Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Bye bye 2008. Welcome 2009! Happy New Year!!

This morning i got up to use the bathroom after Domina left for work at 4am. i had heard Shanaya Her cat yowling a bit and i thought it strange because she usually doesn't do that when she wants water. i turned on the faucet and she jumped up to the faucet, took a lick and then jumped down and started jumping around. The i saw Her pawing at something and then flicked something in the air.. A mouse! Wow! Domina's 15 year old cat a mouser! i called Her later and it really surprised Her too! teehee!

Later in the morning Domina called me and told me to go over to Home Depot because they were having a 75% off Christmas sale. i went over there and She had already gathered a bunch of town miniatures, large ornaments, a couple large figurines, lights, etc.! i loaded them in the car and went home.

i've been working on a new Ds Discussion site. This one is using the Dolphin social CMS and its wonderful! i am working on tweaking it now. For now the older board is at
http://bimpie.no-ip.com/~discuss

Today is leopet's birthday and Domina got him a couple shirts. my birthday is January 3rd and Domina took both of us out to a casino where W/we had a wonderful buffet dinner and gambled away $20. Lately Domina has had me brush my hair back over my ears. The other day i colored my hair "Temptress Gold" and according to Her it looks really good on me. i have been wearing the butterfly dangly ear rings Domina gave me for Christmas. (Her symbol for me is the butterfly). i wore my "big girl black bra" with breast forms, my pink cami, leopard panties, girl's jeans without pockets, a red hoody and my brown loafers with heels. i carried my carrier bag purse and W/we enjoyed O/ourselves at the casino.

W/we got back home and Domina told me to bring Her a small glass of Irish Creme and then rub Her feet and calves while W/we watched a few episodes of the Twilight Zone marathon.

Tomorrow Domina wants to sleep in and Her sub boyfriend bear is coming over to spend the day with U/us. Domina and i plan to go to the movies together. The boys don't want to. i guess they are going to watch games :)

Wow! What a year its been! Lots of ups and lots of downs. Still looking for that job! So many interviews. That is certainly a New Years resolution... to get hired :)

Another is to continue on this path as a sissy slave cuckold. i think it is always a work in progress. To develop the mindset, the mannerisms, of as many things feminine that i can. To better serve my Mistress Wife in order to make Her life easier and happier. To be a better girl for Her.

i thank all of Y/you who read my blog for Y/your support!

i wish all of Y/you a very happy new year! May all Y/your dreams come true!

curtsy

sissy slave jamie


Sunday, December 28, 2008

Today Dec 27 2008

Today was really nice. Last night a storm came through and threw things around out in the yard. W/we found the swing flung out by the garden. That was about the worst of it.

i had a lot of trouble sleeping and took a couple Benadryll to help me sleep. i woke up to the sound of bear in sounds of ecstacy downstairs as Domina was giving him a hand job. i came downstairs and had the first of several cups of coffee. Domina said that earlier leopet was all touchy feely and She ended up fucking him with Her strap on. his fav way of getting off.

Domina said W/we were going out and about so i took my shower and got pretty. Tomorrow i shave my legs. i put on my big girl bra of course since im all girl during the holidays. i put on a pink cami and a pink sweater/shirt and my jeans and my girls running shoes. i put on my crystal ear rings and some rouge colored lipstick. Then W/we went out.

Domina wanted to get a new silver chain for bear's collar but W/we didn't have any success there. W/we stopped at Target and Joanns and picked up a few things. Finally W/we stopped at a grocery store for some beer and dinner. At each location Domina and bear walked along hand in hand or arm in arm as i pushed Domina's shopping card like a good girl. Then W/we came home.

Domina made pasta and through the evening Domina and bear was laying on the futon in front of the tv. She had him on collar and leash. W/we had dinner and watched a few shows. For awhile Domina played with my clit and bear's cock. It felt so nice. i put on my pink polka dot cami and short denim shorts. i felt all girly.

Later, Domina and bear was really tired and went to bed to Domina's bed. i had gone up earlier and made it up for whatever Domina had planned. i guess T/they went to sleep. i was on my computer for awhile.

