Domina's life is being reinforced. Its not a dream. i am truly Domina's sissy cuckold wife. Yesterday Domina told me that it is good that i accept my place since jealousy and fighting would not work. She told me that i am lucky that i am so loved by Her and all.

ahhhh
sissygirl

bear is home! July 11 2009

2009-07-11T18:14:00.001-05:00

Domina's boyfriend/husband/lover has been out of the country in Switzerland on one of his adventures. Domina has really missed him and especially so since he forgot his cell phone in his car. he left his car with U/us for the trip.

A couple hours ago Domina left to go to the airport to pick bear up. She left with Her latest Charlaine Harris's Sookie Novel. The novel that covers this season's True Blood. About half an hour ago Domina and bear came through the front door. i met T/them in my pink babydoll. bear is looking great although he is so tired. he said he has been up for the last 26 hours travelling.

Domina and bear went upstairs and i followed a few minutes later. bear said he brought home some prezzies and gave U/us some Swiss chocolate, some fancy drinking straws and some rocks off the trail on the Swiss Alps. he is certainly glad to be home. he did say that it was so beautiful over there.

Domina told me to get Her a glass of wine and a beer for bear. i went downstairs and got them and brought them up and handed them to T/them.

Domina said, "jamie" i asked, "That is all Domina?" She said it was. i curtsy'd and left Her bedroom. She shut Her door after me.

Earlier Domina said that the next couple days are bear's. If he wants to sleep he will. If he wants to do something else he will.

Of course his place is with Domina in Her bed. he is Her man. She told me that his place is there.

Last night W/we were watching tv and before retiring for the night She played with my clitty a bit. It felt so nice and while She did She reinforced the fact that bear is Her husband and i am Her wife. That i am Her girl and that is the path i chose.

It has been about 27 days since i last came. It is wonderful really. The sexual frustration and horniness makes me feel all the more turned on by being Her girl, Her cuckold, Her wife. i so love Her!

i don't know what is planned for tomorrow but its not my worry. my place is just to do what Domina tells me to do and take care of Her and bear.

sissygirl

Update July 7 2009

2009-07-07T21:36:00.000-05:00

Today was a pretty nice day although it rained in the afternoon. At least it saved us needing to water the yard and gardens.

i had a nice chat with Larry this morning. Congrats on your new sissy!

i had a terrible thing happen in the shower. While i was washing my belly button piercing went all the way through. i looked at it closer and saw that the hole had gotten so big that it wouldn't hold the jewelry. i thought i might put a ring through it but really the skin is too narrow now. Domina told me not to.

Domina's girlfriend came over for a chat for awhile and i got to sit in. It was nice feeling like one of the girls :)

After she went home. Domina went up to take a nap. i left to go shopping.

The first place i stopped was at Sally's Beauty Supply. Domina wanted me to get some shampoo and conditioner. i went in with my purse. They greeted me with, "Hi jamie!" They were wonderful. The guy working there asked me my partner's name (he is gay) i told him Domina and he said the last time She was in She told him that i was on an herbal regimine. i said i was and he asked me what i was taking. i told him and he asked me to write it down which i did. He went to help some customers and i found the shampoo and conditioner i was looking for and went up front. i handed him the list and was helped by a girl at the register. After the customer left the guy asked some more questions. i answered and then we were all three talking about it. i told the girl that i am at an A cup. She asked me what i was trying for. i told her a B cup. i told them that i like learning how to be as feminine and as passing as possible by the way i speak, move, act, etc. She complimented me by telling me i looked great. She was wonderful!

i left and went to Super Walmart where i picked up Chinese stir fry for dinner and a few other things. i picked up an inexpensive Ice branded nail polish called Pure Ice Peony. Domina liked the color. i painted my toes. i'm debating whether to do my finger nails too. Its been hard lately keeping my nails looking good.

Next i went to Red X a grocery/hardware store where i picked up some garage sale signs.

i then went to fill Domina's car with gas and came home. Domina was awake. It was after 6:30pm at that time. i fixed dinner and W/we watched some of the True Blood news on HBO.

Domina has immersed Herself in Charlain Harris's books and went up to read. i cleaned up the kitchen and did the dishes.

sissygirl

Update 2 July 2009

2009-07-02T22:27:00.000-05:00

in my pink baby doll

Last Sunday Domina took bear to the airport to catch his plane to go on his overseas adventure. After She got home She got a call from him telling Her he forgot his cell in his car. he was just catching the plane at that time. Domina was a bit unhappy that She couldn't have close contact via phone. For a couple days She awaited an email from him and on Wednesday morning received an email from him. he had gotten to the hotel the day before and the Internet connection was down. She was so elated to hear from him. She really does miss him

Since i finally figured how to tuck myself Domina wants me to do it most of the time. It does present a flatter appearance in my clothes which She said looks more feminine of course. Last night while W/we were watching a movie, (Rules of Attraction) i asked Domina if She would like to play with my clitty. Immediately She said, "No". She then asked me if i was still tucked. i said yes. She then nodded.

Today Domina worked and then came home and went to work in the yard. i had taken a shower and put my hair in a ponytail. i put on my makeup, lipstick, eyeliner and mascara. i put on my ladies watch and put on a pair of short denim shorts and my green girls shirt and sandals. i grabbed my purse and left to go pay some bills and run some errands. i shopped at Sams Club and picked up a rotissairie chicken and got some veggies at the grocery store.

i came home and Domina had been resting. She came back outside and continued working in the yard. She then asked me if i wanted to play tonight. i asked what W/we were doing just interested. She told me i was going to wear my pink nightie She likes, put a clitty ring on while She played with leopet. i would not be allowed to cum.

Domina took a shower and i got dinner together. Soon W/we were all downstairs having dinner. Domina was in wearing a black and pink nightie and me in my pink one without a bra or panties. i love the feminine feel. Its wild to see my breasts starting to fill the nightie. leopet was naked. Domina started playing with his man cock saying She loved Her boy's cocks. She kept playing with it and played with my clit a bit and slapped it and pulled once in awhile. She got on and rode leopet really going back and forth. i watched without touching myself. Domina had reminded me that i am not allowed to. After a bit She poured some lube on leopet's cock and stroked him a bit then flung Her hand toward me splattering some lube on and around my clitty. Soon She told me to play with myself. She then played with leopet's ass for awhile while playing with his cock. i would touch my clitty and rub up and down. It is so sensitive. It got harder and harder. Before Domina played with my clit for a bit and it wouldn't change for quite awhile. Then it started getting harder. Now i am playing with myself being careful not to cum. leopet came while playing with his cock and ass and Domina saw his cock stayed hard and enjoyed riding again.

While i was playing with my clitty Domina started telling me i should thank bear for taking Her pain while i had the pressure off and be a girl.

Soon Domina got up and went up to Her bedroom and kissed me tonight

Now i am going to resume massaging my breasts :)

sissygirl

Friday June 19 2009 Quick Entry

2009-06-19T09:48:00.001-05:00

Today i woke up with all my nails colored "Pinkish" by Revlon. i did them all last night. i love the color. i just got done showering, shaving my legs and everything, putting on my mineral foundation, pinkish liptsick, eyeliner, mascara, and light eye shadow. i put my hair back in a pony tail with some bangs forward. i made sure to tuck.

Domina called me and told me to go get Her some wine for the weekend. bear is coming over (is here now). W/we are going to eat Chinese tonight and tomorrow Domina and bear are going out of town for a romantic weekend bicycling.

leopet, Domina's older son and i plan on going out to eat and the movies while Domina and bear are gone tomorrow. i hope T/they have fun :)

sissygirl

Domina and bear wants me to get the wine, some cheese (smoky cheddar) and apples.

Last Weekend

2009-06-16T18:04:00.001-05:00

In my office

Last weekend was really beautiful. Especially Sunday.

i woke up in Domina's bed really early that Sunday morning. bear was at the door and Domina nudged me and said, "jamie". "bear's here". i said, "Yes Domina" Knowing that when bear is here his place is in Her bed. i got up and went downstairs and made some coffee. bear had brought Domina Her coffee/latte from Mc'Ds.

i was on the computer for awhile. Her bedroom door opens and closes from time to time. After a bit T/they both came down and left to go shopping. Domina told me before that T/they were going to Cabela's to look for some things for his trip out of the country and to look for bed sheets.

i went up and took my shower. i shaved my legs and got all pretty.

Later Domina and bear returned. bear bought a nice outdoors shirt on sale for $3.00 and was very happy with it. he also bought a set of Queen sized 500+ count sheets that was satiny scarlet red. So very pretty!

i went out and about shopping and going to yard sales. i ended up coming home with three small butterfly stained glass art.

W/we sat out on the deck for awhile. bear had gone and bought several half-chickens and large shrimp for Domina to grill. T/they all looked so tasty! bear started them on the grill and W/we all talked as they grilled.

leopet was kind of scarce. Sinus allergies usually affect him so.

W/we watched an episode of True Blood on HBO. This has become O/our show now. She has watched all the episodes and wants me to catch up so W/we can start watching the new season. i do love the show. i keep identifying with the Sookie character. Her being blonde and i love her personality. i also love the sundresses she wears. It occurred to me that i haven't ever worn one. i asked Domina if i could get one and i think i will. T/they look so pretty and feminine :)

Lately i have been waking up in the morning and first putting on girl's jeans and usually a tank top. Later in the day changing into denim skirts. This day was no exception. i put on my short short denim skirt and my really short pink top. W/we all liked the look. It was fun and i felt more girly and slutty.

Domina told bear that T/they were going to bed and i followed T/them up to Her room. W/we got there and Domina told bear to strip. She had him get on the bed on his back. She played with his manly cock and got him ohh so hard!

Domina then got on and rode for awhile. i was sitting on Her bed and She looked down on me and told me Her boyfriend wanted to suck. She told me to give him my clitty. i went near him and Domina pulled my panties down and gave him my clitty. he sucked and sucked. It felt so good. Sooo good!

i didn't want to cum. i wanted it to last. Domina told me to give it to him again. he begged for cum and She told me to. i did and i screamed!

i moved away and Domina rode and rode and then got off and pleasured Herself with Her vibe. Soon She was back on bear but he just wouldn't cum.

Domina then told me to pull up my panties and skirt and go back downstairs. She said that bear will sleep with Her and i will sleep downstairs. i said, "Yes Domina" and went back downstairs.

Once downstairs i caught a whiff of a bad odor i had smelled earlier that day. i decided to go down to the basement to check it out. i found that we had a sewage backup. Ewwww!

i went up and told leopet then Domina. leopet and i worked for hours vacuuming the standing water up and then trying to figure out the problem.(After a couple days we found that the floater unit for the sewage pump was bad. we finally got it fixed.)

The next morning i woke up asleep in my office. Since the basement was messed up Domina's 29 year old son sleeped in the living room. Domina woke me up and hugged me and told me to sleep in Her bed. She was leaving for work. i went up and saw that bear was getting ready to leave. i went back to sleep.

Domina and bear are going out of town this coming weekend for a bicycle trip in the state. T/they have a longer trip scheduled next month out of state for about a week.

Today i put my hair up in a pony tail. i asked Domina if when my bangs get long enough will they become part of the pony tail. She said yes. For now though i have to comb the bangs over or pin them up.

i finally figured out how to tuck yesterday. yaaaay! Domina likes it. She wants me too. She says i look more feminine that way and no one would guess otherwise. She is telling me to correct people when they call me sir as well. i was on the phone today with a service rep about my step son's computer. i said i go by jamie. The rep called me jamie throughout and once in awhile called me sir. i guess because the original call with them had my boy name on it. Domina told me i should have corrected her.

Well. Today was so hot. About 100 degrees F. Lets see how tomorrow will be!

teeeheee!

sissygirl

Wow Already a week!

2009-06-05T18:28:00.000-05:00

Its hard to believe its been a week since Domina and i started out on O/our road trip to Branson, Arkansas, Texas, Oklahoma, and back to Missouri. my my how time flies!

Yesterday was a pretty nice day. i was out shopping a bit and washed Domina's car at a drive through wash. i vaccuumed it out after i got home. i guess i got a burst of energy and i organized and cleaned up Domina's side of the garage where Her craft room will be. Now She can set it up. She was so happy when She woke up from Her nap and came down and saw it. It sure made me feel so good!

Today i went out shopping again. i went to Super Walmart and got a bunch of groceries. i stopped at Target looking for some more Lavender massage oil but couldn't find any. i got some baby oil instead. i went to a grocery store and got a compliment for my pink flowery shirt i was wearing. It is so nice to hear that from other girls.

i returned home and found Domina on Her bed reading. i felt like taking a power nap. She took a shower and She and leopet left to get some lumber to make a lean to shed for the garden tools. T/they also bought a battery powered drill and saw too.

Domina also got some KFC. The new grilled chicken. i think W/we all preferred the crunchy one.

W/we watched the movie, "Waiting" about waiters at a restraunt. What a hoot!

Domina said that Her boyfriend/husband bear is coming over Saturday and Sunday. She said that T/they are going to play in the bedroom and playroom and have sex. Domina said he is going to be leaving in about a week to fly over seas for one of his adventures. She told me that i probably won't get to cum. i've cum enough She said. She said i need to have some frustration. i said, "Yes Domina".

W/we plan on going yard sailing tomorrow. She also said She is going to work in the garden and the craft room.

sissygirl

Whirlwind Trip!

2009-06-03T16:17:00.001-05:00

Since last week W/we celebrated O/our 3rd wedding anniversary Domina wanted to treat me to a trip to Silver Dollar City. She is so wonderful! W/we left last Friday after She got off work and took Her little Kia straight out from KC on Hiway 71. Domina has a Sprint Instinct and W/we took advantage of the GPS features to get U/us there. W/we stopped at a thrift store on the way for a swimming suit for me since i hadn't packed any and Domina planned on swimming or using the hot tub at the hotel. Domina didn't want me to get a female swim suit but reconsidered by the time W/we arrived.

W/we arrived in Branson MO in the early evening and checked into O/our hotel. What a wonderful place the Fall River Suites. W/we were situated near the lake and the suite had a screened in porch.

Domina was quite tired since She woke up at 3:30am that morning for work. i took Her car and drove around Branson. i stopped at Walmart for some shaving cream and hair conditioner. i drove around for a restraunt to eat at but ended up stopping at McDonalds. It was quick teehee

i got back and found Domina awake and reading. i got in my pink baby doll nighty and went out in the screened in porch and had some beer, smoked my cigarillos and read my horror novel. i then went to bed. i hardly slept. i think i got around three hours sleep.

W/we got up and had a great breakfast at I-HOP and then drove out to Silver Dollar City. W/we had great fun walking around and looking at craftsmen/women and went on a few rides. After several hours W/we took the tour through Marvel Cave and had a blast.

Silver Dollar is a wonderful theme park with an old American theme. It did seem like the capitol of conservative America but W/we had fun. Finally W/we had a chicken buffet dinner and left to go back to the hotel.

W/we woke up early the next morning and went through a drive through for breakfast. W/we went south and drove straight to a town in Texas to pick up Domina's oldest son. He is staying with U/us for the month. W/we then turned north and drove to Oklahoma and stayed with Her sister and family. It was a nice visit.

W/we left after eating at I-HOP and headed straight up I-35. W/we arrived back in KC at about 7pm.

What a wonderful trip! i went enfemme the whole time. Even when Domina and i went in the hot tub i wore the earlier mentioned swimming shorts and a tank top. i did get lots of stares by people more and more as W/we went south. Domina Who usually tells me that i am imagining the stares and all noticed them too. She would pitch in that W/we were girls on the trip and W/we left O/our hubbies home. Once when She was using my credit card with my name on it they said they couldn't take it without the owner there. She said Her husband wasn't there to not out me.

Today i was out most of the day running errands. i took O/our dog and cat to the vet for shots. i went to several thrift stores and the Pottery Barn. Lastly i stopped at the grocery store for groceries.

i got home and brought everything in. i saw that bear's car was here and went up to Domina's bedroom and knocked. i opened the door and saw Domina and bear naked in bed snuggled together. It was nice seeing T/them back together. i filled T/them both in on how the shopping went.

i came downstairs and here i am. teeheee!

sissygirl

Third Anniversary

2009-05-28T09:06:00.000-05:00

Yesterday was Domina and my third wedding anniversary! W/we had a wonderful dinner at Outback Steakhouse and exchanged cards. Both O/our cards were a bit humorous and sentinmental :) For me it was Mickey and Minnie asking "Still Do?" and then the answer "me too". She wrote above Mickey (Domina) and above Minnie (jamie) teehee. mine to Her was one of a teddy bear saying something like "You've got my head, my two big feet, etc and then and you have my heart.

It was so nice

For O/our anniversary W/we are going on a road trip. Driving through Missouri and down to pick up Her older boy in Texas and then through Oklahoma where W/we are visiting Her Sis. It should be fun :) i asked Her if She will want me to present more as a boy. She said no, I like you how you are.

Last Sunday when i woke up downstairs on the futon i heard bear come out of Domina's bedroom and come down. he was going to go out to get some breakfast i think. i went upstairs and saw Domina laying there on the bed. i asked Her if She had a good time. She said that T/they were both so tired. T/they had a quick fuck and went to sleep. i told Her that it sounded exciting. She grinned :)

i asked Her if bear is the one sleeping with Her when he is over. She said yes. his place is in bed with me when he is over except for nights before work. Then you will sleep with me since bear is a snorer.

At one point i don't remember how it got to it Domina said that when W/we get some money She definitely plans on putting me in some chastity device.

