Sunday

Today i was up around 7am and got on the computer for awhile. i went back to sleep for awhile and woke up with Domina. leopet made some turkey bacon and eggs. They were pretty good. i hoped to hear from the guy from Craigslist but i called him after he emailed Domina. He was going to stop by. i worked on a ceiling fan and needed some expert trouble shooting so i took it to Home Depot. Before leaving for there i touched up my eyeliner and mascara and went over there. we found the problems, i bought some things for it and came home finding a note on the door. The guy from Craigslist came and went. Domina was in the shower and hadn't heard. grrr.

i kept my composure. Domina left to pick up Her 28 year old son. i fixed the ceiling fan.

Her son is in the lifestyle. She told him about me. All is well.

Domina made a wonderful pot pie W/we all had for dinner in front of the tv. Domina and leopet were under the comforter and i knew She was playing with his cock. sweet torment for me. i truly ache for Her touch. More and more i hope that Domina goes further with leopet. Its so exciting when She does. Later She did caress me a bit. It was wonderful. i know its not the same as under the covers but so nice nonetheless.

Domina picked my new nail polish tonight. A light pink She feels is more feminine. i like it. i need to do my toes in the morning. i carry my purse where ever i go now. Its hard to believe i ever put those things in my pockets before. It just works so well carrying my purse. i love being a girl. More and more i feel more a girl when i'm out and about.

Tomorrow i need to clean up around the house. The playroom is getting closer and closer to being finished. At some point Domina plans on saran wrapping me. i love it. Maybe i'll witness some hot stuff between Her and leopet. i only hope!

sissy girl

Saturday - playroom

Today i wasn't feeling too well. i felt a bit lethargic. i woke up wearing my breast forms and my bra. i always love that. Its a kind of a nice reminder who and what i am, a sissy cucky slave girl. i waited for a couple guys to come in response to a couple things W/we put on Craigslist. One guy showed up and the other guy W/we just learned forgot.

After my second nap, i took my shower and made myself pretty with my new crystal dangly ear rings, eye liner, mascara and lipstick. i put on my new girls jean shorts and a cami and my new Lady's sandals and denim purse then went on errands to Home Depot, QT, the grocery store and Kmart. Some of it was for the new play room and some was for my new denim purse. i got a pink hairbrush and comb set. i find my hair gets a bit unruly when i'm driving around in Domina's car. i love my new purse. It does help me feel more girly as i carry it around slung over my shoulder. It is so convenient having all my things like my wallet, keys, cell phone, etc in it rather than hunting it all down each time i go out. Its so much better too than having all the things jutting through my pockets.

i got home and found Domina inside on Her laptop and leopet working on the gate in the garden. i got on the computer for awhile and helped Domina as She yelled orders to me. W/we hope to have the playroom all done tomorrow. Earlier today i mounted the St Andrews cross on the wall and mounted a rack on the ceiling for all Domina's floggers, paddles, crops, etc. i told Domina that i felt like putting something more comfortable. She told me to put on a nighty so i put on a pink nighty. i love it with my bra :)

W/we three then watched a Dr Who episode and had a good time.

i was asked who normally sleeps with Domina. i do. Domina likes cuddling with me. Thats Her preference. Of course i love to and its a privilege to share Domina's bed.

sissy girl

A nice rainy day, stormy evening

Today i got up and spent some time on the computer. i took the ceiling fan down from the ceiling in the new play room. i cut a 2x4 and painted it black. It will serve as the support for the St Andrews cross in the play room. Later i took a short nap and then took a shower. i put my eyeliner, mascara and lipstick on. Domina didn't like the darker red lipstick. She prefers pinks and reds on me. my eyebrows are looking feminine.

i put on my new girls sandals and went to Super Walmart for some shopping. i picked up the ingredients for chili, some pretty crystal dangly ear rings i have on now, some Covergirl powder makeup i got with a coupon and some other things. i then went to Borders and browsed the magazines with a double espresso and triple chocolate cookie, yummm!. Then i came home.

Some guy was supposed to show up to pick up our ceiling fan so i had to take off my bra with forms. When it looked like he wasn't coming Domina said i could put it back on. i love my bra with the forms. Looking down its wonderful seeing them there and looking in the mirror i think i look prettier. The guy called and said his wife was in O/our part of town but she was coming home due to the incoming storm. W/we all relaxed in front of the tv watching the weather reports and watching Hell's Kitchen on Domina's laptop. Domina started playing with my clitty. It felt so good. She then told leopet and i to take off our pants. She then played with his cock and my clitty. Domina mentioned that leopet is hairy around his cock and balls and i am smooth. She likes Her boy hairy and masculine and me Her girl shaven and smooth. She likes the differences. After awhile Domina noticed my clitty wasn't getting very hard and stopped playing with it telling me if i can't keep it hard She won't play with it. i really wished it stayed hard and yearned for more play especially seeing that She was playing with leopet.