While on my computer i sent Domina an email telling Her how i loved the way the weekend went and sent Her a couple cuckold/caption pics.

bear goes home tomorrow. i hope the day goes good :)

sissygirl

Friday, December 26, 2008

Friday 26 Dec 2008

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Monday, December 22, 2008

C-c-c-old! 22 Dec 2008



Four degrees Fahrenheit! sooo cold outside! Well, it is December teehee!

W/we finally got all the Christmas lights up on the house. leopet worked on that last weekend and asked me to hook up the music thing that controls the lights outside. So nice :)

Saturday, Domina's ex came for Her boy to take up to Chicago to spend the holidays with him this time. She said this is Her first kidless Christmas for 31 years. wow! W/we had gift exchange for him that morning. He was really happy!.

As soon as he left i asked Domina if She wanted me to put my "Big girl bra" on. She said, put it on! teehee. All girl holiday!

As W/we went to bed Saturday night it was so very cold in the house. Domina and i used three comforters. When W/we woke up Sunday morning i got out of bed feeling even colder. i went down to the office and put on the space heater and stayed in there for awhile. i then went down to check out the furnace and noted that it wasn't burning. It is a gas one with electronic ignition instead of a pilot light. After working with it for awhile it finally started again. W/we saw the temperature on the thermostat climb from the lowest 50 degrees to 75 yaaay!

Sunday Domina, leopet and i went out shopping for a few things at Kohls, Michaels, Target and Borders. W/we had lunch at Taco Bueno.

W/we got home and lounged around. Domina shopped on the Internet and ended up buying a set of urethral sounds, an anal plug set and a vibrator. She wants to try the sounds and soon wants to get into electrical play.

Domina got some email from bear, Her boyfriend telling Her he fell on the ice. he sent some pictures showing his face bruised, ouch!

Later Sunday Domina and i got dressed up - Her in a dress, and me in a suit. W/we were going to Her company Christmas party. The other day She told me about the party and i asked Her who was going with Her. She said bear, leopet or i could go then last week She told me i was going. When i asked, 'i am?" She said that being married to Her i should have some privilege. She told me that i was going to have to be a boy there although a lot of people She works with knows about O/our lifestyle but a lot doesn't. She didn't want me to put my hair back in a pony tail but just to brush it behind my ears.

W/we arrived at the community center and went in. Domina and i greeted the few people W/we knew and exchanged those knowingly looks :) W/we sat down and had a good time having dinner and got a few gifts and then left at the end.

On the way back Domina said that i made a pretty boy there and She was proud having me there with Her. She told me that She sees me as Her wife, bear as Her husband and leopet well, as Her dog.

When W/we got home W/we took some pictures and noted how much nicer it was being home with the heat working. Domina told me to get girly so i put on my big girl bra and lipstick. When i put Domina to bed She said that was better, She preferred me with my tits and lipstick :)

i went downstairs and watched an episode of Dexter and then went to bed.

What a nice weekend!

sissygirl

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Lately i have had this broncial/sinus/cold thing that hasn't been all too comfortable. Domina has been so good about it. She was going to have me see the doctor Monday but i think its finally subsiding.

i've been interviewing a bit. One recruiter wanted me to come down and meet her so i put on a suit, tied my hang back in a pony tail and used mousse on the rest of it. i got a little lost looking for the place but finally found it. i went in and met her. She took me into a conference room and wanted to know all about what i've done and what i was looking for. i started to tell her then a young guy asked her for a moment. She got up immediately and they went outside for about 5 minutes. Then she came back in and said, "In conclusion..". i was pretty much startled but kept my composure. i told her a few more things then it was done. i don't know what that was all about but Domina and i don't think its going to amount to anything.

Fortuantely another recruiter has some possibilities.

Friday, Domina went to meet Her sub boyfriend bear at a hotel out in central Missouri. T/they had fun at a casino and more fun back at the hotel where T/they played a bit. Domina had me get rope and She took a paddle and lube. This is the first time She stayed over with a real man since W/we were married. She was telling me,"Yes spending the night with Her boyfriend while Her sissy girl stays home to take care of Her house." Teehee.