Later that morning i took my shower and went out shopping for a few things. Domina had asked me to take some pork out of the freezer to grill later in the day. It suddenly occurred to me that i had forgotten to do that when i was out and about so i hurried up. i got hope and took the pork out.

i was working on the boxes some more in the garage while the others were in the back yard. It looked like it was going to rain and the pork was defrosted. i grilled them and nuked several baked potatoes. W/we had a nice dinner out on the deck.

W/we watched some movie on tv while bear was having some solitary time. Early in the evening Domina told bear to go up to Her room. She told me to listen for my name. When i heard it i was to come upstairs. Take off all my clothes and enter Her room. Then kneel at the end of Her bed. i was doing dishes when i heard my name. i did as She said. i entered Her bedroom and saw naked bear with his wrists cuffed to the headboard. Domina told me to take off all my clothes including my bra. i did and moved to the end of Her bed.

Domina had been playing with him by striking his thighs with a paddle. She told me to move forward and get him hard for Her so She can fuck Her boyfriend. i moved forward and put his man cock in my sissy girl mouth and started sucking. i sucked and sucked for quite awhile. he got a bit hard but not enough. She then had me move forward so he could suck me. i did and he got harder still.

Domina had me get off the bed while She got on for awhile and then had me move forward. She had him suck me some more and more. Finally She started calling me a sissy girl and telling me i am just a sissy girl and other things. i begged and came and came! It was exhausting. teeehee!
Domina then told me to put on my clothes and go downstairs.

Since it was a work night. i soon noticed bear sleeping on the futon downstairs. i joined Domina in Her bed around midnight.

sissygirl

Today

2009-05-24T00:00:00.004-05:00

Today i went shopping at yard sales, Walmart, and the grocery store. bear, Domina's boyfriend brought over some marinated steaks while i was out. i got home and found that Domina and he were playing in the playroom. She had said that he needed Big Mistress today.

i grilled the steaks and veggies with the new grill pan and W/we had a nice dinner. Domina, bear, and leopet and i watched Zoolander while eating.

When W/we got done Domina said that She and bear were going to bed. i was to sleep downstairs unless i was called.

i did the dishes and cleaned up the kitchen. While i was doing that i heard those unmistakable sounds from Domina's bedroom. i could hear Her saying, "Give it to me!" What sounds of exstacy! Lots of creaking bed sounds and moaning. Wow!

One thing that i don't know if anyone following me knows is that i am not permitted to play with my clitty without permission from Domina. It isn't mine to play with. i know many cuckolds do when their wives play with their bf's, fb's, etc but i just can't. It does add to that sweet cucky frustration but i love it!

i'll soon be going to bed on the futon downstairs.

What a day! i'm feeling more and more fem. i can't imagine going out and about shopping anymore posing as a male.

i painted my fingernails pink tonight to match my toenails. i love them all pink. Its a soft light shade of pink that Domina likes.
sissygirl

Today Saturday May 16 2009

2009-05-16T23:55:00.000-05:00

It was a beautiful day today! Yesterday was so full of storms. i woke up this morning alone in bed. i vaguely remember waking up in the middle of the night when bear came into Domina's bedroom fumbling around in the dark. Domina woke up and asked what he was doing. he said, "i don't know". She told him to get into bed. i fell asleep again and then woke up at about 6am and noticed that Domina wasn't in bed. i fell back asleep and woke up around 8am. i went downstairs and saw Domina and bear in the futon together. She asked if i would make coffee.

bear left on his morning routine to McD's and QT and brought home a latte for Domina. Domina asked if i wanted to go yard saling. i wasn't sure. i then decided to stay home. She and bear left and i was at home surfing on the computer, massaging my breasts and watching a horror movie lol.

Since Domina had taken my wallet or i thought i knew i couldn't go anywhere so i did some chores like laundry and mounting a mount for my hair dryer. i then took a shower. i shaved my legs. i always love having smooth legs. The day between shaving them i usually feel them and say to myself, "They are so hairy! ick!" i used lavender hair conditioner as my shaving creme and used a vanilla scented body wash.

After drying my hair i put on my makeup, eyeliner, mascara, lip color, etc and came downstairs. Domina and bear returned from yard sales and She gave me a pair of short short tan shorts. i put them on. i love them!

i left and went to Walmart for awhile and shopped around looking for yard sales. After a couple hours and knowing i forgot my cell phone i came home.

i found Domina in bear's arms in Her bed. She said bear had been working in the playroom straightening it up and She in the garden. She said T/they were taking a nap. i went downstairs and was on the computer for awhile and then took a nap in the living room.

i woke up and went upstairs. i was talking with Domina about the night before while bear took a shower. When he was out Domina took Her shower.

W/we then left to go to a Chinese buffet. i wore my pink flowered blouse with girls jeans, my black female canvas shoes and a light jacket. It was such a nice meal. i felt all the eyes on me in the restraunt. i usually feel it. i think its not common for a girl to.

W/we soon left and came home. W/we watched Talladega Nights. What a funny movie! i've seen it several times and always love it. i think its wild that there is a cuckolding theme within it too :)

W/we lay on the futon under the comforter and Domina played with bear's man cock most of the time. Once in awhile She brushed Her hand on my clit. That felt so nice :)

After the movie Domina said the plan was that T/they were going to nap and maybe sometime call me up. i got on the computer and heard the squeaks of the bed but didn't hear my name.

'tis Domina's paragative. Its funny how cuckolding is hot to me in so many ways. One of which is the power transfer. i can't think of it any more transferred to the Mistress Wife than in cuckolding. Funny how my clitty gets so excited knowing i have no power, no control. Sometimes i wonder how Domina sees me really.

i think it is wild thinking She is in the arms of a real man. A masculine manly man. Her sissy husband wishing to be more and more feminine who She loves too :)

sissygirl

Saturday May 9 2009 Yard saling teehee!

2009-05-09T23:32:00.000-05:00

Domina told me to Twitter to this blog and write this blog :)

Last night Domina said that W/we were going yard saling Saturday morning. bear was going to be here at about 7am and if i wanted to go i'd better be ready by then. i thought i would at least shave. giggle

i woke up at about five til and went to make coffee. leopet was already making coffee and sneezing his head off. In the Spring his allergies like most people are so bad.

i went back upstairs and told Domina he was making coffee. i went into the bathroom and shaved using the Coconut scented Suave conditioner on my face and it worked quite well. i brushed my teeth too. i then went downstairs and checked my email and took my herbs and vitamins. i grabbed a cup of coffee for Domina with milk and sweetner and got a cup for myself. i checked my computer for the outside temperature which as about 51. "Too cool for short sleeves" i thought. i went back upstairs and put on a pair of my tight female jeans, my white bra with forms, my gray female shirt with the tie on the bottom and sleeves that go mid arm. i went back down to the office and was on my computer for a bit when bear, Domina's submissive boyfriend arrived. he went upstairs and soon Domina shouted, "jamie, lets go!". i said "Yes Domina" and W/we piled into Her small car. Domina was driving. bear sat next to Her. i was in the backseat behind Her.

W/we stopped at 7-11 for some pastries and some money from the ATM and then continued to the neighborhood yard sale. W/we didn't find the one advertised but came upon one out in the country a bit that turned out to be more of a liquidation sale. W/we shopped there quite awhile. i found several computer games and a few other things that cost about $1.50. These were in the shrink wrap decent computer games! bear bought a box of CDs for about $1.00! W/we were all excited and continued to another neighborhood. W/we ended up finding a Mongoose bicycle, floor to ceiling size mirrors for the playroom, an office chair, and some other things.

W/we drove home. Domina and bear then took the jeep and his SUV and went back to collect the other things.

i took a couple packs of pork chops out of the freezer to thaw out.

i took off to the theatre and purchased tickets for the new Star Trek Movie to watch tomorrow! yaaaay!

When i got back Domina, bear and leopet were working in the yard. Soon T/they put things away and Domina said She and bear were going to have a session in the playroom. i was sooo tired i went and took a nap. i really didn't sleep but i felt more rested when i arose. i got up and took a shower. i put on my makeup and my pink baby doll.

Domina took a shower and told me to ready dinner.

i got the grill going and used pork rubbing on the pork chops. i also prepared a couple Asian Steamables, corn on the cob Steamables, and two potatoes for Domina and leopet.

Domina, bear and i lay on the futon in front of the tv while leopet watched from a recliner. W/we watched Adam Sandler's "Bedtime Stories" W/we thought it was even wierd for an Adam Sandler movie. Domina played with bear under the covers most of the time and a bit with me. Sooo nice!

After the movie was over Domina told me that She and bear were going to bed. She told me to listen for my name and to keep my baby doll on but take my clitty out and sit on the chair at the end of the bed.

i got on my computer for awhile. After about 20 minutes i heard my name.

"jamie!"

i came upstairs and did as Domina instructed. Domina was naked and laying with Her head on Her pillows. bear's head was at the other end of the bed. She told me that he was hungry for something to suck on. my clitty. She told me to feed it to him. i got up and did just that. he started sucking and my my it felt so good!. Soon She told me to sit back down and told him to suck Her toes which he did. i sat there quite attentive.

All this time Domina was playing with his cock and sometimes scratching it and pulling his balls. he got harder and She got on. She asked me if it turned me on to see Her fuck a real man and not a pussy like me. i said, "Oh yes Domina". Soon She told me that Her boyfriend needed to suck some more. Remember that you are just a toy here. i moved up and he started sucking harder and harder. Finally i begged and She told me i could cum which i did so hard!. She told me to sit down. i did. She asked if i felt relaxed. i told Her i felt sedated teeehee! She then told me that She had other plans too which i'm sure included having him fuck me for the first time but W/we were all so tired. She then told me to write this up in my blog and twitter it. She told me that i will be sleeping downstairs and i will get to sleep with Her tomorrow night. i said yes Domina and blew out the candles. i went downstairs and did the dishes and then wrote this office.
What a day!!!!!!

sissygirl

Cool! Friday is here! May 8 2009

2009-05-08T12:31:00.000-05:00

Yaaaay!

i just got done cleaning the living room and the fridge. Domina told me She wanted both done today and i did. i got a bucket and put some cleanser in it and went around and scrubbed the walls and light switches of fingerprints and grime. i've found that that is one thing people don't notice unless pointed out to them. i hope Domina likes it.

This week has been going pretty well. It has rained on and off. Last week i had a lot of trouble with my car's engine cutting off in mid traffic or would not start from time to time. leopet worked on it a lot and i helped advise him. we just weren't getting anywhere considering the usual things like filters, spark plugs, etc. Finally we took the car to a service garage and it was diagnosed as the crank sensor was faulty. we had never heard of that but they replaced it and i haven't had any problems since. i hope we don't have any further problems with the cars.

This week i worked from Monday to Wednesday and they ran out of work for us to do so i've been the housewife for the last couple days.

Last night leopet was out and Domina and i was watching the recording of the last American Idol and Bones. i asked Her if She would play with my clitty and She said, "Ok, for a little bit". This week bear hasn't come over due to work related things but Domina said he is spending the weekend with us (Sat and Sun). While She was playing with me She told me that i may get to cum this weekend or not. Probably not since i had gotten to pretty often lately since bear has been over. The last time She and bear was playing a cuckold scenario and called me up while T/they were having sex. She told bear to suck me and he did a long time but i hadn't cum. She told me to sit and watch and play with myself. T/they were getting very hot and i got to that point and begged and came all over myself as i was sitting there. It was such a hot session. She was going to leave the sheets like they were. All wet and all but She told me to change them.

Last night as She was playing with me She continued and said that i may be used as a prop for Her and bear. i imagine that She will use my clitty in a forced bi scenario. W/we'll see teeeheee!

Domina so wants to see the new Star Trek movie and so do we. W/we plan on trying to see it sometime this weekend. Also W/we plan on doing some yardsales and the city market.

Yesterday i went shopping at Walmart and picked up food and a few other things. i picked up a pair of Ladies black canvas casual shoes for $8.00 and a pair of black clogs for a dollar. Later in the evening Domina made me some jewelry; a pair of ear rings with platinum butterflies and some dangly pink and crystal butterflies for my navel piercing. Earlier in the day i shopped for more feminine nipple jewelry. i hoped to find some pink balls for the bars but everyone had 14g jewelry and nothing else. mine are 12g. Domina said that i should go to 14g since they are smaller and more feminine in Her view.

teeheee! Kind of a rambling blog entry but i posted as i thought of them.

sissygirl

Weekend Entry May 2 2009

2009-05-02T22:18:00.000-05:00

Wow! Its May. A week has gone by since my last post. i think its interesting how time passes when you are unemployment vs employed, etc. The week just seems slower in a way when working to me at least.

i have been working this temporary job that is almost all outside. The weather has been sunny and rainy but its been nice working again. Domina is certainly happy to see another paycheck coming in!

Yes, i have to pretend i am a male when working but at least the people i work with seem easy to work with. i put my hair back in a pony tail and wear strickly unisex clothing. When i am off the scrunchee comes off and my hair is down!. Often times i put my makeup on with a lipstick before i come home.

The house isn't as kept up and Domina wants me to work on it tomorrow. i have been working later in the day lately. She wants me to vaccuum all over, clean Her bathroom, Her bedroom and the living room. She and leopet has been working in the garden. Its going to be quite a garden this year.

This morning Domina got up early (6am) and went to yard sales and took Titus O/our dog in for dog grooming at 7. While shopping She found several treasures such as a pair of pretty deck shoes for Her, pretty pink low heels for me, a stool, a stuffed Stewie doll for leopet and other things. After She got back She was in the bathroom and i heard Her on the phone. She hung up and said Her bear was coming over.
i left to do some shopping. i went to Super Walmart and bought things for dinner tomorrow and a few other household items. i stopped at another store called Red X and found a couple bottles of wine She enjoys. She and bear first found that wine on one of T/their weekend adventures away together.

i came home and found bear's car in the driveway. i parked Domina's car out on the curve. W/we haven't been using mine much lately since having car trouble during the week.

i went in the house and greeted bear. he was kind of achy due to working out daily to prepare for his next adventure hiking the Swiss Alps. Domina and leopet were working in the garden and soon T/they had enough. T/they got cleaned up and W/we all went to the Country Buffet for an 'All you can eat'. leopet was sitting next to me and Domina and bear sat together on the opposite side of the table. i was wearing a new feminine shirt i got at a yard sale last week with feminine denim jeans without pockets and my new open toe sandals that show off my pink nails. my hair is down and looks pretty according to Domina. i was wearing red lip color, makeup, black eyeliner and mascara. W/we had a nice dinner.

W/we stopped at the grocery store for some things and returned home. W/we were going to watch a movie but Domina said She was too tired from waking up so early and the garden work. Domina lay on the futon in front of the TV between Her two men; bear and leopet while She had me, Her girl on the couch. It was a nice view seeing Her play with Her bear under the covers. Once in awhile She put Her hand on my freshly shaven leg. That was so nice to me.

W/we watched a hilarious 'Big Bang Theory' W/we recorded on the DVR as well as 'How I Met Your Mother'. Afterwards Domina said that She and bear were going to bed. No switching tonight, i am sleeping downstairs and She and bear were sleeping together. i guess part of it is that bear is going on his adventure soon. She said there wouldn't be any woohoo tonight since She was so tired. She did thank me and i told Her that She is doing what She wants to do. She said, "Yes, i am sleeping with My boyfriend".

i tucked T/them into bed and left Her room. i remembered that i didn't have a cami on. Just my bra under a pj shirt so i knocked and went in and got one. i curtsied and said, "i love You" and left Her room after shutting Her door.

Today i feel more feminine. More the girl. ahh i almost forgot. When W/we went to the store Domina told bear to escort me into the store. She didn't want Her girl to go unescorted. i so love Her!

sissygirl

Weekend of April 24 2009

2009-04-26T11:14:00.001-05:00

On Saturday i woke up at 6:30am. i was kind of surprised because i was up pretty late the night before. i went and made coffee and then took a shower. Domina had said that i should take a shower by 7am since bear was coming over and W/we were going to yard sales, the market, etc. i took a nice shower and when i came out i got dressed in Female jeans, a pretty green flowered blouse, and my new sandals.
bear arrived
W/we went to yard sales. i picked up a couple pretty shirts, a USB cup warmer for my computer, and a pink Beanie Baby bear
Went to River Market where W/we shopped at a huge antique store. Domina actually found a quirt. Owiiee!. W/we then shopped at the River Market itself and got some veggies and herbs. W/we then had lunch at Winslows BBQ. Love that smokey taste!
Went to Hyvee and bought brats for dinner and a huge pork tenderloin and had it cut. Got home found the pork hadn't made it to the basket. i had already changed into my pink/black cami and big girl bra and short skirt. Domina told bear and i to go back to the store. She told me to go as i was. we did and got the pork.
i then grilled the brats as a storm came in. They turned out great!
W/we watched an episode of Angel (puppets)
W/we watched Borne Supremacy. Domina got tired and went upstairs to take a shower. bear had gone up already to take a bath. i then found that She was going to bed. She said T/they were just going to sleep. i asked if She wanted me to sleep downstairs. She said yes.
leopet and i finished the movie. we talked about lots of things.
i was on the computer for a couple hours before i went to bed on the futon downstairs.

Sunday April 19 2009

2009-04-19T12:38:00.000-05:00

Saturday i was getting ready to go out to work. bear arrived to take Domina out of town to a Bed and breakfast. W/we were doing both at the same time. Domina asked me to get some things for Her while i was getting ready too. Soon i left. Domina and bear left. T/they went to stay at a supposed haunted Bed and breakfast to celebrate his birthday.

i worked for a few hours and at one point called Domina about picking up some herbs and veggies at Home Depot Sunday Morning. She had said that they were going on sale. i finally got a hold of Her as She was getting ready to go down to the pool. She gave me a list of what to get and then hung up.