After the show was over Domina told me to take Her computer upstairs and make Her bed. i went upstairs and straightened Her bed and turned down the sheets and comforter as She likes. i put the laptop on Her bed and plugged it in. i then went to the laundry room and switched the clothes to the drier. i walked downstairs and saw that Domina and leopet were making out on the futon. i went down and sat on the floor watching T/them. my clitty got so hard and i watched T/them with a serious look on my face. It is so exciting to me. Domina was stroking leopet's cock and T/they were locked in a deep kiss. A little while later Domina starting sucking him. ahh i was feeling hot and my clitty was throbbing. i thought T/they were going to fuck but She broke it off and said She had to go to bed. Wakeup is so early!

i followed Domina up to make sure She needed anything. She told me to bring my clitty to Her. She stroked me for awhile and W/we talked a bit. i asked Her if She liked me talking like a girl. She told me that She prefers me as jamie talking like i do and being good.She then told me to leave Her alone because She loves to read before going to sleep.

The storm came in and left hopefully. It really looked bad on tv.

sissy girl

Yesterday Shopping

Yesterday morning i got up and remembered i was wearing my bra with forms. i really love that along with seeing that all my nails are painted pink. i got on the computer, read emails, surfed, etc. i later checked showered, put on my eyeliner, mascara and lipstick. i checked the mail and drove to the bank.

i then went to Super Walmart and did some shopping. Domina told me i could buy some Lady's sandals like Hers. i love them, so comfortable!. Domina called and asked if i had gone to the Thrift store yet. i said i hadn't She said that She would probably meet me there. i made my purchases and drove across town to the Thrift Store. Domina called again and W/we talked about the playroom. She wanted to play with leopet and myself as a kind of a christening before She had others play there. Then Domina's car appeared. W/we went in and shopped. It was so much fun shopping with Her. W/we found some things for Her and for me. i ended up getting some girls athletic shorts that fit like a skirt, a pretty lacey pink blouse, another shoulder sleeve pink blouse, girls fatique type shorts, a denim purse and a closet shoe holder.

i then went to McDonalds for lunch. A group of teenagers came in. They kept looking at me. The boys were snickering from time to time. i just sat and enjoyed lunch with the newspaper.

i drove home and washed all O/our new things. i showed Domina the new purse. She thought it would work for a male or female.

Later i grilled some mesquite chicken breasts and cooked baked potatoes. W/we watched Stargate Atlantis.

sissy girl

Tasks for me today

Domina works so early. She gets up at 3:30 am for work. leopet gets up at 3:15 to cook Her breakfast. Domina comes home for lunch later in the morning. i was out of bed by then at my computer. i met Her at the garage wearing my bra with forms, cami, panties and girls athletic shorts. She told me that She wanted me to accomplish the list She gave me the night before. It involved moving the BDSM playroom stuff from storage to the new playroom and taking pictures of some things W/we wanted to get rid of on Craigslist. She also wanted me to remove some of the old decals from Her car

i was on my computer for awhile and then went up to Domina's bedroom/bathroom and freshened up. i brushed my teeth, shaved, and plucked my eye brows. They are getting to be more feminine now. i put on some eyeliner and mascara and lipstick.

i went down stairs and started removing the decals. i saw that i was going to need some more goo gone so i got in Domina's car and drove over to Big Lots but couldn't find any there. i then went to Lowe's and found some. i got a lot of looks at both places. Usually i get nice smiles from Lady's. Sometimes i get sneers from guys.

i drove home and removed the decals. i then started moving stuff from the storage to the playroom and then from the old bedroom to storage. i then started taking pictures of the things for Craigslist.

Domina came home from work. i showed Her what i had done and She was so pleased. i love pleasing Her. She then put some fresh Betty Page decals on Her car and gave me one. i then put it on my car as well as another Betty Page i had as well as a Bisexual Pride decal W/we had purchased at the Pride Fest.