Domina got back yesterday morning and She and leopet left to go Christmas shopping for several hours. Domina was going to take me after but She was tired and wanted me to rest too.

Today Domina is going over to footslave's house and going to make his fantasy of a Mistress sitting at his computer looking at his porn while he is under the desk worshipping Her feet. She is going to love that!

Later today Domina and i are going Christmas shopping.

So wonderful being able to be all girl this weekend! i am wearing my "big girl's bra" more and more now. When the boy is home i have been wearing loose fitting pajama tops.

sissy girl

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Sunday, December 7 2008

Yesterday Domina took Her boy to his grandma's and then She came home. bear arrived and gave Domina a Christmas ornament thats over 100 years old. wow! Domina had planned on going Christmas shopping with him so T/they left to go out and about. Domina had told us to make a list of five things we want for Christmas so i spent time on websites researching different things. i am wanting more tech oriented things for the computer this year. Domina already said She was getting me some girly things :)

Finally after awhile i went and took my shower and put on my face powder, eyeliner, mascara, my "big girls bra" (Domina expects me to wear that out when i go out and about), my pink and black striped girls' shirt and girls jeans.

i went to Best Buy and browsed the store. Next i had lunch at McDonalds and then i went to Target where i picked up a new Covergirl's eyeliner. mine had run out. Then i came home.

Soon Domina and bear arrived. T/they had picked up some gifts as well as dinner for the evening, steaks and corn on the cob.

i put on my black dress which now Domina corrected me by telling me its a blouse, (blush). i thought it was short for a dress :) It felt so good wearing it and i felt more feminine. W/we went down to the futon and watched some tv. After awhile Domina told us to put the steaks on so bear and i went upstairs and started those thick steaks. i put on some heels. Its been awhile since i wore them.

we finished cooking the steaks, corn and baked beans and served them to Domina. W/we watched some more tv and then put on the dark thriller "Se7en". While watching it bear was stroking Domina's hair. She was playing with my clit for awhile. It felt so nice! bear was sucking on Her breast and playing with Her pussy. i wasn't sure if She wanted me to play with Her other breast and i asked Her while bear was using the bathroom. She told me i wasn't allowed to play with Her. i was not allowed to interupt at all. i said yes Domina.

Domina started playing with bear's cock and he continued playing with Her. After awhile She told him to lean over and suck my clit. mmmm so nice. She commented how Her playing with bear made my clit hard. She continued playing with my clit. T/they kissed deeply for awhile. Soon She got on him and road his man cock for awhile while gazing at me.

At one point Domina told me to go suck his cock so i went over to his side of the futon and started sucking him. Domina asked, "Do you like sucking My boyfriend's cock?" i said "yes Domina!" She said, "Good girl". Soon Domina told us to go 69. i had never done that before and we got in position and he sucked my clit while i sucked his cock. That was really wild! Domina said "Enough" and i lay down on the futon next to Her. She told me to get lube and rope so i went up to the play room and got the items and returned. She tied my wrists together and told me i couldn't touch myself or anyone else. She continued playing and fucking with bear. One time She got on my clit a few times. Soooo nice! Then She got off and told bear to suck me off. he came over and started sucking me hard.. Sooo nice! Then Domina said i had permission to cum! i bit into a pillow and screamed so hard! It was sooo intense!

Domina told me to get a vibrator next to Her bed so i retrieved it and She played with Herself as bear did as well. She got off too!.

Soon the movie was over and Domina and bear went to bed. She told me all three of U/us were sleeping together. i cleaned up the kitchen, got on the computer for awhile and then went to bed.

What a nice day!

sissy girl

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Updates, bear returns Dec 3 2008



Lately W/we have been doing the Christmas decorating. Today i finished hanging garland in front on O/our railing and inside railings. i strung lights to compliment them. Domina had leopet build a three tier platform for Her miniature town and She set it up and today i put lights on it. i still need to get some more.