As Domina told us, it was a boys and girls night. leopet had bought 4 pounds of chicken wings and drumettes and i stopped by our local Hyvee and picked up some Hooters breading, Three Mile Island sauce and Hot wing sauce as well as some beer. Domina usually limits our beer to three or four a night but didn't limit it for Saturday.

i got home and prepared the wings. i fried them up according to the instructions. we then went down and watched 'Danny Darko'. What a movie! The wings turned out wonderful too! i loved Three Mile Island especially teeeheee!

i went to bed alone after being on the computer for awhile and massaging my breasts. i do love doing that. As Domina observed that i am playing with myself when i do that. It kind of replaces masturbating in a while and to think that it is helping develop my feminine figure :)

i woke up at 7am and went to Home Depot. i wasn't certain exactly how many of each Domina wanted me to get but as it turned out i got what She wanted. i hadn't had time for a shower and makeup but i did shave my face and brushed my hair and my teeth. There were traces of lip color on my lips. i went into Home Depot with my purse. It went pretty well.

i stopped by the grocery store and picked up a few things like coffee and donuts. i got home and got on my computer and massaged my breasts more. i had a very nice chat with sissy jackie on http://bimpie.no-ip.com/discuss. leopet is working on Domina's car and i went out to help him a bit.

Domina and bear returned home. She was looking so good. She had a manicure and massage while at the B&B. She asked if i missed Her and i said "Oh yes Domina!" i told Her what was going on. W/we all went up to Her bedroom and She told me a bit of T/their time together. i asked if there was any sex. She said, "Oh yes. I will tell you later but W/we need to rest". bear woke up and asked what was up. i said W/we were having some girl talk teehee. i asked if She wanted me to put makeup on. "Of course. But after a shower later". Right now bear and I are going to take a nap. i told Her that i was going to but will downstairs. She said, "Like a good sissy girl should. " i said yes Domina. She slid into bed with bear and snuggled up to him. i curtsied and closed Her bedroom door.

i came downstairs and worked on the site some more. Soon i'll take a nap :)

sissygirl

The week Friday April 17 2009

2009-04-17T18:43:00.003-05:00

Its been a nice week this week. All week i have been attending a training course that is preparing me for my temp job that should last a couple months. Domina is certainly happy to see me working although She is wanting to adjust the chores around here. i am happy to be working too. Like Domina said, for this i need to pretend to be a boy but i'm always a girl. i'm tying my hair back in a pony tail and wearing crystal ear studs. As far as wear its more unisex. No makeup :( As soon as i got home from work today Domina told me to get makeup on my face especially eyeliner and get girly swoon :) After i put it all on She said "Much better".

It was kind of funny, a lady came up to me saying, "Excuse me ma'am". i love it :)

bear was over earlier this week. Big Mistress came out. No sex. It was all BDSM play. This weekend Domina and bear are going out of town together to a B&B to celebrate his birthday. he has hopes that it will be a good adventure. Domina feels like getting out of town. Domina told me the other day to think about where i would like to go out of town with Her next month since it will be O/our 3rd anniversary. yaaaaay! She said that W/we might go out of town to a B&B as a couple of lesbians. i think it will be fun!

The weather sure has been up and down. It was beautiful today. Tomorrow they are forecasting rain.

Yes to the one who asked if "Are you real" from the Ds Discussion board http://bimpie.no-ip.com/discuss. teehee i am real. The board is working very well. i had some technical issues that were causing a pain but one thing about things like that, rarely are they original. Someone else tackled the same issues and that sure helps!

Have a wonderful weekend!

sissygirl

Happy Easter Apr 12 2009

2009-04-12T10:11:00.002-05:00

i love the feeling of the cool air outside. The weather has been crazy lately. Spring feeling one day then wintry the next. It almost seems like growing pains going into the next season.

It doesn't seem like much has been happening lately. Domina and leopet has been concentrating on yard/garden work. bear hasn't been out here since last Tuesday. he is coming over today and Domina said is spending the night, maybe two.

For the last couple days Domina and i have gone to yard sales and thrift stores. Sadly i had to throw away my wonderful white pocketed bra the other day. It had gotten so worn and discolored especially after using lotion with tanning elements. Domina found a new thrift store near U/us and W/we visited it. voila! i found a new pocketed white bra. Teehee! i also found a couple light jackets and some cute tops at thrift stores.

Domina had been mentioning that Her car was so messy. She said She wanted the trash taken out of it. Yesterday i did a complete inside detailing including vacuuming and shampooing the carpeting and upholstery. It really made Her happy. Domina and leopet were working on putting up privacy blinds on O/our lower deck so W/we can sun/play naked. i am pretty impressed with the work. Domina said She was really hungry and wanted me to get some steaks. i went to O/our local Hyvee all fem of course. i always do anyway giggle and got some KC Strip steaks, double baked potatoes, baked beans and salad. It all turned out very well!

Domina had been conversing with a few potential playmates via Collarme lately. One male sub seemed really interested but would have quite a distance to come. Domina was really irked though when She hadn't heard from him for awhile and then found out that he lost Her email address. She decided to put a pause on Collarme and go offline. It really has taken a lot of time for people who hasn't seemed too dedicated. She did meet a male Dom who wants to try his sub/masochistic side. he is interested to in being one that Domina's bear might top. W/we'll see!

i went to see my psych the other day for a scheduled visit. i told her about the problems we had a couple weeks ago when we went to St Louis. She thought that having multiples in the mix may cause more tension and cause Domina and i to grow apart. i told Domina. She thought that not being in alt lifestyles she may not have a full view of what they are all about. Also that O/our relationship has just evolved. Domina feels that each of us has our own part to bring to Her whole. bear is Her husband/boyfriend/lover. leopet Her helper and pet. i am Her wife/girlfriend. She feels closer to me and thinks O/our relationship is better for it all. Although at first She didn't want a girl for a husband She prefers me as Her girl. Although She didn't like the idea of cuckolding at first, She loves it now. Even bear who can't see cuckolding and extended chastity for himself is getting into cuckolding me teeheee.

One thing i told Domina the other day. Through it all i want to know that i am special to Her and that She cherishes me. She said that i am and She does :)

Tomorrow i start a training week for a short term job i will be doing for the next few weeks. Like Domina said, i will need to pretend i am a boy again. i am going to color my hair today since it needs it. Natural blonde this time. i will be wearing my hair in a pony tail.

sissygirl

Saturday April 4 2009

2009-04-04T22:23:00.001-05:00

This morning i woke up with Domina at about 6:30am to get ready to go to yard sales. i made coffee and brought Domina up some cereal. She said bear was bringing Her Cappuchino from McDonalds.

i took a shower and got pretty. Lately i have been wearing a red lip stain either from Covergirl or Max and then putting on a coat of "Snowcone". Domina loves the pink results :)

Domina, bear, leopet and i then left to find some treasures. W/we found some nice fem shirts. A couple that has a fetish look to them. The one i got is in a nice spring green. W/we found a few other things as well.

W/we also went to Walmart where i got some moisturizing and firming lotion. leopet got some Easter gifts for his nephew and niece.

W/we then went to Perkins for a nice breakfast.

W/we returned home. i helped Domina in the garden by helping Her put together a small storage shed that came apart in high winds. She then continued working. i was in and out of the house.

Later W/we watched some of the first season of the Big Bang Theory and then started dinner consisting of grilled salmon and chicken breasts.

W/we watched an episode of Castle from the DVR. By the end of it Domina and bear were ready to go up and play. Domina said T/they were going upstairs. She may or may not call me.

i was on my computer for awhile and massaging my breasts when i heard Domina calling. i put my bra back on and went upstairs. i found bear naked and lying on Domina's bed. She told me to sit on his chest. She said Her whore wanted to suck my clitty. She then had me edge forward. he took my clit and started sucking. Domina got on him and started riding. It felt so good! His whiskers really let me know how sensitive i was. Domina pulled me out of his mouth and started stroking me. i begged and She said cum. i did all over his face. Domina then got over and really spread it around. It really felt so good and i was so hot!

Domina then told me to change the sheets. i did. i was then dismissed and told to come back up when bear will be told to go downstairs due to snoring teehee.

What a day!

sissygirl

April 1 2009

2009-04-01T10:53:00.000-05:00

Wow! Already April first! i've been struggling lately to get a post out. W/we all went out of town last weekend to St Louis for the Beat me in St Louis event. i wrote a long entry last night about it but a lot of it was a downer. The event itself was great but negative things got to me like my inability to participate in impact play i.e. flogging because of my pinched nerve condition, hearing about old friends from my BDSM group having tragic physical problems such as blindness, colon cancer, and being unable to communicate my funk to Domina without Her taking it personally resulted in some very difficult times for me. W/we are all starting to recover now.

Besides the above the event was great! bear had purchased a new SUV and W/we all went together. bear drove. Domina sat in the front passenger seat. T/they travelled hand in hand most the way there and back.

i have attended the event several times before and once with Domina. It was wonderful now going as a girl. During the day when W/we went to seminars on poly relationships and ownership of slaves and submissives i dressed as a girly girl wearing a very short denim skirt, my new pink butterfly shirt, my big girl bra, pink patent leather ballet flats and frilly white socks. At night Domina wanted me to dress slutty. The first night i wore my pink big girl bra which was so visible under my black fishnet shirt and an open female vest. i wore my short leather skirt, fishnet stockings and strappy hi heels. The first night W/we attended the opening ceremonies and wandered around the dungeon. They had two; A large upbeat one and a smaller more intimate one with softer music.

The second night i wore pretty much the same except for a blue fishnet shirt. This time W/we took the toys to the dungeon and Domina played with bear and leopet on the st andrews cross and a spider web with chains. She locked me up in a cage with my wrists bound. i love cages!

W/we loved perusing the vendors area with so many toys, fetish wear, novelties, jewelry etc. bear bought Domina a pair of hot red fetish boots which so reminded me of the movie 'Kinky Boots'.

The next day W/we drove back home. When W/we got home tension was high and W/we had more trouble. Since then W/we have been working on it. Domina and i have been modifying the rules. Once thing that has been seriously pointed out to me is my tendency to tell long war stories of ages past. i didn't think it was a problem but apparently it is. Domina prefers me to tell Her things in short concise sentences. i suggested that i use the Twitter model. Twitter if you don't know is similar to a blog except entries are kept at 140 characters or less. She and bear likes that idea.

Domina and bear are getting closer. T/their fights are getting far and between. Domina considers him Her husband and bear considers She and i his wives. It sure is different referring to him as my husband. Also in the cuckold side of things he is becoming more active and at one point suggested to Domina that maybe i should cum in a week or two weeks. Domina feels he may be a switch and may train him to go that way. i asked if there will come a time where She will have me serve him. She said that She may have me serve anyone.

bear stayed here for an extra day and the sleeping arrangements were that Domina had bear sleep with Her in Her bed until i came to bed later in the evening since She likes going to sleep with him and waking with me.

Domina has wanted me to research joining the local community center for swimming and working out. i found that they define a family as two adults and children. i explained that we have a second adult living with U/us. They said that it could be any two adults. Domina plans on Her and leopet joining. She said She doesn't want me to build any muscles but maintain my feminine figure. i agree.

After taking the herbs and doing breast massage i am growing. Domina asked me if i had my third breast form in my bra the other day. i said no and realized that my bust is increasing. Woot!

Domina has been finding out that Her suspicions where right where Her sister and new brother in law may be kinky too. T/they plan on visiting U/us soon and play may happen. She is exploring Her dominate side and he is clearly a submissive. i think its so wild that i can be so open and be my girly self to Domina's side of the family!

i've now switched over to my summer purse. Its a white knit one that Domina made last year. i love it. i think its more feminine :)

A pretty big thing too is the Ds Discussion board at Ds Discussion . i had a server crash a couple weeks ago and lost that site as well as my old site at http://bimpie.no-ip.com/~discuss. i rebuilt the server and now have the other one (Ds Discussion) It is working well and i plan on adding more and more to it and hope that those who joined before will rejoin and new ones as well. i love seeing a community of adults interested in Dominance and submission join. The board has so much potential since it features articles, forums, groups, photo, audio and video galleries, chat, profiles, etc.

Have a great day!

sissygirl

On the way home

2009-03-29T07:06:00.000-05:00

This morning I got to sleep and woke up with Domina. It was sometimes emotional but we understand better now. I was hurting last night emotionally and felt I needed to express myself. For me its difficult to wait a day for help. Domina felt that I just couldn't be satisfied with the play we had. I was feeling down thinking about the days I could e put up on the st andrews cross and be flogged so hard and feeling the endorphin rush, subsace, etc but just caanot due to physical changes, pinched nerves etc. Mostly being able to show off my Mistresses dominance through ungeon play. Its hd to hear too how people I've played with are having serious health problems.
Now I have evolved into a sissy girl and feel young and wonderful being feminine more and more. It was so cool feeling accepted and hearing admirations about that.
On the way home after an enlightening experience through te winter storm.
sissygirl

Beatme in St Louis 2009

2009-03-28T22:01:00.000-05:00

Sorry. I just spent about an hour putting my thoughts about this event and the program lost it.
In short, I wanted to come out here. We haven't in years. Caught up with several mutual friends are terminally ill, blind. etc. Realizing I don't have the libido I once had. Feeling blue. Domina doesn't want to hear my feelings. Fight. Hopefully not as bad as I think right now.
We are driving back in the morning.

Sissygirl

Is it already Friday? Friday March 20 2009

2009-03-21T00:42:00.000-05:00

Whew! How this week has flown! Its been beautiful here. Domina and leopet has been working on the garden a lot. T/they built a couple raised beds last year and this year are putting in a lattice fence around it to keep the critters out

Last weekend was a bit of an emotional weekend. i had working out of town on a short project much of the week so it was nice being home and being all girl.

That Sunday morning bear looked like he was getting ready to leave to go home. Domina looked like She was down. Soon i saw Her and bear down on the futon holding each other. Domina was talking to him and i couldn't hear what She was saying. T/they were there for quite awhile.

Soon Domina came by my office and told me that She and bear were going up to Her bedroom and T/they were not to be disturbed. i said, "Yes Domina"

T/they went upstairs and were up there awhile. After about 1/2 an hour i heard "jamie!". i jumped up from my chair and ran upstairs. i opened Her bedroom door and saw T/them naked in bed together. Both had smiles on T/their faces. Domina said that bear wanted to, "chuck" me. teeehee each of U/us seems to have our own fetishes. bear doesn't really understand mine too well but as Domina has said he sees me as a girl and loves sucking teehee.

i said yes Domina. She told me to pull the desk chair to the end of Her bed and sit.

i sat and watched. T/they started making out and bear made comments like, "mmmm She has a sweet pussy". "What beautiful breasts", etc. i watched with a grin on my face not saying anything.

Soon Domina told me to come over. Her boyfriend wanted to suck. "you are just a thing, a tool" he started sucking my clit. yummmy!

After a bit Domina told me to get some lube and to play with my clitty. Domina had talked about me playing with myself while watching them have sex. i told Her that i thought that would reinforce that i get off on T/them fuck and make out. She nodded to that.

i was playing with my clitty. She told me to come closer. i was touching myself so light. i could cum at any time.

Domina commented how hard i was and that maybe She might want to ride that thing. Soon Domina had me lay on my back. Domina got on me and started up and down. It felt so good. It felt a bit strange too. It was so weird that it almost seemed taboo. Almost like i was cucking Her boyfriend. Also felt a bit strange that She was fucking with me. It had been so long. Domina soon commented how long i was lasting this time. "Don't you like it girlie girl? i said oh yes Domina!!" Soon She said, "he does it better than you" i then started cumming so hard! i was screaming and pulsing.

Soon Domina got off and went to bear. She told me She was through with me and to leave the room.

i left and went back downstairs.

Soon bear left. What a day!

sissygirl

Beautiful Saturday! March 14 2009

2009-03-14T23:07:00.000-05:00

Last week i worked! i worked for a short term project for most of last week. It kinda came out of nowhere. Domina was sure happy. It was refreshing to me. The only thing.. i had to pretend i was a boy. It went well though. At times it was pretty rigorous jumping around from computer to computer but it went well. It had some travelling involved too. i was away for a couple nights. leopet took care of things for Domina.

i was up last night til about 1am polishing my toenails pink and watching an old Bruce Lee movie on the computer. About an hour before i went to bed i discovered that the server was having issues and ended up having to do some file system repair. i went up to bed and found Domina still awake. As i was laying down She said, "your coming to bed pretty late. Watch out i will kick you out of bed at 10" i asked if Her boyfriend was coming in the morning. She said yes. i continued and She said She wasn't playing. It was too late. i went to sleep soundly.

This morning i woke up feeling quite run down. Domina woke me up with a kiss and told me to get Her coffee and cereal. i went down stairs really feeling worn out and got Her breakfast. i then went back downstairs for awhile. i came back up and asked if i could take a shower. She said yes. i went in the bathroom. Plucked my eyebrows. Brushed my teeth. Washed my hair with Infusium Colorologie. Rinsed with the hair color rinse. Used a generic brand of Caress's silky vanilla essence body wash and shaved my face and legs with Silk gel.

Domina came in saying She was going to take a shower. i had had the shower low and more cool than hot. i got out and She got in. While i was applying Secret Rose scented anti-persperant, using Q-tips on the ears and applying Colorgirl eyeliner and Loreal mascara Domina said the hot water was running out. i explained that i turned it down and all but it didn't matter. i had dried my hair and used Silk Drops on it to take out the tangles and give it a sheen.

i put on a pair of girls jeans, my fuchsia big girl bra, a lavender cami and my new multi-color blouse.