Later Domina and leopet were working in the garden and around the house. i hung a new hummingbird feeder outside on the deck. Domina said She wanted dinner early so i cooked it. W/we had dinner down on the futon in front of the TV. W/we watched Family Guy then Hells Kitchen. Domina made some more plant tags. She had me sit on the floor off the futon. When She was done She moved over and let me sit on the left of Her. leopet sat on Her right. She started playing with both his cock and my clitty. It felt so good! She told me that when the buzzer buzzed on the oven i was to take out the tags She made and then rub Her feet.

The buzzer sounded and i did what She told me to do. i returned to the futon. Domina continued to play with leopet's cock but left my clitty alone. How i yearned for Her touch but i reminded myself that i am Her sissy slave cucky girl and She does what She wants. It is best.

Earlier in the day Domina had called me from work and W/we talked about things. She said that things had changed since W/we got married and i certainly am not the masculine one but it works for U/us. She definitely prefers me as jamie. i told Her i feel more submissive and softer as a girl.

Domina went to bed. i asked Her and She told me to wear my bra with forms to bed

sissy girl

Saturday

In the morning i got up at about 8 and got coffee for Domina. W/we all got up and went out and about to yard sales. i picked up a pair of partial hoop black ear rings. W/we got several other misc things.

Later in the day, Domina and i readied O/ourselves for a wedding W/we were attending. i had to take my nail polish off my finger nails but i didn't have to cut them. i had told Domina earlier that i couldn't wait until the wedding was over to get girly again. While i was dressing, She asked me if i was wearing a cami under my shirt. i told Her no. She told me to take the shirt off and put a cami under it then take the shirt off after the ceremony. i told Her i was taking my new pink lipstick too.

W/we went and had a good time there and left without going to the reception. W/we had work to do at home readying the play room. As soon as i got to the car i took my shirt off and put on my lipstick. i think i am addicted to lipstick and eyeliner and such. i love it! W/we stopped at taco bell and came home.

W/we cleaned up the old bedroom and painted the walls. i can't wait to put fingernail polish back on my nails. They just don't seem right without polish.

Domina plans on playing sometimes Sunday, i think wrapping me up in saran wrap, probably having me dress all feminine and Her playing with and fucking with leopet. Next weekend i'm pretty sure She is having Her occasional sub, the farmer over to play with.

i am so excited!

sissy girl

Stormy night

Yesterday i took one of O/our cats to the vet. She has been having skin problems and she got a steroid shop. i went out and about with lipstick, my pinkish nail polish, girls athletic shorts, cami, sandals and hoop ear rings. i went to a couple thrift stores and a Dollar Store and came home.

Domina, leopet and myself had a crock pot dinner and laid down on the futon and watched a couple episodes of CSI. leopet was getting a bit randy and got naked and was caressing Domina as well as fingering Her a bit. Domina got naked. She had been playing with his cock for quite a while. leopet went to the bathroom and i asked Her how She wanted me. i was wearing a cami with my bra with breast forms, girls athletic shorts and my pink panties. She told me to stay like i was since i was an observer. i said/asked "sissy girl cucky me". She said, "Yes, sissy girl cucky you". i asked Her if She considered me Her cuckold and She said yes. i asked whether She was playing. She said that She was having sex with Her boyfriend and i am Her sissy so yes.

leopet came back and Domina played with him more while watching til a commercial. She felt my clitty and saw it was really hard. She went to potty and came back. The premier Swingtown episode came on and She continued playing with leopet. i thought T/they were going to fuck at some point but he put on his clothes and got his computer and went to bed since he was pretty tired. i talked with Domina. i asked Her if She would involve me somehow if She fucked other men. She said really She didn't have the sex drive She used to with menopause and all but She will fuck leopet. She may want to fuck an occasional male sub She plays with as part of expressing Her Dominance. Domina has always been bothered about talking about cuckolding and the how, She is more spontaneous.

i asked Her about chastity devices. She said She prefered that both leopet and i don't play with ourselfs because She said so. i told Her how hot it would be to see Her taking a key from Her neck to unlock one to play with my clitty. She dismissed it. Who knows if She will ever consider it.

i guess in a lot of ways talking about things like the above may seem like topping from the bottom. i don't think they really are. More like negotiatiating. Its like i talk about things at one point and let them happen.

Mistress made some comments today about me and the lifestyle. One that i might be an experience junkie but underlying submissive. That bothered me a bit because i feel that i am a sissy girl. i love to be girly and love feminine things. boy things do bore me. More and more i feel my submission deepended by my sissy life.