At 1:00pm today bear arrived. he has been out of the country for the last two weeks on his adventures in New Zealand. Domina has really missed him. he arrived with a few presents for Her and Domina soon had him join Her in Her bedroom upstairs while leopet was having lunch and i was fixing mine. bear went up and i heard the door close. Soon he came out of Her bedroom naked and Domina called me up. i went up and She told me to tie Her corset. It had been laced but not tied. Unfortantely i just couldn't get it tied. Domina told me to research that on the net. i then asked Her if i should go out and get more lights and q-tips?. She said yes. Next i said "i'm going to wear my big girl bra out. Is that ok Domina?" She asked, "Are you telling me or asking me?". i said asking. She made it clear that i must ask correctly. i then asked Her which bra i should wear by default?. She said my "big girl bra" unless told otherwise.

i left to come downstairs and i could hear Her go into the playroom where bear is. T/they have been playing for awhile. i am getting ready to go shopping :)

my my here we go!

sissy girl

Domina's submissive boyfriend returned from his adventures in New Zealand yesterday.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

The last day of November, 2008


It was a very nice weekend!

Friday morning at about 5am leopet woke me up to tell me that Domina wanted me to go to Home Depot and pick up an artificial Christmas tree that was on the Black Friday sale. i called Her and She said that Home Depot didn't open til 6:00. At 6:20 She text'd me and told me to get over there because there will be a line. i headed over there and stood in line till 6. i got in there and got the tree. By the time i checked out a couple minutes later all of them had been sold. Whew!

i went back to bed and then got up around 9am and went down to Overland Park and picked up some things at Microcenter, 1/2 price book store and Super Walmart.

W/we all of U/s except leopet watched Wall-e and enjoyed it. leopet didn't want to watch it because he thought it was too politically correct.

Saturday Domina, Her boy, and leopet went out shopping and left me at home for a break. i got itching to go out so later showered, shaved my legs and all, put on my "big girl bra", panties, Female shirt, girls jeans and girls running shoes and went out and about looking for gifts. i found the camera i was looking for Domina's boy and i went to Sally's Beauty Supply to get hair color for Domina and i. The checkout girl asked if i had a Sally's Beauty card and i said yes and i gave it to her and left.

Saturday night W/we watched Tom Hanks in Bachelor Party. teehee!

Sunday It snowed today! Today W/we did some Christmas decorating and Domina wanted me to take boychild and get out of the house at 4:00pm because Her footslave was coming over for play. We left and went to Border's books where we got some gifts as well as hot chocolate and coffee. W/we then went to Super Walmart for some shopping and groceries. Then we went to Sally's again to get some more hair solution for Domina. She called me and told me the coast was clear and to come home. i also picked up some nail polish for Domina and myself. We got home and i grilled some hamburgers and W/we watched Dexter. i painted Domina's toes a very dark red and painted all my nails and pretty color called "Jetstream" which is a kind of pink/purple sparkle. i think a pretty color. i put Domina to bed then cleaned up the kitchen. She has a list of things for me to do including hanging more decorations and shampooing the carpet.

Domina's sub boyfriend bear is returning tomorrow. She is really looking forward to his return!

sissy girl

Its been a very nice weekend!

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Tuesday November 25th 2008



Its been awhile since i've blogged anything. Since all the drama a couple weeks ago things have been going pretty good. i saw a psychiatrist who was referred to by my therapist for medication management. my appointment was for 9:45am the other morning. i had mapped out the way with google maps but about 15 minutes before i needed to be there Domina called and told me to bring Her extra cell phone battery. i grabbed it and dashed over to Her workplace. i had tried to call Her on the way over there but couldn't get an answer. i ran through this big store and finally found Her. Then i got in the car and ended up getting lost in a neighborhood and finally found the place. i had passed it when i first entered the neighborhood!

i waited awhile to see the doctor and finally a petite Pakistani woman greeted me and led me into her office. She asked me to tell Her the situation. i explained that i am in a non-traditional marriage. That my Wife is head of household - the Mistress. i am Her sissy slave, etc. i had been told by my therapist that she is open to alternative lifestyles.

i further explained that i was seeing the therapist and her because of anger and depression problems. That sometimes out of the blue Domina and i would be talking about something and it would erupt in an argument. That i find it hard to let it go. That certain things like tools and such are hard to find because family members don't return them to places where they are stored seem to trigger bad feelings in me that seem to have something to do with the arguments. i told her that the last thing i want to do as a sissy girl is to argue with my Mistress.