By then bear showed up. he was laying in Domina's bed as i was de-tangling my butterfly necklace and putting on my ankle socks. i grabbed some laundry and got it going. i had shut Domina's bedroom door and knocked to see if there was any more laundry. She said i couldn't come in.

i went down and was on my computer for awhile. i was drinking lots of coffee and trying to get my energy back. i received a call from a temp job i had applied for. i went upstairs and asked Domina for permission to come in. She said yes. i then asked if She wanted me to take it and She said of course. She was laying there naked and talking to bear. i asked, "Domina are You playing with his man cock?" She said, " Yes, and soon i am going to suck and fuck his cock." i said, "Yes Domina. i better get back on the phone." i told the guy yes and he explained the job and all. i go for training next month. While i was talking on the phone i could hear bear screaming up stairs.

Soon Domina and bear came down. T/they left to go celebrate T/their six month anniversary together. Domina said T/they were going shopping and out to dinner.

Soon i left the house and went to Target for my meds and some cold remedy. Next i visited a GNC looking for Red Clover. They were out of it and the lady there asked what it was for. i told Her phyto-estrogens. She then asked me if i had heard of their female mixtures. She showed me one. i told her i was taking the basic herbs. She called around for me.

Next i stopped at a grocery store and then a health food store where i got the red clover. i went to a drug store too. i returned home.

i had some chicken soup and then took a nap.

i woke up and was up for awhile when Domina and bear came home. Soon W/we were in front of the tv watching 'Reaper'. i always ask Domina where She wants me when i come down to the living room. Usually its at Her feet. This time She had Her two boys on each side of Her and me laying on my back between Her legs. While W/we were watching She was playing with bear's and leopet's man cocks and smooching with bear every once in awhile.

Soon leopet said he was going to bed. Domina said She was going to take a nap so Her and bear is on the futon napping.

i did the dishes and put away some laundry and here i am. Domina said that She was too tired to play tonight. Maybe tomorrow :) teeehee!

sissygirl

Is it Spring? teehee! Mar 7 2009

2009-03-07T02:19:00.000-06:00

This week has been really glorious. The previous week snowed. This week has been so spring-like!

It looks like i am finally going to get some work. i have a two day gig next week doing some computer support. Yesterday morning i had to go to the staffing agencies office for training and paperwork. Domina told me to try to pretend to be a boy for it. i put my hair back in a pony tail. i wore no makeup and no ear rings. The only male article of clothing i wore were my socks however. i took care of the meeting and went for drug screening. Next week i'm doing this two day job.

Last night Domina wanted steaks and potatoes for dinner. W/we already had the rib-eyes and i asked leopet to get the baked potatoes. i rubbed the steak seasoning on two of the steaks for leopet and myself and left Domina's naked. She always like Hers very rare too.

While i was making dinner i noticed leopet sitting next to my Queen on the couch pretty close and caressing. he has been a lot more touchy feely lately.

Domina did not have a nap in the afternoon like She usually does and didn't feel too well. She said the food was great though.

i put Domina to bed and watched the movie, "The Day the Earth Stood Still". It was the new one and i thought it was pretty good.

Today W/we work up at around 9am. Domina wanted cereal with strawberries and blueberries and coffee. i went downstairs and made them for Her and had cereal and coffee myself. i then took a shower and got pretty. i wore my multi colored hoody shirt, girls jeans, girl socks and tennis shoes. A couple days ago i picked up Covergirl face makeup/compacts for Domina and myself. i applied that. W/we both love how it smooths O/our faces. i put on eyeliner and mascara and then my pink lip color. W/we left and went down to the farmer's market and shopped there and then the Chinese/Asian grocery store. While walking around in there i was thinking if they might think of myself as a ladyboy. hmmmm. W/we got some fresh fish and i got some Liptovan. Its a vitamin drink i loved when i used to live in Hawaii.

W/we left and came home. i brought the things in and then W/we left again to go to the thrift store. W/we were looking for a swimsuit for me for when W/we go to an upcoming fetish weekend event. i picked up a couple pair of pretty panties and thong. Domina got a nightie.

While W/we were out Domina mentioned that next weekend is Her and bear's six month anniversary. T/they are planning on staying the night at a bed and breakfast near here. i think times where She and bear go out of town and overnighters mostly touch on my cuckold angst. i said, "my Mistress Wife and Her boyfriend spending the night alone together.." i asked (of course knowing the answer already) "Are Y/you going to have sex with Your boyfriend?" She said, "Yes, lots of it". i said, " Yes Domina".

my goodness. Domina does know me so well. She knows how to push my buttons. She knows how cuckolding turns me on. How it affects my sissy clitty. She told me yesterday that mostly She loves cuckolding because of the pleasure She has with bear and as a side effect it cuckolds me. i thought cuckolding involved all of it really.

Now Domina and leopet are at Home Depot gathering lattice and other material for the Spring gardens.

A nice weekend so far!

sissygirl

Today Feb 28 2009 Part 2

2009-03-01T10:22:00.002-06:00

Domina came down from Her bedroom wearing only Her robe and bear followed after. Domina started making a Mediterranean soup and French bread and went down to the futon in front of the TV and read from Her laptop. While T/they were up in Her room i had made my blog entry and sent Her an email, "

Wow. You and bear are up in Your bedroom fucking and playing. Your sissy girl cuckold downstairs in her pleated denim skirt and 'don't look back' shirt. i just wrote in my blog about today so far. i do feel like such a feminine sissygirl. You seem so powerful and so above me Domina. i feel so much smaller and weaker to You!

i love You Domina!

Your sissygirl"

i went up to Her room and brushed my hair and noted that Her bed had the top sheet and comforter pulled to the floor. i went back down and asked if She wanted me to make Her bed. She looked at me sternly and said yes. i went back upstairs and i heard Her read my email to Her to bear. i made Her bed and returned downstairs.

i joined Her on the futon and asked Her if She wanted to watch a movie. Domina told me that She wanted to watch "When Dreams May Come". i found it and put it on. Out of the blue i asked Domina when i develop breasts would She want to play with them. She said, "Of course, i'm bi i like to play with tits too."bear soon joined U/us.

While watching the movie Domina was holding hands with bear or playing with his man cock. She was holding Her glass of wine with Her right hand between U/us. Once in awhile She would touch my hand but wasn't touching my clit. Dinner was finally ready and She told me to get Her a bowl of soup and bread. i went up and got Her dinner and brought it to Her and curtsied. i went up and got mine too.

W/we continued watching the movie and finished dinner. leopet came in and asked me to take the car for a spin. we left and went to the store and got him some beer then took the car on the highway. he did a great job. The car drove great!

we returned home and was watching tv. Domina started playing with my clit and bear and Her was making out. Kissing deeply and french kissing. i was watching them and was so turned on! After awhile of watching T/them i told Domina that i needed to cum. It was so hard to turn back. i started cumming and stopped. Domina slapped my sissy balls and told me to clean up. i did and lay back on the futon watching T/them. It was so hot watching T/them in such passion. She then told him to come around and T/they were going to play with me. Domina got on his cock and started riding him while he was sucking me. i told Domina that the last few times i had cum it had been at the hand of men. She then said something like, "Yes, you can't have sex with females anymore but men." i don't know if She really meant that or that She said it to turn me on but then i came so hard and intensely. (edit: i clarified this this morning and She said "no, you will have sex with whom i tell you too. I might want you to be a slut..") he rolled over and started fucking Domina. T/they were doing it in several positions. It was so wild! bear noted that i was still hard. Domina said, "Yes, she stays hard for awhile". She then told me to get up there and i moved so he could suck my clit some more. he did but i grew soft.

Domina then said T/they were going to bed. i asked where i was going to sleep and She said either at the foot of Her bed or downstairs or crowded in bed with T/them. i told Her i would sleep downstairs since before bear had left Her bed because it was crowded.

i filled up the humidifier and closed Her door and went downstairs.

i was on my computer for a few hours and went down to the futon at about 1am. i started having those feelings of angst when thoughts passed through my mind about how passionate T/they were and my place and things. i slept well though.

i woke up with a bit of a headache and Titus O/our dog was playing his strange game where he will hide a ball or object under a blanket and then pull the blanket around to get it. i went upstairs and had some alka seltzer, coffee, all my herbs, and cereal.

Soon i went upstairs to see if Domina wanted coffee or cereal. i entered Her room and She and bear greeted me. W/we talked awhile and She told me to put Her coffee in a regular cup and warm it up. bear had gone out to McDonald's early and got Her coffee. i went downstairs and did just that and returned to Her and curtsied. i asked Her if i was Her girl. Domina said, "Of course you are my girl. Are you feeling insecure? How would bear look wearing a skirt and things? Yes you are my girl." i thanked Her and then gathered dirty clothes together and started a load.

i was on my computer for awhile and thought i would check if Domina wanted more coffee since i just brewed a pot. i went up to Her room and entered. Domina and bear had been talking in bed. She then talked about me knocking on Her door when T/they were alone. She then explained that W/we spend a lot of time together but time with bear is not so often. i asked Her if She wanted me to knock from now on and She said yes. She told me that i have no choice. i will let T/them have private time together. That She appreciates that i don't pout. She handed me the newspaper and i closed Her door and went down to the office and looked through the paper for makeup and other cosmetics.

i am feeling more and more femmed. i think its interesting that i got this new shirt that say, "Don't look back". Its what Domina has said several times in relation to the fact that i am a girl now and that i am a cuckold. Pandora's Box is opened. It will not close. The ship has sailed. i asked Domina yesterday if She enjoyed cuckolding me. She said, "Oh yes!"

Right now T/they are playing in Her bedroom. i can hear those sounds of passion. my clitty is so hard!

sissygirl

Today Feb 28 2009

2009-02-28T16:12:00.000-06:00

This morning i woke up wearing my pink teddy. Since yesterday evening i've been wearing my fuchsia big girl bra. Domina said Her boyfriend bear was coming over this afternoon although W/we received several inches of snow.

leopet has been working on my car. he replaced a tie rod and is now working on the brakes. he was feeling a bit grumpy because of some trouble there and difficulty finding some tools. he went out and got the tools he needed and stopped by a Taco Bueno to pick U/us up some tacos.

Domina is making a Mediterranean soup and asked leopet to pick up some veggies for the soup. i thought the amount of veggies were meager after Domina showed me what he brought. She told me to bring down Her laptop.i brought it down and saw that the surge protector i bought for Her laptop was missing from the living room again and retrieved it from the garage and left a power strip there. Domina told me to stop bitching about things. i didn't think i was but to Her i was.

bear arrived and Domina and he kissed. W/we were all down stairs in front of the tv and Domina was showing him some canes She would like to get. W/we were talking about toys and i brought up about tens units. She didn't think O/our little one put out much. i brought it down and W/we played with it a bit.

A little while later Domina went back into the kitchen and bear said he might want to make margaritas later so he went out to get some tequila and mix. he came back and Domina told me that She and he were going up to Her bedroom to fuck. i asked if i could watch and She said no. She told me that later maybe when W/we all play. For now its Her and him reconnecting since he has been away on a business trip.

Domina and he went upstairs to Her bedroom and closed the door. While going up he said maybe he might fuck me. Domina said i had such a sour look on my face. i said that i wasn't sure if i am ready yet. She said i was.. teeehee we'll see. Its inevitable. i am a girl and being one i should be fucked like one.argh! teehee

Now T/they are upstairs and i can hear the sounds from here in the office. i think mostly Domina is playing with him. Wow! i feel so turned on and i feel like a femmed and cuckolded sissygirl!

What a day so far!

sissygirl

Some things... Feb 26 2009

2009-02-26T18:21:00.000-06:00

This morning Domina called in sick for a bad migraine headache. i was going to need to drive Her back to work during Her morning break since my car is down right now for repairs. leopet has been working the tie rods and brakes.

Since She didn't go to work i didn't need to take Her there. i had showered, shaved my legs and put on my makeup. i then left the house for an appointment with my shrink. The visit was for a follow-up for my prescription of Wellbutrin which has been working very well for me. i told her things were good now and my wanting to develop breasts. She nodded and said things look like there working out.

Domina wanted me to get food for dinner and a few other things. i stopped first at Target and refilled a prescription and then to Super Walmart for the rest. Domina wanted me to pick up strawberries but all of them in the produce section were very dark red. i went to a man who was stocking the area and asked him about them. He turned around and asked, "Yes ma'am, how may I help you?" That always gives me a wonderful feeling inside. i explained about the berries and he said he knew. They had come from a different source. He had some brighter red ones on his cart which i took.

i got home and found Domina talking on the phone with bear. She said She was going to try sleeping some more. i went down and got on my computer for awhile. Domina came down while leopet was having lunch at the dinner table. She went down and lay on the futon and watched an episode of Lost. i went upstairs and took a nap.

Later Domina came up stairs and got on Her computer. i woke up when She received a call from bear. he has been out at a meeting all week and was going to drive in. She was almost ecstatic.

i went downstairs and made some ice tea and did the dishes. i replaced a string on my guitar that became unwound. bear arrived. we went upstairs and Domina just left the bathroom. She went up and kissed him and kissed him again. W/we all talked a little bit and then Domina told me to say hi to bear and leave the bedroom. She wanted some private time with bear. i said "Yes Domina" and left. i went downstairs and here i am at the computer.

It has been awhile since i've had a 'cummy'. i sure am feeling the effects. i am not allowed to play with my clit since Domina owns it and it is Her play thing. She has chosen not to put me in a chastity device for now although She has said that She plans to one day.

Domina and i haven't had sex for awhile now but has with bear. Its an observation and enforces my femming and being a cuckold of course. i think its interesting that the last few times i have cum has been by a man, Domina's submissive boyfriend.

i feel increasingly feminine and girly which i love and which Domina prefers. i am taking the herbs saw palmetto, fenugreek, and red clover which is supposed to contain phytoestrogens as well as EstoPause and flax seeds. i massage my breasts too daily. i do hope that they develop. W/we'll see. Hormones and implants just aren't in the cards right now.

One thing that comes up from time to time i feel makes for that cuckold angst is that Domina is planning to go with bear on some of his adventures. She has accompanied him a couple times to an area in the middle of Missouri for over nighters but T/they have talked about going out to Colorado, or Arkansas for a few days. It is a bit tough thinking that i wouldn't accompany Her especially since i love areas like that and would love to have memories of U/us exploring beautiful spots like that but lo i am Her sissy cuckold. With me not working and bringing money in its just not possible right now. She told me anyway, i wouldn't want to break a nail lol. W/we are all planning on attending a BDSM weekend event soon where She will take all of us. What fun!

i am growing my hair out and can't wait until its over my shoulders. i fashion it either in a pony tail or down to my shoulders like Domina prefers with a hair band. i routinely use Covergirl face powder after showers and shave my legs every other day. i've been painting my nails pink or a shade called Jetstream by China Glaze. Its a darker mauve type color. i use darker pinks for lipstick or lip color.

Today after my nap i brushed my hair back and freshened my lipstick. Domina told me to get Her some ice tea. i brought it to Her on my knees. She told me i was really pretty. She said that i have come a long way in putting makeup on. Domina said i reminded Her of some of the movie star pictures where paparazzi gets their faces without makeup and with makeup when She sees me in the morning then later after i put on the makeup. i really glowed and said, "Thank You Domina" :)

i have been wearing my black "big girl bra" almost always. i went and took a test for a temp job yesterday and put my hair in a pony tail and wore a sports bra with forms. W/we'll see how that pans out.

Tonight i am cooking Chinese for dinner. Domina is planning on having bear spend the night. leopet covered the new plants Domina planted yesterday in the garden because the temperature is supposed to drop. he is going to continue working on my car too.

i am wearing one of my silky pjs right now and feeling pretty good :)

sissygirl

Sunday, Feb 22 2009

2009-02-22T21:48:00.001-06:00

Here we are at the end of a weekend. Its been pretty nice although a bit chilly.

It was fairly tough on Domina. She and bear had some disagreements and things weren't so warm between T/them Saturday. Domina took a rest and spent the day mostly reading Her novel with Her phone and computer turned off.

This morning W/we were woken up with bear at Her bedroom door. he came in with a latte for Her. he said that he had tried to reach Her last night and wrote. Domina then asked me to leave Her bedroom so T/they could talk privately. i said, "Yes Domina" and left the room.

i was still waking up and went down for coffee and oatmeal. i got on my computer for a couple hours and played my guitar too. Soon i heard bear leave Her bedroom and go to the upstairs bathroom. i went upstairs to see if Domina needed anything. She told me that he apologized profusely and its going to be ok. She didn't need anything yet.

bear returned to the bedroom and W/we all talked. W/we may be planning to go to a midwestern BDSM event soon and Domina wants to take bear, leopet and myself. She was talking about how She plans to outfit us all. She asked if my leather pants might fit him. i brought it and a leather harness Domina had made for me. bear tried the pants on and they looked great on him. They had been a gift from a sub girl i knew some years back. i told Domina that and She said that bear could have it since i am a girl and men wear pants like those. i agreed. Domina said that She will outfit me in skirts and fetish and girlie outfits for the event. yaaay!

bear left and Domina said that She and i may meet a new sub male. After O/our showers She got a call from him about meeting at a local restraunt. i got myself pretty and shaved my legs and W/we left. i was wearing my black big girl bra with forms, pink polka dot cami, girls jeans and my feminine blue sweatshirt. W/we arrived at the restraunt and soon found him. i got some lunch and Domina drank Her ice tea. This sub was interested in doing housework and receiving humiliation. W/we talked awhile and then he begged to see the playroom. Domina was planning on doing some shopping but agreed to show him. W/we all went home and Domina introduced him to leopet. The sub then brought Her ice tea and fell to his knees and offered it to Her. She then took him up to the playroom for awhile.

i got on my computer for awhile and played some more guitar. After about 1/2 hour T/they came back downstairs and he left. Domina and i then left. W/we went to a thrift store and found a denim skirt with pleats, some cool girls tie die tank tops, a butterfly shirt, a couple nice wine glasses and some things for Domina.