The midwest experienced quite a series of storms last night. Tornados were seen out and about in Kansas and it was heading O/our way. i took all of Domina's flower/plant pots off of tables and things outside and put them on the deck. i took the canopy off of O/our swing too. i could just see the wind smashing it against the house. This morning everything looks fine :)

W/we'll see

sissy girl

my new shoes

A couple days ago i mentioned that i had gotten some new strappy shoes and was going to wear them to the Pride Fest but wore them as W/we shopped afterwards. Here they are :)

Sunday June 1st

i woke up that morning with a bit of a headache since it was pretty warm in the house. W/we were hoping that the AC would be fixed but it wasn't. The repairman thought it might be overcharged so he was to be out at 1:30pm to work on it. i got up and had some breakfast. A little later i went out to the back yard and Domina said T/hey had been talking about where W/we were going to move O/our stuff since W/we don't really have storage space and the garage has a lot of it stored. i started feeling hissy because the stuff i've moved with me has always been an issue and it just hit that spot. i went to the garage and started throwing my stuff out to the yard to sort through. i was feeling that headache and was sweating and all. The repairman showed up and started working. Domina called me out to the garden and said, "i don't want james here, i like jamie. jamie understands". i immediately felt more submissive and yes Domina in my girl voice. Domina told me that W/we were going to arrange all the stuff in a way that it would work out. She told me that i had better keep my lipstick on, She better not see me without it. Then She told me to go to the store and get some more, none of the $9.00 kind though. She wanted a shimmery kind.
i went to Target and picked up a few things and looked at all the lipstick and found one called English Rose by N.Y.C. i called Her and told Her that the shimmery type were sold out but She thought this one would be pretty.
The rest of the day and into the evening i kept my lips colored. i do a lot of times anyway. i wore my breast forms in my bra and cooked a steak/brat dinner. W/we had a wonderful evening watching Dr Who. The ac was working wonderfully now and felt so good.
Domina told me to strip to my bra and panties. It felt so good in the cooler air. Since Domina told me She preferred jamie i felt so much the girl, moved and talked like a girl. i need to stay away from being james. That persona doesn't work too well here. Its best to be jamie, Domina's sissy girl cuckold.
sissy girl

KC Pride 2008

Yesterday the air conditioning guy came out to fix our ac. i had been doing my nails a bright pink called 'Pinkish" by Revlon and he arrived to fix it. i showed him what we knew and continued getting ready. Domina and leopet got back from shopping and W/we all got ready for the festival. i wore my calf high lady's jeans, chain belt, my bra with forms, pink camisole, put on my make up and wig. Domina gave me the Pride boa She knitted a couple years ago for a Pride festival W/we missed due to rain.

Then W/we started out

i had just bought some pretty strappy heels but it looked like W/we were going to walk a bit to get to the festival so i changed into my Mary Janes (Thank Goddess i did!). W/we got there and found so many people walking in and out of the area. W/we got in there and saw the big performance stage, food vendors, and the other vendors. i was really thirsty for a beer but it cost $5.00 for wrist band to enable you to pay $4.00 for a can of beer so Domina said no.

W/we went down the line of vendors and looked at various jewelry booths. Domina bought me a new belly button ring that is in the pride colors and says, "All families matter". W/we also got a couple car decals that say pretty much the same.

Moving along the line i had some nice conversations with some of the vendors and people. i received so many compliments on the Pride boa Domina knitted :)

Later down the line W/we found a leather crafter that had floggers, hoods, toys, etc. One thing W/we didn't have was a ball gag. Domina asked me which one W/we should get. i said the red one shows up better in photos (teeehee!). She laughed.

W/we made it to the vendors and W/we saw the big tent. With some of the signs outside i thought it might be a beer tent or for food or something. When W/we got closer i could see it was a kind of quilt memorial. W/we went inside and saw all the quilts in memory of people who has died of aids. It was quite solemn.

W/we continued through the festival and then left looking for a place to eat. W/we tried Chili's but after being seated didn't get any waitress or waiter and left. W/we went to Boston Market and got the same kind of attention so W/we left. W/we went to the grocery store and picked up raviolli and toretellini, marinara sauce and bread. It was fun walking around in my new strappy shoes. The heels are 4" and walking around the store was awesome. They do hurt a bit right now.

W/we left the store and Domina shot a little video of me walking through the parking lot. W/we got home and found that the ac quit working again. Domina was mad and told me to call the guy. i checked the outside ac and saw that it was frozen over. i called the guy and he thught it was over charged. He is coming out today to fix it.

Domina cooked the food. Domina told me to strip down to my panties and bra and W/we had a nice time watching Dr Who and having dinner :)

sissy girl