She prescribed Wellbutrin for my depression feeling that the depression may be the underlying cause for it all. She said it would kick in in about 2 weeks.

i thanked her and left and picked up the medication.

Right after the argument W/we had before i had done what i had done before. i removed all my nail polish, jewelry and bra and put on men's clothes. i also went online and deleted my Ds Discussion site as well as several other sites i had on my server. i also deleted my flickr account and other online accounts. i told Domina of this and She told me i always have done that before and not to do it again. She told me to put on my nail polish as pink as possible as well as my jewlery (slave anklet, another anklet, fairy ring). She told me i will wear a bra at all times. my training bra when boychild is at home, at my parents, and when i get a job and my "big girl bra" at all other times.

She told me to put up my Ds Discussion site again, http://bimpie.no-ip.com/~discuss
i did that. Its pretty new but it does have a forum area for discussing the various lifestyles, a gallery, file exchange, chat board, and of course articles and stories.

Domina told me that i do not have permission to delete anything like that again without Her permission.

bear, Domina's submissive and lover had taken an adventure out of country to New Zealand. he has been gone for the last couple weeks and She has really missed him.

Domina told me today that She is dropping one of Her subs that comes over occasionally. Its just taking too much of Her time.

Last week Domina acquired a foot slave that has a hug foot fetish. he is into humiliation but is not ready to have others around. So Domina told me to run some errand while he was gone. i did and arrived home as he was passing me on the street. Domina came downstairs all happy and feeling good. She really enjoyed it!

Another matter that caused tension was the other night Domina received an email from bear who was having some insecurities after hearing that She had been playing with other subs. Hearing that i told Domina that he should be told that when You receive emails from him Your face lights up and he makes You happy. She couldn't understand why the submissives can be insecure. i said that i can see why She couldn't because the Mistress is wanted by everyone but the submissives yearn to be with Her. This got a bit tense and i ended up emailing Her that i thought that W/we should be able to discuss lifestyle issues without tension. W/we did talk awhile after that.

Things are going pretty well now. i am feeling better and better :)

sissy girl

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Relief

This morning Domina came home from work for Her lunch break and told me that W/we were going to talk at 1:30pm when She gets off work. All morning i thought about it of course and took Titus O/our Westie out to the Parkville river park for a looong walk (4 miles). i really did pray that there would be a positive outcome to all of this drama really.

Domina came home and W/we talked about it all. The conflict is that when i bring up a problem She believes i want the answer immediately. Domina prefers taking a problem and thinking it through before giving Her answer on many things. Also the level of importance of a given problem may be a different level in Her eyes than mine.

i agreed that i will work on being more sensitive to Her needs/feelings in these matters.

W/we talked about the lifestyle too. i feel positive that things are improving.

sissy girl

Drama continues

i slept horribly last night. When Domina and Her son came home from wherever they went straight to their bedrooms. leopet the same. At some point during the night i remembered that the alarm clock on my side of the bed was probably not turned to alarm so i swiftly went into the bedroom while Domina was there reading and set it.

i went to sleep but woke up at about 2am. Then about 5 and so on.

i finally got up at about 7 and got online and did my unemployment. i then went and took a shower. i took off all my jewelry except my necklace. i just don't feel so girly now.

Domina came in at about 8:08am and saw Her son off to school then went up stairs for Her lunch break. She came back down at about 8:44 and said that we are going to talk at about 1:30pm today. i asked Her what we were going to talk about. She said that She thinks that my rages may not be the real problem but a symptom. She said she thinks the real problem may be our fundamental differences in how we communicate. That i continue to push for answers instead of letting it go. She needs to think about things when presented a problem whereas when I talk i need an immediate answer.

Another thing is that i may regard an issue as more important than She does.

That choosing the time when she is tired and getting ready to take a nap is the wrong time. But i said that she has said the same thing no matter what time of day or day of the week i've approached Her.

She stated that the part time subs come here and reverance Her. But knowing that living with people is different i still shouldnt be arguing all the time. i shouldnt call myself a slave nor submissive.