W/we left and went to the Goodwill store. W/we were looking for some flats for me but didn't see any there. W/we shopped through the store and found some things for the house. i went to lingerie and found a couple cute g string panties from Nordstroms. As W/we were checking out Domina saw a pair of pink ballet slippers that might fit me. They didn't but i did find a pair of flats that did! yaaaaay! W/we got them for $4.98 in perfect condition.

W/we returned home and i washed all O/our new treasures. Domina started on Her kitchen project and i was on the computer for awhile. i also re-painted my nails with Orly's 'Pink Slip'. Domina prefers that color on me. Soon Domina started cooking a salmon and i started some precooked baby back ribs. W/we had dinner and watched some of the Academy Awards. i sat on the futon mattress at Domina's feet. She started playing with my hair and braided some of it. It felt so nice! i can't wait until it is over my shoulders :)

At about 8pm Domina went to bed. i followed and plugged in Her phone in the charger, filled the humidifier and kissed Her goodnight.

Here i am back at the computer. It turned out to be a pretty nice weekend after all :)

sissygirl

Nice President’s Day weekend 2009

2009-02-17T11:55:00.000-06:00

Friday

The day started like usual. i got up that morning and was on the computer for awhile. Domina told me the night before She wanted O/our Titus, westie to get in for dog grooming. i called and made an appointment. i showered and got myself pretty and put on my pink and black striped shirt, my fushia big girl bra, a cami and girls jeans. i got Titus and we were off. i first stopped at Petsmart where Titus was being groomed and left him. The girl was going to call me when he was ready. i left and headed over to Independence where i was going to shop in some thrift stores. i got to the first one and didn?t find anything i was interested in. i was mainly looking for flats in my size 11. i did find a pair of crystal heels that had those blinking lights in the heel. The strap was broken though :(

Next i went to the Dollar Store that was just down the hill from the thrift store. i picked up a bunch of things including a little camera tripod, household cleaners, an energy drink, etc. i thought it was pretty cool as i was shopping there the song ?Lola? came on? ?Girls will be boys and boys will be girls? ? teeheee!

i left and went to the next thrift store and had no luck there either. While i was there shopping i received a call from Petsmart telling me that Titus was ready.

i left and went back up to Liberty. It was about 4pm and Domina had said She wanted woken up by 5. i got Titus and went down to Target to do some Valentine?s day shopping and to pick up some food for dinner. i got the food and went over to the cards. my eyes went straight to the perfect card. It was a keepsake with a butterfly on the front and something about butterfly kisses inside. i shopped all over the store and just couldn?t think of the perfect gift. i left the store and went to Pier 1 Imports where i looked for a glass head that both Domina and i wanted to get after playing at a Mistress?s play house where She had some of them. So cool putting candles in them and having them look your way like an audience would be:) They were out of them unfortunately

i left Pier 1 and went to Bed Bath and Beyond and found some nice foot repair lotion. i thought Domina would like that.

i left and returned home. As soon as i got home i put on my pink babydoll nighty.

Saturday

Domina and i left fairly early Saturday morning to go to the city market. Domina said She wanted me with my hair down and not pulled back in a pony tail for now. Of course i wore my big girl bra and dressed in jeans, and a blue skin tight sweater.. W/we had a good time shopping at the Chinese grocery near the market and then W/we went to the market itself. It wasn?t too crowded because of the cooler weather. W/we picked up some Pita bread, some veggies and some fruit.

W/we left the market and went to the « Price bookstore where Domina picked up some books on Mediteranean cooking as well as some on outdoor projects. She is getting all excited about planting the garden and all. W/we then returned home.

I had trouble finding Valentine?s Day presents for Domina when i went shopping early Friday. So far i had picked up a card i thought was perfect. It was a keepsake with a butterfly on the cover and something about giving butterfly kisses inside. I went to the grocery store and picked up a potted flower called a Pink Cyclamen. I thought it looked quite unusual. It looked like multiple butterflies. Of course Domina?s symbol for me is the butterfly.

I returned home. Domina gave me my presents. She made up a gift bag. In it was a valentine chocolate box with a butterfly on the cover. She gave me a card saying She was so glad to have me as Her wife. I opened it and it sang ?my girl?. W/we both thought it was so perfect! She told me to look at the bottom. There was a new pair of patent leather flats! Yaaaaaay!

I couldn?t find the card i gave Her. I looked everywhere! Arrrrgh. She did love the flowers and later i gave Her the foot repair lotion from Bed Bath and Beyond. She always loves foot messages :)

Soon bear arrived. Things seemed a little awkward between T/them and i figured that he was being a bit toppy. I know its sometimes difficult to go between being the assertive one at work and then being the submissive but of course that?s part of what its all about.

Soon T/they warmed up to each other. Domina and bear and i drug out the futon mattress and put it back in front of the couch in front of the TV. Soon Domina and he were on it and watching TV. T/they watched a few episodes of the show Firefly and i went to my computer.

A little later i thought i?d join T/them and went down to the futon and W/we watched some more shows that Domina had recorded on the DVR. Although both were covered with a blanket i could see that She was playing with his cock and he was playing with Her breasts as well as Her pussy. Of course that always turns me on. Domina whispered over to me, ?Do you like watching Me playing with my boyfriend?? ?Oh yes Domina!? teehee.

Once in a while Domina played with my clitty. Soon bear got up to grill the trout that he brought. Domina went to prepare the red potatoes with olive oil and rosemary. Lately Domina and leopet have gotten into more healthy foods based on some Mediteranean recipes.

W/we had a nice dinner and watched more TV. Soon Domina and bear were playing more and both were naked. At one point Domina got on top of him and started riding his cock and She was playing with my clitty. She took my clitty and asked him if he wanted to suck on Her girl?s clit. he started begging. Soon he had his mouth on my clit and it felt so good. She knew i was close to cumming and took him off. i just watched for awhile. Soon he begged some more and started sucking again. Very soon i was to that point and i begged permission of Domina. She said yes. i really did explode and i was panting so hard afterwards. Domina then told me to go do the dishes. i went upstairs and started on the dishes but looked down every so often. Domina and he continued fucking and for the first time i saw him on top. That really does give a different cuckolding sensation to me.

Soon Domina told me to come down. Her boyfriend wanted to suck my clit some more. She told me, ?Remember, you are just a thing, a toy. This is for Me and my boyfriend?. i said, ?Yes Domina?. he sucked on me. i was so sensitive! i didn?t cum though i was so spent.

Domina told me to go back to the kitchen and i did. She and bear then went to go to bed. Domina told me that bear was going to sleep with Her. i could sleep on the floor at the foot of Her bed or sleep downstairs.

Earlier while i was doing the dishes i realized that i had lost my feminine watch that Domina had given me for Christmas. It just came to me as i was dipping my hands in the dishwater. i tried to trace it back to where i remembered taking it off. i went up to Domina?s bedroom and found the lights off and T/they were kissing. i told Her that i had lost my watch. Domina got up to go potty and helped me find it. i finally did find it on the dresser.

i went back downstairs and was on my computer for awhile. i then took my Dexter book and went down to the futon and read it for awhile then went to sleep.

Sunday
i woke up really early and shut off an alarm clock that was going off. i then went back to sleep. When i woke up i found Titus curled up next to me and later went up to Domina?s bedroom. She invited me under the covers with Her and bear. She told me that leopet had come down and took a picture of me and titus. he showed it to me.. awwww teeehee!

Later in the morning bear left. The rest of the day was rest and relaxation teheee.

sissygirl

The rest of the day Feb 11 2009

2009-02-11T22:24:00.000-06:00

The rest of today went well thank goodness. Domina had text'd me from work saying that She was coming home at 1 and going straight to bed and no talking. It also said that i must take my shower before She got home.

i went up and took my shower and got pretty. i was wondering if i really felt girly but i went through my ritual and this time pulled my hair back in a pony tail. Lately Domina and i have been talking about how i'm growing my hair out and soon to have it over my shoulder much like my picture with my wig. Also that it would be a real ponytail teehee!

i put on my pink thong panties, black big girl bra, my pink polka dot cami, girls jeans and a purple sweat shirt. i grabbed Titus O/our dog and left to run errands.

i went to the bank and then shopped around Target. i looked at shoes there. i left and went to Hyvee to get some grapes and red potatoes for Domina. One of the cashiers there always waves and greets me with, "Hi jamie!" She is really so nice to me :) i also picked up a a bottle of Fenugreek. i left and shopped for shoes at Gordman's and didn't find any there.

Next i went to Price Chopper where i picked up some asparagus, steam veggies and cereal for Domina. The cash register there has had me before there and said something about my pink nails. i said "i like this shade, it seems to work for me. Its called, 'pink slip'." She laughed a little.

i then returned home and put the groceries away then i cleaned out my car. Next i went out to the back yard and reset O/our swing bench that was blown over by high winds a couple nights ago. i then worked in the office and then took a nap. i woke up at 6:18pm and went up and woke Domina up. She seemed ok. W/we had some light talk and then went downstairs for pizza and American Idol.

It was a lot different from yesterday.

sissygirl

Where the f**k did that come from! -- 2

2009-02-11T11:26:00.003-06:00

i was in a kind of hurry with my last blog entry. While i was in the middle of it Domina text'd me telling me to bring Her anti-anxiety meds to work. i sent it and put some clothes on and grabbed my coffee and phone. i was mostly there and thought i had forgot Her meds. i turned around and realized that i had put them in my jacket pocket. i turned around again, called Her and She came out and got them.

i returned home and of course back here at the computer. Some thoughts i have are:

i have thought about what SRS would mean for me. i really am not interested in surgery to become a girl. i would love to have breasts. If herbs help there i think that would be great. i think having a Mistress Wife who thinks of me as Her wife. Treats me like a girl. Lets me dress and act like a girl. Lets me serve Her. Fulfills my kinks by cuckolding me with a submissive and masculine male, etc really is fulfilling multiple fantasies as well as making for an abundant D/s lifestyle together.
i don't feel like i have gone overboard with it all. i don't feel like its all i think about. i do have lots of other interests. i've been getting into the Dexter series of fiction novels. i have several projects and web projects. i'm learning songs on my guitar. i am always looking for a job. i clean and take care of the house etc. Maybe i bring up feminine things because i haven't really heard that much from Domina about it. i ask "How does this look?" or "Do You like this lipstick on me?" etc from time to time.
Domina feels its never enough for me. That i am never satisfied. i feel so lucky to be who i am and be allowed to be. i don't believe however that life or lifestyles can be placed on autopilot. i see nothing wrong with sometimes suggesting something tactfully or tactfully giving feedback.

It does hurt to see things like these come up. i want to glorify my Owner. i want to put Her on the pedistal. Treat Her as a Queen. Serve Her. Make Her happy. Be Her sissy cuckolded slave girl. Unfortunately W/we are all human too. There is communication involved. Sometimes something one says may be taken wrong.

Anyway, i have another appointment to see my therapist in early March. Domina may go with me on that one. i do feel the Wellbutrin medication is helping me for depression. i don't worry like i used to. Things don't get to me like they did before. W/we just have to tackle this latest thing.

uggggh!

sissygirl

Where the f**k did that come from!

2009-02-11T11:26:00.001-06:00

i'm sorry, i don't normally use words like the above but i am flabbergasted! Everything has been going fine. Domina has been commenting on how great things have been going and how W/we haven't had a fight for months, how She prefers me as a girl, etc. i was putting Her to bed and W/we were doing the normal small talk before She was going to bed. She actually went to bed a little early to read Her book. i was telling Her about the Dexter book i was close to finishing. Then She mentioned that with the longer weekend this weekend that She was thinking of making this a longer kidless weekend.

Suddenly a thought popped into my head. i said,"i think it would be a turn on if sometimes You would tell me that for the weekend i would not be allowed to wear anything but skirts..." She then cut me off and frankly its hard to remember all that was said but here are the areas i remember:

Its all i talk about
She is afraid that i am going to want a sex change
I (Domina) is never enough for me. i continually want more
For Her to make an order like that is silly because i have been dressing girly anyway

Really the words She used and the way it came across caused me to think that She was ashamed of me. It was like these feelings and thought had been all bottled up and now She was telling me how She felt about it all. i felt pretty emotional. i tore my pretty pj shirt off. Buttons flew off. i was really frustrated here. i believed that She enjoyed me, loved me, etc as Her sissy girl.

With my actions She commented that here i have been donig good for a month. i couldn't hear all She said because i was filling the humidifier with water. i do that every night when i put Her to bed.

When i came back into the bedroom the talk continued. i told Her that i was not fighting. i tried to tell Her how i felt. i tried to explain that all i was trying to do was just mention what might turn me on just as any lover would suggest that this or that felt better or why don't we try this position or that.

W/we left the evening pretty ok and kissed and said goodnight.

i woke up this morning with Her on the bed working with Her computer. She had a problem with alleged viruses. i think She surfed a website that tells you it found all these viruses.

i helped Her with that then She started in with last night telling me she felt out of sorts with it or something. Then it went into an argument when i tried to explain that it was just something i mentioned innocently like a anyone would. Lets try this or that. She started crying saying She is never enough.

Domina put it like letting me be a girl or dress etc is such a stressful thing for Her. i told Her that She said She was happy with everything yesterday and i just mentioned one thing. It turned into another fight.

i just don't understand this!

sissygirl

The end of a nice week Friday Feb 6 2009

2009-02-06T12:59:00.001-06:00

The weather has been so nice to U/us this week. Its often been up in the 60s. i’ve enjoyed going out and about with and without a jacket. i regularly wear my “big girl bra” now with the forms and wear all girl denims and shirts and things. i wear dangly ear rings although i lost one of my butterfly ear rings Domina bought for me for Christmas :(

i have been brushing my hair back over my ears and use hair bands to keep it back. i love growing my hair longer and fashioning it more feminine. my hair comes down to my shoulders now. Just touching them. my bangs are getting a bit long but Domina and Her boyfriend likes it that way :) i ‘ve been using Covergirl makeup with Olay cream. i’ve been shaving exclusively with Suave hair conditioner which works so well for me. Sooo smooth! Since my skin has been so white i’ve been using a sunless tanning gel by L'Oreal.

It is always such a pleasant feeling when people refer to me with feminine pronouns out in public. i was shopping at Hen House the other day and thought i would get an espresso at the Starbucks counter. The guy there asked, “What would you like ma’am.” i replied with my feminine voice, “a double espresso please”. It felt so good, so nice.

A couple days ago my good friend from High School called me and we talked awhile and decided to meet for lunch yesterday. That morning when i showered i made sure all my eye makeup and dangly ear rings etc were off. i went wearing all drab girls clothes that were kind of unisex and spent lunch pretending i was a boy. i am sensitive to friends and family who do not know my feminine persona. He is quite conservative and its very hard to think of myself coming out to him. After i left though i put my danglies on, lipstick, and hair band. i was wearing a sports bra with forms but they didn’t show. i couldn’t wait to get home to put my big girl bra back on. Before i went home though i stopped at Sallys Beauty Supply and bought a bottle of Orly nail polish called ‘Pink Slip’. i got home and applied it. Both Domina and i love the color. A couple weekends ago Domina had me paint Her nails with a very dark red color by China Glaze that is still gleaming. She wants me to get Her a mauve by the same brand.

For the last couple days Domina has mentioned that She may go out to meet Her sub boyfriend bear at a hotel tomorrow. She wasn’t sure because She hasn’t rested very well during the week but this morning She said She was feeling great and that She is going out there to meet him today. he has been at a business meeting for a couple days. She feels like taking a road trip and of course being with Her boyfriend.

Before She left this morning Domina mentioned that She is thinking of drafting a ‘sissy contract’ for me. W/we have had a list of rules for me including my place in Her family, cuckolding, etc but this She thinks is more appropriate now and will include my rules for being Her housewife and sissygirl.

Domina bought a blue crystal butterfly and put it on my belly button ring. The butterfly is my symbol and i think it looks pretty. She also bought a string with several pink butterflies that i now have hanging in my office. i love it!

i had been reading about breast enlargement and some sources talk about over the counter herbs such as saw palmetto, red clover, fennel, flax seed, etc containing similar hormones to estrogen but are of plant variety and saw palmetto has anti-androgen properties. Domina is allowing me to try herbs. i started with the saw palmetto. W/we’ll see if they will do anything for me. i think it would be wonderful to have some cleavage. Actual female hormones are out right now.

What a week!

sissygirl

Super Bowl Sunday

2009-02-01T13:21:00.001-06:00

Here we are. Its Super Bowl Sunday. W/we are watching it teehee.
Last night Domina had a new male come over. he hadn't been with a Mistress before so this was a new experience for him. I talked him through how to get here. Just before arriving Domina yelled down and told me to warn him about me. I then told him i'm a transvestite. a t-girl. he said "ok".
He came in and we all went to the living room. W/we gave him an initiation since he really didn't know much about it all. he didn't know what he liked. I then talked about bondage, sensation play, etc. Then I brought up about d/s and told him my role is to make Domina's life easier and better. I said that I take care of Her however I can. Domina then said, "Not sexually. That's what I have my boys for." I said yes Domina, feeling a bit embarrassed.
Domina then took him upstairs to the playroom for play.
awhile later I heard the summon bell ring and I hurried to the playroom. i entered the playroom and found the sub naked and facing the St Andrews cross. Domina had me help Her tie him to the cross. It was pretty hot in there and Domina told me to turn the fan on and leave which i did.

Later, Domina led the sub down by collar and leash for a drink of water and then returned to the playroom. i was in the office when i heard T/them come down and the sub left.

Today before i got up Domina went down and got a cup of coffee and fruit. i had coffee and toaster pastries. i was on the computer for awhile. Domina called down for a screwdriver and Her ice tea. i took them up and decided to take a shower. i asked Domina what She wanted me to wear today. She said to wear my pleated pink skirt and a blue shirt. i took my shower and got dressed. While i was in the shower bear arrived.i went downstairs Domina and bear went down to the living room and watched Pineapple Express.

After the movie, Domina and bear went up to the playroom for some play. She said Big Mistress needed to come out. After T/they played Domina said later W/we will have more sex play :)

After that we turned on the grill and bear cooked a delicious roast pork with potatoes and a salad which we ate while watching the Super Bowl.

As i'm typing this, Domina and bear are sitting on the couch holding hands and watching the game. Domina told me earlier to sit on the recliner. i brought my laptop in to type this. leopet is tending the fireplace.

Later...

W/we watched the Superbowl. Pittsburg won. Domina said She was going to bed and too tired to play. i followed Her upstairs to help Her to bed. i asked Her where i was going to sleep. She said in Her bed with Her. She and bear was going to cuddle for awhile then he was going to sleep on the floor or downstairs.

As Domina and i left the bathroom bear was naked in Her bed. She got in as W/we were all talking. i asked if i could watch. Domina said i could pull the chair from Her vanity and watch but i had to stay quiet.

Domina and bear started kissing and cuddling. bear started making comments toward me like, "Isn't Her breasts beautiful?", etc. i said yes :) Domina corrected him and told him i was just to watch.

Things started getting a bit steamier but he was having trouble getting hard. Domina told me to come over and get Her boyfriend hard for Her. i came over and started sucking his man cock probably longer than i ever have, ( i have problems with TMJ) and soon bear asked if he could suck my clit. Domina told me to come over and bear started playing with me. It felt so good!

Soon Domina told me to get on Her side of the bed and told me to take my silky pjs bottoms off as well as my panties. Domina was playing with his man cock and bear took my clitty and was playing with it and sucking. Domina mentioned that i cannot play with myself but Her boyfriend can play with himself. She told him and me that i can't cum tonight. bear was begging for it. She said that he could try but i couldn't cum. When i was so nearing that time She told me i could and goodness i did! So intense!

Soon Domina put bear to sleep on the floor at the foot of Her bed and chained his wrist to the bedpost.

i went downstairs and was on my computer for awhile then went back to bed for a very restful night.

sissygirl

Saturday, January 31 2009

2009-01-31T12:46:00.001-06:00

Here we are on the last day of January 2009. The year is moving along so fast already!

Since last night i am wearing my new pink ‘big girls bra’. i really love it. The straps are thinner and look nice with sheer lingerie like the light pink teddy i wore last night. Plus, the bust is a bit larger than my other big girls bra lol :) i love it!

Yesterday, bear, Domina’s sub boyfriend came over for ‘attitude adjustment’. Being a masculine man, during the week he has to be a more assertive type and needs to be put in his place. me, being Her sissy cucky housewife, i can enjoy a more level persona as Her sissygirl. This does bring up the matter that i will need to be employed soon. W/we just can’t afford to keep me at home much longer. i used to work in a more male oriented workplace. Back then i considered myself as a submissive male and really kept it closeted except for a select few and of course other scene members in my support group. Since discovering i am a sissygirl i find it harder to bounce between the two personas. Domina and i would love for me to find a job i could do at home or one where i can be more who i am.

i’ve come across a blog that i am quite impressed with. Its called Femulate at http://femulate.blogspot.com/ and i really love the style and the content of this blog about men emulating women.

The other day i needed to go somewhere where Domina told me not to wear lipstick. i wore my hair brushed back and kept in place with a hair band as well as wearing my butterfly dangly earrings. i still felt naked or incomplete without my lipstick on! Looking in the mirror i just didn’t look right. Of course i went as Domina told me but after i left there i put my lipstick on. Then all was good :)

Yesterday i ran errands. i went to the post office to mail a certified letter. Then i went to Target to pick up some medication, hair color for Domina and a new inexpensive lipstick called ‘Snow cone’. Its a more pink lipstick that Domina prefers on me. Next i went to Sams and picked up some fruit and beer. Lastly, i went to the grocery store and picked up dinner which consisted of beef and cheese tortellini's, more fruit for Domina and other things. i got home and Domina told me all was ok with bear. She was so tired since She hadn’t had a nap like She normally does when She gets home from work. W/we watched some ‘Fringe’ and had dinner then Domina had to go to bed.

Today i got up around 9 and made coffee. i had some ‘Muffin Top’ pastries and brought up coffee for Domina. She asked for a fruit bowl so i curtsied and went downstairs where i cut up an orange, added blueberries, strawberries, bananas and took it up to Her. She was really happy with it so. Domina then told me that a new younger sub (24 years old) was supposed to come over tonight at 7. She will tell me more about him later. i curtsied again and left to come downstairs.

i’ve been working on my Ds Discussion site a lot lately. One thing i have found is that most of the members now (there are 19) are sissies. Of course sissies are welcome, but anyone interested in alternative lifestyles such as D/s, BDSM, Master/slave relationships, cuckolding, transgender, feminization, etc are welcomed there. i hope that no one looking at the site feels that its not for them. The intent is to build a community of diverse interests, orientations and lifestyles to learn and share.

Well, all for now,

sissygirl

Laid back Saturday, January 24 2009

2009-01-24T17:23:00.001-06:00

Its been pretty cool here (23 degrees F) for the last couple days. Yesterday, after Domina and leopet came home from work bear arrived to take U/us out to eat. he came in and went up to Domina who was in Her bedroom. i was working on my Ds Discussion site and was on it awhile when i thought to go up and look in on Domina to see if She needed anything. When i entered Her bedroom i saw bear laying on Her bed and leopet was talking with T/them. Soon leopet left the room and then Domina asked me to leave the room to give Her and bear some private time together. i said, “Yes Domina” and left the room. i went back downstairs and continued on the site.

After about 1/2 an hour Domina and bear came down and She, bear and i left to go out to eat at a local Chinese Buffet. leopet stayed home because he was still full from lunch. i was wearing a loose fitting sweatshirt over my ‘big girl bra’ and cami, female jeans and shoes. my hair is always fashioned in a feminine style over my ears with a hair band over my head. Domina and bear sat across from me at a table. i had Mongolian stir fry, Domina had king crab and bear had lots of hot mustard over all he ate lol.

i felt quite like a girl sitting there across from T/them. Domina and bear looked like quite the couple. i then thought, “If someone asked who i was, what was i to say”.

W/we finished O/our meal and got up and left. bear got in his SUV and left to go home. i was in Domina’s car. W/we talked about it all the way home. i told Her that i felt like a girl sitting where i was and She and bear looked like a couple. She said She felt like T/they were on a date. i then asked Her in situations like that if someone was to ask who i was what should i tell them. Domina said that it wasn’t any of their business but She has been telling people that bear is Her husband and i am Her wife. i told Her that was wild. She then asked what i felt about PDA (public display of affection). i said that it was ok. She said ok, She was just concerned about my feelings.

W/we got home and watched a little TV and then Domina went to bed. i stayed up awhile then i went to bed.

i got up this morning with Domina and brought Her up coffee and an apple with peanut butter. i then went downstairs and worked on the site. Soon, leopet went upstairs and i could hear T/them talking. Soon i couldn’t hear them too well and i went up to see if i could get Her anything and to use the bathroom. leopet was in Her bed and when i entered Her bedroom Domina said She was playing with Her pet. She then told me when i left the room to close the door which i did.

Later leopet came down and asked if i wanted to join them to go to Walmart. i said yes and went upstairs to take a shower. Domina was naked on the bed and She looked like She had some fun. i asked Her and She oh yes.

i took my shower and got all pretty. W/we left and shopped at Walmart. W/we picked up some Covergirl makeup that Ellen DeGeneres as been advertising as well as food for the weekend. W/we went to get some burgers then came home.

Domina told me that tomorrow bear is coming over to watch the Super bowl and that i was probably going to need to take Her son out shopping to let T/them play. Little Mistress is going to play.

Today Domina left to go over to Her footslave’s place for some foot worship and i nice bubble bath.

Domina has been telling me that my next tattoo is going to be a butterfly. She has chosen the butterfly for me as my animal. leopet’s is the maverick, bear is the bear. i asked Her why the butterfly. She told me that She thinks of me developing thinking i was a boy to being a girl like the caterpillar metamorphing into a butterfly. Also that they flit and float gracefully and are delicate. i can’t wait for the tat. It will be in the lower center of my back.

What a weekend so far!

sissygirl

Lost blog post grrr Jan 24, 2009

2009-01-24T10:48:00.000-06:00

Wouldnt' you know it. i had this blog post going and went i went to insert a photo it all froze. Goes to show i should have saved some drafts.. grrrr. lol

sissygirl

Monday, January 19 2009

2009-01-19T17:20:00.001-06:00

Today so far Domina came home from work and W/we left to go shopping at the thrift store. Today was family day with 75% off all clothes. i found several things; a few lady’s pj tops and bottoms, a couple teddy's one pin and the other green and a pretty bra that holds breast forms in fuchsia. i love it! Domina found me a pair of jeans and some casual wear for Herself.

W/we came home and then i left to go to Sally’s Beauty supply where i picked up some hair color. This time a Ferreira brand light golden blonde.

Last weekend was so very nice. It was very low key. bear had stayed over Friday night. W/we all had watched several tv shows and a couple movies. Domina was very tired and bear said he was going to sleep on the couch. Domina told him he wasn’t and later explained to me that i got to sleep with Her most nights and since Her boyfriend was here She wanted to sleep with him. Before W/we all slept in Her bed together but Domina said that it was too crowded and She wanted quality sleep with him.

i was on my computer for awhile and then went down to the living room and lay on the floor. i woke up feeling cold although i had a thick comforter over me. i moved to the couch where i slept warmer. Later i heard bear talking and i guessed that he was going out for coffee. i woke up around 7 and got my coffee and fruit bars. bear came back home and we talked awhile. he then went up with Domina. i played on my computer awhile and then went upstairs to see if anything was going on. i entered Her bedroom and saw that T/they were playing. She had Her cane out and was striking him with it. he left and then She hit me a couple times with it. It was a sharp sensation but nice. Later, Domina told me that early in the morning bear came down and was stroking my legs. i sure couldn’t remember that! teeehee!

Later in the day Domina and i went shopping. W/we went to Michaels and then Joann's where W/we picked up some walleys for O/our night stands. i picked up some with some antique looking fairies and butterflies. my symbol is the butterfly. Domina has an animal name for each of Her subs/slaves. bear is bear of course. leopet’s the puppy.

W/we came home and i cooked oven fried chicken with a recipe i found using corn flakes. It worked wonderfully!. W/we watched some tv and then Domina went to bed. Sunday Domina worked on the night stands. i worked on the Ds Discussion site (http://bimpie.no-ip.com/discuss) and was experimenting with a media server. i ended up getting my old tv card to work with Vista with the help of a few forums.

One thing that i have had trouble with lately is keeping my hair behind my ears. Domina preferred my growing hair fashioned that way and i like it since it looks more feminine. i asked Domina about it and She suggested hair bands. So now i am using hair bands over my head. Today was my first time out with them. i think i look even more feminine with them :)

sissygirl

Friday January 16 2009

2009-01-16T23:04:00.002-06:00

Technorati Tags: cuckold,Domina,leopet,bear,sissygirl,tv

i woke up this morning and found that it had been snowing. The yard outside was all white. i got on my computer and surfed and worked on my new Ds Discussion site (http://bimpie.no-ip.com/discuss).

Domina came home for Her usual 8:00am lunch break and was having allergy attacks from work. She took some antihistamine and left for work.

i did some laundry and then took a shower. i shaved my legs yesterday so i didn’t today. i put on my eyeliner, mascara, my new blossom lipstick and some lip inflator. i wore girls jeans, a cami, my black big girl bra and a purple sweatshirt.

Early in the afternoon Domina came home from work and told me to go to the store and pick up the ingredients for Her home made chicken noodle soup. She said bear was staying the night.

i went to the local Hyvee and picked up some of the vegetables but was unable to find soup stock or the bread W/we like there. i did enjoy a double espresso from the Starbucks satellite there.

i then went to Price Chopper where i found the rest of the ingredients and then came home.

i had picked up some cookie mix and made chocolate chip cookies.

i was working on my computer some more when bear arrived. he came in and Domina came down from Her nap. She had such a happy smile on Her face :)

Domina put together Her soup and soon joined bear down in the living room.

i was working on putting together a PVR namely Knoppmythtv on a computer i haven’t used for awhile and got to a point where i could get away from that. i found Domina and bear sitting on the floor in front of the couch in front of the tv under a couple blankets. i could see Her hand under his playing with his man cock.

i soon came down and joined T/them. leopet was there too on his laptop.

Domina soon told me to dish out some of Her soup to let it cool. W/we were watching the first episode of “The United States of Tara” and W/we enjoyed it. The series is about a Mother and wife with multiple personalities who changes them as she needs them.

Domina stroked and played with my hair for awhile. It felt so nice. i am so glad that She wants me to grow it out and fashion it in a feminine way. i asked Her if i could get a hair band or something to help keep it over my ears. She said that W/we will get some and that its quite feminine.

i could see that Domina and bear were getting a bit Randy as She twisted around with Her head on his chest. She put Her legs over mine.

W/we then watched an episode of ‘The Mentalist’. i was enjoying a can of Twisted Tea, a malt beverage i thought sounded interesting. Domina was having Her wine, and bear had his beer.

W/we then watched an episode of ‘Lost in Space’ from a set of DVDs Domina won at O/our family Christmas get together.

Soon Domina said She was going to bed. bear said he was sleeping on the couch but Domina said no, you are sleeping with me. i followed Domina to Her bedroom to make sure Her bed was clear and that She had all She needed. Domina told me that i will sleep downstairs on the couch or the floor or i could sleep at the foot of Her bed. i would not sleep in Her bed because She wanted to sleep comfortably with Her boyfriend. She was tired and so was he from a business trip. i told Her, “Yes Domina. i understand”. She said She doesn’t see Her boyfriend as much and i will get to sleep with Her tomorrow. i said, “Yes Domina.”

bear came upstairs and was a bit surprised to find that i was sleeping downstairs but the door closed and i was outside.

i came downstairs and did the dishes and cleaned the kitchen.

i then went into the office and attempted to get knoppmythtv to work but it was no luck. Maybe tomorrow.

Now i am going to surf awhile. Maybe watch an episode of Dexter and then go to sleep on the couch.

sissygirl

Tuesday January 13 2009

2009-01-13T09:39:00.000-06:00

Last weekend went really well. It was a kid-less weekend so i was all girl. Even when he is around Domina reminds me privately, "you and I know what you are, don't W/we?"

bear, Domina's submissive boyfriend was going to come over on Friday but he had work commitments. Domina told me that he was coming over Saturday morning and T/they were going out to some garden spot in Missouri to look at things for the garden this year.

That morning Domina and i was up earlier and She got Herself so pretty to go. bear arrived and T/they left after She told me that Her boyfriend was taking Her out.

Through the morning and into the afternoon i was working on my new Dolphin based D/s Discussion site at http://bimpie.no-ip.com/discuss and found it quite the challenge. The board features several things i never had in a board including audio video chat, as well as several other things and each presented their own challenges. But its fun! teeehee!

Later in the afternoon, Domina and bear arrived. She told me that She was feeling 'out of sorts' and i hoped that there wasn't a fight or something. i asked Domina if i could go out and about since i hadn't been out of the house that day and had some errands to run such as picking up my medication as well as Hers. She said it was ok and that She and bear were going back out to find some silver chain for his collar.

i left all girly with my hair brushed back over my ears. my hair now is down my neck in a classic curl :) i think i look more feminine now. i went to Target for the prescription and shopped a bit. i then came home because Domina didn't want me out too long.

i found Domina, bear and leopet down in the living room. W/we had moved the futon from the floor in front of the couch to behind the love seat because Domina wanted room for the Wii Fit thing. Lately Domina has been sitting on the couch while watching TV and eating dinner and She has preferred me on the floor by Her feet. At this time leopet was sitting on the floor surfing the net on his laptop and Domina and bear were sitting on the floor leaned up against the couch. bear had the blanket She made for him around him and She was playing with his man cock.

i went to my computer and continued working on my Ds Discuss site and after awhile i heard Domina talking loudly to bear and saw Her leading him upstairs for a scene. After awhile She called, 'jamie!' and told me to come upstairs. i found bear naked on his knees in the playroom. Domina told me to put on my purple teddy that i had worn the night before and come in and light the candles.

i already had my black bra on with the forms (which i wear all the time now), my black lacy panties and the purple teddy. i went in and lit the candles. Domina was commanding bear to stay kneeling and said, "Doesn't my girl look pretty?" and other things. Soon She told me to go to the cross where She cuffed my wrists above my head and then ties my ankles to the lower O-rings.

Domina then went to bear and cuffed his wrists together. he really doesn't like bondage. She had him come over to me and told him to lick up and down my legs. i had never felt that before and it was so exquisite! She then told him to suck on my clit which he did enthusiastically. It felt so good! It had been over 30 days since i last came and i was so sensitive! After seeing him pull back then back on Domina told me to cum in his mouth. he kept sucking so well and finally it came. It felt so intense i screamed to the top of my lungs. Afterwards i felt so weak and my throat really started hurting.