Domina said things are too tense here.

Then She left for work.

pretty down here

sissy girl

Monday, November 17, 2008

Here i am 9:08pm Nov 17 2008

i took a concern i felt strongly about to my Mistress/Wife. Its not the first time i have done this. i did not intend for it to be a lengthy discussion or an argument. i felt that She did not see the importance of it as i did being a safety issue.

She did finally state that She was going to have leopet correct the problem. At that point i tried to understand how i could better bring future matters to Her without them becoming arguments. i felt that that would avoid future heartbreaks, arguments, whatever. That in itself became worse and worse. How can i let it go! i hate arguments. All i want is a harmonious and safe home where i can serve as a sissy girl to my Mistress!

i was waiting for leopet to come home to help me carry this heavy work bench he made yesterday and i finished and painted today into my office. he just didn't come home. Domina said that the fight made him not want to come home. i went out myself and "man handled" the workbench into the office. i went upstairs and Domina was telling me how i was affecting everything! i went downstairs and tried to call my therapist for help. While i was leaving a message with her answering service Domina came down and took Her son and left.

i then called Domina's submissive girlfriend who has been such help to U/us.

It is really so hard. i really saw Domina as the authority figure in the house but She just isn't into dealing with problems like that. i guess it doesn't work that way here. i thought the way to take care of problems that involved others were to take them to the person in question or to the authority figure but i was wrong. i probably should have either not tried to handle the saw myself or search for the guides.

Domina and Her son finally did come home probably from having dinner somewhere and with paranoia thinking She may have told him future plans.

leopet came home too without saying anything.

Domina's sub girlfriend repeated a few times that i should think about what i need out of a relationship.

Scary stuff for me.

sissy girl


Difficult questions Nov 17 2008

For the last couple weeks i have been working on Domina's laptop. First, i found that the battery was at the end of its life and would not charge anymore. i also found that the power adapter was not making a good connection in the computer and discovered that the jack was bad.

i was working on Her computer on the floor of my office because i really didn't have a better place to work on it. W/we have been planning to make/get a workbench for the office sometime. A couple days ago i asked leopet if he could build one similar to Domina's. Yesterday W/we all went to Home Depot to get the material for it. Last night leopet built it.

Today i finished the workbench by cutting the 2x4s and peg board for it. i felt nervous using the table saw because some of the safety features namely guides and such were missing.

Domina called from work and said She was coming down with a cold or something. i do know how that feels! i got Her some Vicks Nyquil in softgels because She doesn't like liquid and had them on Her night stand.

Domina came home from work and said i did a good job on the backing for the bench and noted the colors etc.

i followed Her up to Her bedroom to make sure She had the medication etc. Then...

i told Her i was nervous using the table saw with the safety attachments missing. i guess i intended to tell Her and thought She would tell leopet to gather them together but it became another argument.

Domina feels that She point out/correct, etc an adult when they create or might commit an unsafe act. i have been trained and brought up to believe you do what you can to prevent an unsafe act. In my view, taking safety features like guides and things and not replacing them is creating potentially unsafe conditions for other people using the saw.

This kind of situation is similar in past episodes where i have tried to remedy problems and have a hard time letting them go. Other situations have involved leaving tools and other expensive items out in the yard instead of storing them thus letting them rust and be ruined. Another is not putting things back where they are stored. i feel that whoever took the items and left them out were plainly careless and thought Domina would be the one to communicate my concerns.

Her view is that i (sissy girl) is no better than anyone else.

i find it quite frustrating not being able to find things i need to use to get the job at hand done.

i think i am being concerned and bringing things up to improve things but as it is they have been the stuff of arguments. Its hard to let go when i am trying to make a point.

i am going to therapy and this week to a psychiatrist for medication management because i have had "rages" in the past. Today i wouldn't call it a rage but i need to understand better what is going on here and what to do.

Remember that this is a D/s Femdom Poly family. i'm not sure if it matters. i think a lot of the situation can be related to most any type of family unit or organization.