Domina took me off the cross and told me to sit on the floor and watch. She and bear started making out and then with him laying on his back on the floor Domina got on and road. She was riding faster and faster. Then She got off and started making out some more. Domina told me to clean off Her boyfriend. i went to his cock and licked and sucked. She then got on some more. It was so wild watching my Mistress Wife and Her boyfriend fucking! he then started begging to suck on my clit and She told me to move over to him. he started sucking some more and finally came. By then i was really hoarse and Domina told me to take a throat lozenge.

Domina and bear stayed in the playroom for awhile and then came out. i could smell the smoke from the extinguished candles. bear left and Domina, leopet and i went to a local buffet for dinner. i wore my plum blouse with flowers on it, jeans, girls tennis shoes and my black big girl bra with the forms still. i felt i acted like a girl friend to Domina and leopet that evening.

What a weekend!

sissygirl

my birthday January 3rd 2009

2009-01-03T22:49:00.000-06:00

Today i got up before everyone at about 8am. i spent some time on my computer until Domina yelled for coffee. i brought Her up a cup and She wished me Happy Birthday. She had told me the night before that She would be going to breakfast with bear at 10am.

A couple days ago on New Years bear was going to come over but he called and said that he wasn't feeling too well. Then later Domina told me he was coming over. W/we had been watching tv and laying down on the futon in the living room when he arrived. bear came down and joined us while W/we watched tv and Domina played with his man cock. Mistress and boyfriend cuddled together in a blanket Domina made him for Christmas. i lay down on Domina's side while She and bear cuddled and watched tv. After awhile Domina reached for my clit and started playing with it. Since i am the sissy cuckold my clit is always quite sensitive and it surely felt so good. After awhile bear got up and put his clothes on. At first he said he was going to the bathroom then he said he was going home since he had lots to do.

i felt kind of strange and hoped that he was not feeling jealous that Domina was playing with me. he left and went home. Later he called and asked Domina if he could cum. Then it erupted into an argument. Yes, as it turned out he felt ignored as Domina was playing with me. Domina tried to explain that She thought he felt comfortable with Her playing with any one of us but it turned into a non-communication kind of argument which got Her really upset. i tried to soothe Her but the best thing i could do was to let Her take Her nap. She turned off Her phone and closed Her email.

The next day Domina felt really bad and later in the day talked to him on the phone and planned to have breakfast to talk it out.

Back to today, Domina's phone rang and i picked it up. It was bear. he thought it was me and sounded quite apologetic. Finally i corrected him and told him it was sissygirl, it was jamie. he said he felt bad and all. i said everything was going to be ok. Later Domina pointed out how different O/our lifestyle is where the cuckolded sissygirl is trying to soothe his Wife's boyfriend and all.

T/they went to breakfast and now all looks ok. While T/they were out, leopet and i packed up the Christmas decorations. i took care of the inside stuff and he the outside. Domina came home and W/we continued together.

i took a shower and got pretty. i shaved my legs yesterday. i have been shaving them every other day. Any more or less often seems to give me the red bumps. i got some St Ives oatmeal and shea butter lotion for moisturizing after the shower. i put on my eyeliner and mascara and continued with Cover Girl face powder, lipstick and Sally Hanson Lip Inflation. i put on my big girl white bra with forms, my polka dot cami, my new cami panties, girl jeans, pink and black striped shirt and a denim shirt. i wore my girls tennis shoes.

Domina and i left and went downtown to Microcenter to get my birthday presents. i got a new 1 terabyte hard drive and an additional 1 GB stick of ram for the server. Its going to help U/us all to be able to back up O/our computers as well as have room for my websites.

W/we also went to Big Lots where W/we bought Her boy a gaming chair and then W/we came home.

W/we continued packing Christmas stuff away but Domina found W/we needed more containers for the stuff. i left and went to Big Lots and picked up a plastic container and found a clearance computer game. i went to checkout at customer service. i asked the lady there if i could check out there. She was working on some paperwork and didn't really look up but said, "Yes sir, i will be with you in a moment" then she said, "Sorry sir, that its taking so long, i will be right there". She then looked up and said, "i'm sorry, i should have looked up, you were tall." She was apologizing for calling me a guy! Wow, i said that was ok and left. i then went over to Goodwill and donated some of the Christmas decorations W/we didn't need anymore. i shopped there and found a cute cami that says ARMY vertically. The words spelled out says Adorable, Ravishing, Magnificent, Ya Know? teeeheee! lol Domina thought it was cute hehehe. i wore my short short cami panties with that new cami the rest of the night.

W/we watched some tv (1408) and checked out the new gaming chair. It is really cool, gets sound wirelessly. i installed the ram in the server and tried the new game.

Whew, what a night! i put Domina to bed and kissed Her goodnight. Her little stuffed bear from bear laying on the pillow :)

sissygirl

Bye bye 2008. Welcome 2009! Happy New Year!!

2008-12-31T23:49:00.001-06:00

This morning i got up to use the bathroom after Domina left for work at 4am. i had heard Shanaya Her cat yowling a bit and i thought it strange because she usually doesn't do that when she wants water. i turned on the faucet and she jumped up to the faucet, took a lick and then jumped down and started jumping around. The i saw Her pawing at something and then flicked something in the air.. A mouse! Wow! Domina's 15 year old cat a mouser! i called Her later and it really surprised Her too! teehee!

Later in the morning Domina called me and told me to go over to Home Depot because they were having a 75% off Christmas sale. i went over there and She had already gathered a bunch of town miniatures, large ornaments, a couple large figurines, lights, etc.! i loaded them in the car and went home.

i've been working on a new Ds Discussion site. This one is using the Dolphin social CMS and its wonderful! i am working on tweaking it now. For now the older board is at
http://bimpie.no-ip.com/~discuss

Today is leopet's birthday and Domina got him a couple shirts. my birthday is January 3rd and Domina took both of us out to a casino where W/we had a wonderful buffet dinner and gambled away $20. Lately Domina has had me brush my hair back over my ears. The other day i colored my hair "Temptress Gold" and according to Her it looks really good on me. i have been wearing the butterfly dangly ear rings Domina gave me for Christmas. (Her symbol for me is the butterfly). i wore my "big girl black bra" with breast forms, my pink cami, leopard panties, girl's jeans without pockets, a red hoody and my brown loafers with heels. i carried my carrier bag purse and W/we enjoyed O/ourselves at the casino.

W/we got back home and Domina told me to bring Her a small glass of Irish Creme and then rub Her feet and calves while W/we watched a few episodes of the Twilight Zone marathon.

Tomorrow Domina wants to sleep in and Her sub boyfriend bear is coming over to spend the day with U/us. Domina and i plan to go to the movies together. The boys don't want to. i guess they are going to watch games :)

Wow! What a year its been! Lots of ups and lots of downs. Still looking for that job! So many interviews. That is certainly a New Years resolution... to get hired :)

Another is to continue on this path as a sissy slave cuckold. i think it is always a work in progress. To develop the mindset, the mannerisms, of as many things feminine that i can. To better serve my Mistress Wife in order to make Her life easier and happier. To be a better girl for Her.

i thank all of Y/you who read my blog for Y/your support!

i wish all of Y/you a very happy new year! May all Y/your dreams come true!

curtsy

sissy slave jamie

Today Dec 27 2008

2008-12-28T00:23:00.000-06:00

Today was really nice. Last night a storm came through and threw things around out in the yard. W/we found the swing flung out by the garden. That was about the worst of it.

i had a lot of trouble sleeping and took a couple Benadryll to help me sleep. i woke up to the sound of bear in sounds of ecstacy downstairs as Domina was giving him a hand job. i came downstairs and had the first of several cups of coffee. Domina said that earlier leopet was all touchy feely and She ended up fucking him with Her strap on. his fav way of getting off.

Domina said W/we were going out and about so i took my shower and got pretty. Tomorrow i shave my legs. i put on my big girl bra of course since im all girl during the holidays. i put on a pink cami and a pink sweater/shirt and my jeans and my girls running shoes. i put on my crystal ear rings and some rouge colored lipstick. Then W/we went out.

Domina wanted to get a new silver chain for bear's collar but W/we didn't have any success there. W/we stopped at Target and Joanns and picked up a few things. Finally W/we stopped at a grocery store for some beer and dinner. At each location Domina and bear walked along hand in hand or arm in arm as i pushed Domina's shopping card like a good girl. Then W/we came home.

Domina made pasta and through the evening Domina and bear was laying on the futon in front of the tv. She had him on collar and leash. W/we had dinner and watched a few shows. For awhile Domina played with my clit and bear's cock. It felt so nice. i put on my pink polka dot cami and short denim shorts. i felt all girly.

Later, Domina and bear was really tired and went to bed to Domina's bed. i had gone up earlier and made it up for whatever Domina had planned. i guess T/they went to sleep. i was on my computer for awhile.

While on my computer i sent Domina an email telling Her how i loved the way the weekend went and sent Her a couple cuckold/caption pics.

bear goes home tomorrow. i hope the day goes good :)

sissygirl

Friday 26 Dec 2008

2008-12-26T01:15:00.000-06:00

Today Mistress went to work like usual as well as leopet. Later Domina came home and W/we went to Walmart to take advantage of the sales. i picked up a couple computer games. Domina picked up some food as well as some of the gift baskets. W/we then went to Kohls where She got a new silver chain then W/we came home.

Soon, bear came over and Domina took a nap. Later W/we went downstairs and opened a few presents then bear and i prepared the sprialed ham dinner. W/we had it down in the liiving room.

Later W/we watched some tv while Domina and Her boyfriend played on the futon. Later leopet went to bed. i went upstairs and did the dishes. Domina called me downstairs. T/they played a bit and Domina had him suck on my clitty but would not let me cum. She let bear cum and had me clean him up. She reminded me several times that i am a girl and this real man was pleasuring Her.It was all so intoxicating watching T/them play and hearing Her. Domina then had me get on webcam on alt.com and show the pink nighty i was wearing adn to show them my hard clitty and to tell them that Domina had me clean Her lover after he came and all. There were about 65 people watching me. What an experience :)

Soon T/they were resting on the futon and then Domina went ot Her bed to sleep leaving bear on the futon. Soon i will join Her. Tomorrow Domina told me to plan for more play. :)

sissygirl

C-c-c-old! 22 Dec 2008

2008-12-22T09:37:00.000-06:00

Four degrees Fahrenheit! sooo cold outside! Well, it is December teehee!

W/we finally got all the Christmas lights up on the house. leopet worked on that last weekend and asked me to hook up the music thing that controls the lights outside. So nice :)

Saturday, Domina's ex came for Her boy to take up to Chicago to spend the holidays with him this time. She said this is Her first kidless Christmas for 31 years. wow! W/we had gift exchange for him that morning. He was really happy!.

As soon as he left i asked Domina if She wanted me to put my "Big girl bra" on. She said, put it on! teehee. All girl holiday!

As W/we went to bed Saturday night it was so very cold in the house. Domina and i used three comforters. When W/we woke up Sunday morning i got out of bed feeling even colder. i went down to the office and put on the space heater and stayed in there for awhile. i then went down to check out the furnace and noted that it wasn't burning. It is a gas one with electronic ignition instead of a pilot light. After working with it for awhile it finally started again. W/we saw the temperature on the thermostat climb from the lowest 50 degrees to 75 yaaay!

Sunday Domina, leopet and i went out shopping for a few things at Kohls, Michaels, Target and Borders. W/we had lunch at Taco Bueno.

W/we got home and lounged around. Domina shopped on the Internet and ended up buying a set of urethral sounds, an anal plug set and a vibrator. She wants to try the sounds and soon wants to get into electrical play.

Domina got some email from bear, Her boyfriend telling Her he fell on the ice. he sent some pictures showing his face bruised, ouch!

Later Sunday Domina and i got dressed up - Her in a dress, and me in a suit. W/we were going to Her company Christmas party. The other day She told me about the party and i asked Her who was going with Her. She said bear, leopet or i could go then last week She told me i was going. When i asked, 'i am?" She said that being married to Her i should have some privilege. She told me that i was going to have to be a boy there although a lot of people She works with knows about O/our lifestyle but a lot doesn't. She didn't want me to put my hair back in a pony tail but just to brush it behind my ears.

W/we arrived at the community center and went in. Domina and i greeted the few people W/we knew and exchanged those knowingly looks :) W/we sat down and had a good time having dinner and got a few gifts and then left at the end.

On the way back Domina said that i made a pretty boy there and She was proud having me there with Her. She told me that She sees me as Her wife, bear as Her husband and leopet well, as Her dog.

When W/we got home W/we took some pictures and noted how much nicer it was being home with the heat working. Domina told me to get girly so i put on my big girl bra and lipstick. When i put Domina to bed She said that was better, She preferred me with my tits and lipstick :)

i went downstairs and watched an episode of Dexter and then went to bed.

What a nice weekend!

sissygirl

Sunday, December 14, 2008

2008-12-14T10:16:00.000-06:00

Lately i have had this broncial/sinus/cold thing that hasn't been all too comfortable. Domina has been so good about it. She was going to have me see the doctor Monday but i think its finally subsiding.

i've been interviewing a bit. One recruiter wanted me to come down and meet her so i put on a suit, tied my hang back in a pony tail and used mousse on the rest of it. i got a little lost looking for the place but finally found it. i went in and met her. She took me into a conference room and wanted to know all about what i've done and what i was looking for. i started to tell her then a young guy asked her for a moment. She got up immediately and they went outside for about 5 minutes. Then she came back in and said, "In conclusion..". i was pretty much startled but kept my composure. i told her a few more things then it was done. i don't know what that was all about but Domina and i don't think its going to amount to anything.

Fortuantely another recruiter has some possibilities.

Friday, Domina went to meet Her sub boyfriend bear at a hotel out in central Missouri. T/they had fun at a casino and more fun back at the hotel where T/they played a bit. Domina had me get rope and She took a paddle and lube. This is the first time She stayed over with a real man since W/we were married. She was telling me,"Yes spending the night with Her boyfriend while Her sissy girl stays home to take care of Her house." Teehee.

Domina got back yesterday morning and She and leopet left to go Christmas shopping for several hours. Domina was going to take me after but She was tired and wanted me to rest too.

Today Domina is going over to footslave's house and going to make his fantasy of a Mistress sitting at his computer looking at his porn while he is under the desk worshipping Her feet. She is going to love that!

Later today Domina and i are going Christmas shopping.

So wonderful being able to be all girl this weekend! i am wearing my "big girl's bra" more and more now. When the boy is home i have been wearing loose fitting pajama tops.

sissy girl

Sunday, December 7 2008

2008-12-07T10:16:00.000-06:00

Yesterday Domina took Her boy to his grandma's and then She came home. bear arrived and gave Domina a Christmas ornament thats over 100 years old. wow! Domina had planned on going Christmas shopping with him so T/they left to go out and about. Domina had told us to make a list of five things we want for Christmas so i spent time on websites researching different things. i am wanting more tech oriented things for the computer this year. Domina already said She was getting me some girly things :)

Finally after awhile i went and took my shower and put on my face powder, eyeliner, mascara, my "big girls bra" (Domina expects me to wear that out when i go out and about), my pink and black striped girls' shirt and girls jeans.

i went to Best Buy and browsed the store. Next i had lunch at McDonalds and then i went to Target where i picked up a new Covergirl's eyeliner. mine had run out. Then i came home.

Soon Domina and bear arrived. T/they had picked up some gifts as well as dinner for the evening, steaks and corn on the cob.

i put on my black dress which now Domina corrected me by telling me its a blouse, (blush). i thought it was short for a dress :) It felt so good wearing it and i felt more feminine. W/we went down to the futon and watched some tv. After awhile Domina told us to put the steaks on so bear and i went upstairs and started those thick steaks. i put on some heels. Its been awhile since i wore them.

we finished cooking the steaks, corn and baked beans and served them to Domina. W/we watched some more tv and then put on the dark thriller "Se7en". While watching it bear was stroking Domina's hair. She was playing with my clit for awhile. It felt so nice! bear was sucking on Her breast and playing with Her pussy. i wasn't sure if She wanted me to play with Her other breast and i asked Her while bear was using the bathroom. She told me i wasn't allowed to play with Her. i was not allowed to interupt at all. i said yes Domina.

Domina started playing with bear's cock and he continued playing with Her. After awhile She told him to lean over and suck my clit. mmmm so nice. She commented how Her playing with bear made my clit hard. She continued playing with my clit. T/they kissed deeply for awhile. Soon She got on him and road his man cock for awhile while gazing at me.

At one point Domina told me to go suck his cock so i went over to his side of the futon and started sucking him. Domina asked, "Do you like sucking My boyfriend's cock?" i said "yes Domina!" She said, "Good girl". Soon Domina told us to go 69. i had never done that before and we got in position and he sucked my clit while i sucked his cock. That was really wild! Domina said "Enough" and i lay down on the futon next to Her. She told me to get lube and rope so i went up to the play room and got the items and returned. She tied my wrists together and told me i couldn't touch myself or anyone else. She continued playing and fucking with bear. One time She got on my clit a few times. Soooo nice! Then She got off and told bear to suck me off. he came over and started sucking me hard.. Sooo nice! Then Domina said i had permission to cum! i bit into a pillow and screamed so hard! It was sooo intense!

Domina told me to get a vibrator next to Her bed so i retrieved it and She played with Herself as bear did as well. She got off too!.

Soon the movie was over and Domina and bear went to bed. She told me all three of U/us were sleeping together. i cleaned up the kitchen, got on the computer for awhile and then went to bed.

What a nice day!

sissy girl

Updates, bear returns Dec 3 2008

2008-12-03T14:31:00.000-06:00

Lately W/we have been doing the Christmas decorating. Today i finished hanging garland in front on O/our railing and inside railings. i strung lights to compliment them. Domina had leopet build a three tier platform for Her miniature town and She set it up and today i put lights on it. i still need to get some more.

At 1:00pm today bear arrived. he has been out of the country for the last two weeks on his adventures in New Zealand. Domina has really missed him. he arrived with a few presents for Her and Domina soon had him join Her in Her bedroom upstairs while leopet was having lunch and i was fixing mine. bear went up and i heard the door close. Soon he came out of Her bedroom naked and Domina called me up. i went up and She told me to tie Her corset. It had been laced but not tied. Unfortantely i just couldn't get it tied. Domina told me to research that on the net. i then asked Her if i should go out and get more lights and q-tips?. She said yes. Next i said "i'm going to wear my big girl bra out. Is that ok Domina?" She asked, "Are you telling me or asking me?". i said asking. She made it clear that i must ask correctly. i then asked Her which bra i should wear by default?. She said my "big girl bra" unless told otherwise.

i left to come downstairs and i could hear Her go into the playroom where bear is. T/they have been playing for awhile. i am getting ready to go shopping :)

my my here we go!

sissy girl

Domina's submissive boyfriend returned from his adventures in New Zealand yesterday.

The last day of November, 2008

2008-11-30T22:22:00.000-06:00

It was a very nice weekend!

Friday morning at about 5am leopet woke me up to tell me that Domina wanted me to go to Home Depot and pick up an artificial Christmas tree that was on the Black Friday sale. i called Her and She said that Home Depot didn't open til 6:00. At 6:20 She text'd me and told me to get over there because there will be a line. i headed over there and stood in line till 6. i got in there and got the tree. By the time i checked out a couple minutes later all of them had been sold. Whew!

i went back to bed and then got up around 9am and went down to Overland Park and picked up some things at Microcenter, 1/2 price book store and Super Walmart.

W/we all of U/s except leopet watched Wall-e and enjoyed it. leopet didn't want to watch it because he thought it was too politically correct.

Saturday Domina, Her boy, and leopet went out shopping and left me at home for a break. i got itching to go out so later showered, shaved my legs and all, put on my "big girl bra", panties, Female shirt, girls jeans and girls running shoes and went out and about looking for gifts. i found the camera i was looking for Domina's boy and i went to Sally's Beauty Supply to get hair color for Domina and i. The checkout girl asked if i had a Sally's Beauty card and i said yes and i gave it to her and left.

Saturday night W/we watched Tom Hanks in Bachelor Party. teehee!

Sunday It snowed today! Today W/we did some Christmas decorating and Domina wanted me to take boychild and get out of the house at 4:00pm because Her footslave was coming over for play. We left and went to Border's books where we got some gifts as well as hot chocolate and coffee. W/we then went to Super Walmart for some shopping and groceries. Then we went to Sally's again to get some more hair solution for Domina. She called me and told me the coast was clear and to come home. i also picked up some nail polish for Domina and myself. We got home and i grilled some hamburgers and W/we watched Dexter. i painted Domina's toes a very dark red and painted all my nails and pretty color called "Jetstream" which is a kind of pink/purple sparkle. i think a pretty color. i put Domina to bed then cleaned up the kitchen. She has a list of things for me to do including hanging more decorations and shampooing the carpet.

Domina's sub boyfriend bear is returning tomorrow. She is really looking forward to his return!

sissy girl

Its been a very nice weekend!

Tuesday November 25th 2008

2008-11-25T11:22:00.000-06:00

Its been awhile since i've blogged anything. Since all the drama a couple weeks ago things have been going pretty good. i saw a psychiatrist who was referred to by my therapist for medication management. my appointment was for 9:45am the other morning. i had mapped out the way with google maps but about 15 minutes before i needed to be there Domina called and told me to bring Her extra cell phone battery. i grabbed it and dashed over to Her workplace. i had tried to call Her on the way over there but couldn't get an answer. i ran through this big store and finally found Her. Then i got in the car and ended up getting lost in a neighborhood and finally found the place. i had passed it when i first entered the neighborhood!

i waited awhile to see the doctor and finally a petite Pakistani woman greeted me and led me into her office. She asked me to tell Her the situation. i explained that i am in a non-traditional marriage. That my Wife is head of household - the Mistress. i am Her sissy slave, etc. i had been told by my therapist that she is open to alternative lifestyles.

i further explained that i was seeing the therapist and her because of anger and depression problems. That sometimes out of the blue Domina and i would be talking about something and it would erupt in an argument. That i find it hard to let it go. That certain things like tools and such are hard to find because family members don't return them to places where they are stored seem to trigger bad feelings in me that seem to have something to do with the arguments. i told her that the last thing i want to do as a sissy girl is to argue with my Mistress.

She prescribed Wellbutrin for my depression feeling that the depression may be the underlying cause for it all. She said it would kick in in about 2 weeks.

i thanked her and left and picked up the medication.

Right after the argument W/we had before i had done what i had done before. i removed all my nail polish, jewelry and bra and put on men's clothes. i also went online and deleted my Ds Discussion site as well as several other sites i had on my server. i also deleted my flickr account and other online accounts. i told Domina of this and She told me i always have done that before and not to do it again. She told me to put on my nail polish as pink as possible as well as my jewlery (slave anklet, another anklet, fairy ring). She told me i will wear a bra at all times. my training bra when boychild is at home, at my parents, and when i get a job and my "big girl bra" at all other times.

She told me to put up my Ds Discussion site again, http://bimpie.no-ip.com/~discuss
i did that. Its pretty new but it does have a forum area for discussing the various lifestyles, a gallery, file exchange, chat board, and of course articles and stories.

Domina told me that i do not have permission to delete anything like that again without Her permission.

bear, Domina's submissive and lover had taken an adventure out of country to New Zealand. he has been gone for the last couple weeks and She has really missed him.

Domina told me today that She is dropping one of Her subs that comes over occasionally. Its just taking too much of Her time.

Last week Domina acquired a foot slave that has a hug foot fetish. he is into humiliation but is not ready to have others around. So Domina told me to run some errand while he was gone. i did and arrived home as he was passing me on the street. Domina came downstairs all happy and feeling good. She really enjoyed it!

Another matter that caused tension was the other night Domina received an email from bear who was having some insecurities after hearing that She had been playing with other subs. Hearing that i told Domina that he should be told that when You receive emails from him Your face lights up and he makes You happy. She couldn't understand why the submissives can be insecure. i said that i can see why She couldn't because the Mistress is wanted by everyone but the submissives yearn to be with Her. This got a bit tense and i ended up emailing Her that i thought that W/we should be able to discuss lifestyle issues without tension. W/we did talk awhile after that.

Things are going pretty well now. i am feeling better and better :)

sissy girl

Relief

2008-11-18T13:03:00.000-06:00

This morning Domina came home from work for Her lunch break and told me that W/we were going to talk at 1:30pm when She gets off work. All morning i thought about it of course and took Titus O/our Westie out to the Parkville river park for a looong walk (4 miles). i really did pray that there would be a positive outcome to all of this drama really.

Domina came home and W/we talked about it all. The conflict is that when i bring up a problem She believes i want the answer immediately. Domina prefers taking a problem and thinking it through before giving Her answer on many things. Also the level of importance of a given problem may be a different level in Her eyes than mine.

i agreed that i will work on being more sensitive to Her needs/feelings in these matters.

W/we talked about the lifestyle too. i feel positive that things are improving.

sissy girl

Drama continues

2008-11-18T04:02:00.000-06:00

i slept horribly last night. When Domina and Her son came home from wherever they went straight to their bedrooms. leopet the same. At some point during the night i remembered that the alarm clock on my side of the bed was probably not turned to alarm so i swiftly went into the bedroom while Domina was there reading and set it.

i went to sleep but woke up at about 2am. Then about 5 and so on.

i finally got up at about 7 and got online and did my unemployment. i then went and took a shower. i took off all my jewelry except my necklace. i just don't feel so girly now.

Domina came in at about 8:08am and saw Her son off to school then went up stairs for Her lunch break. She came back down at about 8:44 and said that we are going to talk at about 1:30pm today. i asked Her what we were going to talk about. She said that She thinks that my rages may not be the real problem but a symptom. She said she thinks the real problem may be our fundamental differences in how we communicate. That i continue to push for answers instead of letting it go. She needs to think about things when presented a problem whereas when I talk i need an immediate answer.

Another thing is that i may regard an issue as more important than She does.

That choosing the time when she is tired and getting ready to take a nap is the wrong time. But i said that she has said the same thing no matter what time of day or day of the week i've approached Her.

She stated that the part time subs come here and reverance Her. But knowing that living with people is different i still shouldnt be arguing all the time. i shouldnt call myself a slave nor submissive.

Domina said things are too tense here.

Then She left for work.

pretty down here

sissy girl

Here i am 9:08pm Nov 17 2008

2008-11-17T16:08:00.000-06:00

i took a concern i felt strongly about to my Mistress/Wife. Its not the first time i have done this. i did not intend for it to be a lengthy discussion or an argument. i felt that She did not see the importance of it as i did being a safety issue.

She did finally state that She was going to have leopet correct the problem. At that point i tried to understand how i could better bring future matters to Her without them becoming arguments. i felt that that would avoid future heartbreaks, arguments, whatever. That in itself became worse and worse. How can i let it go! i hate arguments. All i want is a harmonious and safe home where i can serve as a sissy girl to my Mistress!

i was waiting for leopet to come home to help me carry this heavy work bench he made yesterday and i finished and painted today into my office. he just didn't come home. Domina said that the fight made him not want to come home. i went out myself and "man handled" the workbench into the office. i went upstairs and Domina was telling me how i was affecting everything! i went downstairs and tried to call my therapist for help. While i was leaving a message with her answering service Domina came down and took Her son and left.

i then called Domina's submissive girlfriend who has been such help to U/us.

It is really so hard. i really saw Domina as the authority figure in the house but She just isn't into dealing with problems like that. i guess it doesn't work that way here. i thought the way to take care of problems that involved others were to take them to the person in question or to the authority figure but i was wrong. i probably should have either not tried to handle the saw myself or search for the guides.

Domina and Her son finally did come home probably from having dinner somewhere and with paranoia thinking She may have told him future plans.

leopet came home too without saying anything.

Domina's sub girlfriend repeated a few times that i should think about what i need out of a relationship.

Scary stuff for me.

sissy girl

Difficult questions Nov 17 2008

2008-11-17T09:48:00.001-06:00

For the last couple weeks i have been working on Domina's laptop. First, i found that the battery was at the end of its life and would not charge anymore. i also found that the power adapter was not making a good connection in the computer and discovered that the jack was bad.

i was working on Her computer on the floor of my office because i really didn't have a better place to work on it. W/we have been planning to make/get a workbench for the office sometime. A couple days ago i asked leopet if he could build one similar to Domina's. Yesterday W/we all went to Home Depot to get the material for it. Last night leopet built it.

Today i finished the workbench by cutting the 2x4s and peg board for it. i felt nervous using the table saw because some of the safety features namely guides and such were missing.

Domina called from work and said She was coming down with a cold or something. i do know how that feels! i got Her some Vicks Nyquil in softgels because She doesn't like liquid and had them on Her night stand.

Domina came home from work and said i did a good job on the backing for the bench and noted the colors etc.

i followed Her up to Her bedroom to make sure She had the medication etc. Then...

i told Her i was nervous using the table saw with the safety attachments missing. i guess i intended to tell Her and thought She would tell leopet to gather them together but it became another argument.

Domina feels that She point out/correct, etc an adult when they create or might commit an unsafe act. i have been trained and brought up to believe you do what you can to prevent an unsafe act. In my view, taking safety features like guides and things and not replacing them is creating potentially unsafe conditions for other people using the saw.

This kind of situation is similar in past episodes where i have tried to remedy problems and have a hard time letting them go. Other situations have involved leaving tools and other expensive items out in the yard instead of storing them thus letting them rust and be ruined. Another is not putting things back where they are stored. i feel that whoever took the items and left them out were plainly careless and thought Domina would be the one to communicate my concerns.

Her view is that i (sissy girl) is no better than anyone else.

i find it quite frustrating not being able to find things i need to use to get the job at hand done.

i think i am being concerned and bringing things up to improve things but as it is they have been the stuff of arguments. Its hard to let go when i am trying to make a point.

i am going to therapy and this week to a psychiatrist for medication management because i have had "rages" in the past. Today i wouldn't call it a rage but i need to understand better what is going on here and what to do.

Remember that this is a D/s Femdom Poly family. i'm not sure if it matters. i think a lot of the situation can be related to most any type of family unit or organization.

Thank you

sissy girl

Today Nov 13 2008

2008-11-13T20:05:00.000-06:00

Today went a lot better than yesterday. Domina and i talked about yesterday's drama. Some things are really clear. Pandora's box is open and it ain't closing. i asked what isn't. Domina said everything. me being a girl. cuckolding. Domina playing with others and all. It is one of those things that you fantasize about it. You might experience it and then at some point you think, "really".

i shaved my legs and everything else this morning after i vacuumed Domina's house. She texted me to have the playroom cleaned up since Her boyfriend was coming over for play. Today is his 2 month anniversary with U/us. he is leaving for an adventure out of the country tomorrow i think. When i was getting dressed he was laying on Domina's bed next to Her. She told him that i have to wear training bra's (sports bras) except when boy-child was around.

i kissed Her and went on errands. i stopped at the bank for a deposit and then to the hardware store to get a key made for bear. Then i had to drop off a package at the UPS store. Finally i stopped at Hyvee where i paid a utility bill and picked up fix-ins for tonights chicken noodle soup. Domina told me that leopet wasn't feeling to well and home made chicken noodle soup usually helps.

i got home and saw that bear's truck was still parked by O/our house. i went upstairs to the playroom where i heard Domina talking about me and last night. Its really a strange experience hearing ones Mistress Wife talking about things like that but actually i still feel a bit numb to it all.

i put the groceries away and then i thought i would look for Domina's case for Her new Instinct phone since She lost it the other day. i wound up my battery-less flashlight for a few minutes and then went out to the garage to Her car. As soon as i opened the door there it was! Right there on the console. i put it in my pocket and went back inside.

i started making the soup when Domina came down in Her new silky red PJ's. i told Her i got Her something and asked Her to close Her eyes and put out Her hands. i put the phone case in Her hands and She lept with joy. W/we have been looking for it every where!

i asked Her if She marked bear with the henna She had me buy yesterday. She had told me that She was going to mark him so he would always remember Her for the two weeks he will be gone. She told me it was actually for me. wow! She plans on doing some art or words or something on me. She reminded me that yesterday didn't go so good.

W/we went down to the living room and watched some tv. W/we had dinner and then Domina turned it early. She was so tired.

It was a much better day today. i made an appointment to see a psychiatrist in a week for medication management as my therapist recommended. i think things will really come around.

sissy girl

Real life Nov 12 2008

2008-11-12T23:30:00.000-06:00

What a tough day. Its really hard to admit it but Domina and i fight from time to time. W/we both love the lifestyle so much. She, my Mistress and i Her sissygirl but things happen.

Domina works terrible hours for Her. She is up at 3:30am to be at work by 4. She comes home at 1pm and usually goes right to bed to sleep to 5 or 6pm. Then She wakes up and enjoys dinner and a few tv shows then She is back to bed at 8 or 9pm for Her "Me" time.

Today while Domina was at work i hung some shelves and was getting a shopping list together for after She came home. Domina came home tired. As usual i greeted Her at the door and followed Her to Her bedroom to make sure She had everything She needed and to ask Her a question before i left. She kissed me and abruptly shooe'd me out of the room telling me She was very tired and just wanted Me time before i could ask the question and i felt bit bad about it. i got to the bottom of the stairs and heard Her talking to someone. i went back upstairs and saw She was all smiles and talking on the phone to Her boyfriend. i left and thought about it while i zipped from place to place picking things up for Her.

Later i thought i would approach Her with my feelings but somehow She turned it around to how She felt and all. i really got frustrated about it all. i just wanted to let Her know that i felt i should be able to express my feelings when i'm hurt. i ended up leaving the house for a long drive to cool down.

i drove all around the city and stopped at McDonalds knowing that my family was having pizza at home. i thought Domina would appreciate that i got out to cool down. i got home after 9pm and found Her still awake. W/we talked about the earlier fight and i tried as humbly as i could to tell Her how i felt but She took it as i was finding Her such a terrible person.

Tension has been up there because i have been unemployed for some time now and although i have been to many interviews nothing has surfaced.

Right now i don't feel too submissive and certainly not too girlie. i told Domina that i might cut my hair and get the first job i can get so i could stop the tension. She told me that i will always be what i am.

Domina told me that i should chat with Mistress's and other sissies online about it all but really i don't chat with people like that. i have always wanted to hold Domina up on a pedestal because She is my Mistress and my Goddess. Things are usually very good but in times like this its pretty tough for me.

i agreed a few weeks ago to see a therapist because Domina felt that i get angry and upset about relatively little matters. She calls them rages. i have seen the therapist a couple times and mostly we are getting acquainted. i have been totally up front with her about O/our lifestyle and all.

Why am i blogging this all. Maybe to let you know that the lifestyle W/we are living is real. Things aren't always so beautiful and girlie. W/we all like jamie more than james but its difficult to not be able to be open and expressive with one's Mistress/Wife without an argument ensuing.

i would appreciate some guidance.

sissy girl