Thank you

sissy girl

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Today Nov 13 2008

Today went a lot better than yesterday. Domina and i talked about yesterday's drama. Some things are really clear. Pandora's box is open and it ain't closing. i asked what isn't. Domina said everything. me being a girl. cuckolding. Domina playing with others and all. It is one of those things that you fantasize about it. You might experience it and then at some point you think, "really".

i shaved my legs and everything else this morning after i vacuumed Domina's house. She texted me to have the playroom cleaned up since Her boyfriend was coming over for play. Today is his 2 month anniversary with U/us. he is leaving for an adventure out of the country tomorrow i think. When i was getting dressed he was laying on Domina's bed next to Her. She told him that i have to wear training bra's (sports bras) except when boy-child was around.

i kissed Her and went on errands. i stopped at the bank for a deposit and then to the hardware store to get a key made for bear. Then i had to drop off a package at the UPS store. Finally i stopped at Hyvee where i paid a utility bill and picked up fix-ins for tonights chicken noodle soup. Domina told me that leopet wasn't feeling to well and home made chicken noodle soup usually helps.

i got home and saw that bear's truck was still parked by O/our house. i went upstairs to the playroom where i heard Domina talking about me and last night. Its really a strange experience hearing ones Mistress Wife talking about things like that but actually i still feel a bit numb to it all.

i put the groceries away and then i thought i would look for Domina's case for Her new Instinct phone since She lost it the other day. i wound up my battery-less flashlight for a few minutes and then went out to the garage to Her car. As soon as i opened the door there it was! Right there on the console. i put it in my pocket and went back inside.

i started making the soup when Domina came down in Her new silky red PJ's. i told Her i got Her something and asked Her to close Her eyes and put out Her hands. i put the phone case in Her hands and She lept with joy. W/we have been looking for it every where!

i asked Her if She marked bear with the henna She had me buy yesterday. She had told me that She was going to mark him so he would always remember Her for the two weeks he will be gone. She told me it was actually for me. wow! She plans on doing some art or words or something on me. She reminded me that yesterday didn't go so good.

W/we went down to the living room and watched some tv. W/we had dinner and then Domina turned it early. She was so tired.

It was a much better day today. i made an appointment to see a psychiatrist in a week for medication management as my therapist recommended. i think things will really come around.

sissy girl

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Real life Nov 12 2008

What a tough day. Its really hard to admit it but Domina and i fight from time to time. W/we both love the lifestyle so much. She, my Mistress and i Her sissygirl but things happen.

Domina works terrible hours for Her. She is up at 3:30am to be at work by 4. She comes home at 1pm and usually goes right to bed to sleep to 5 or 6pm. Then She wakes up and enjoys dinner and a few tv shows then She is back to bed at 8 or 9pm for Her "Me" time.

Today while Domina was at work i hung some shelves and was getting a shopping list together for after She came home. Domina came home tired. As usual i greeted Her at the door and followed Her to Her bedroom to make sure She had everything She needed and to ask Her a question before i left. She kissed me and abruptly shooe'd me out of the room telling me She was very tired and just wanted Me time before i could ask the question and i felt bit bad about it. i got to the bottom of the stairs and heard Her talking to someone. i went back upstairs and saw She was all smiles and talking on the phone to Her boyfriend. i left and thought about it while i zipped from place to place picking things up for Her.

Later i thought i would approach Her with my feelings but somehow She turned it around to how She felt and all. i really got frustrated about it all. i just wanted to let Her know that i felt i should be able to express my feelings when i'm hurt. i ended up leaving the house for a long drive to cool down.

i drove all around the city and stopped at McDonalds knowing that my family was having pizza at home. i thought Domina would appreciate that i got out to cool down. i got home after 9pm and found Her still awake. W/we talked about the earlier fight and i tried as humbly as i could to tell Her how i felt but She took it as i was finding Her such a terrible person.

Tension has been up there because i have been unemployed for some time now and although i have been to many interviews nothing has surfaced.

Right now i don't feel too submissive and certainly not too girlie. i told Domina that i might cut my hair and get the first job i can get so i could stop the tension. She told me that i will always be what i am.

Domina told me that i should chat with Mistress's and other sissies online about it all but really i don't chat with people like that. i have always wanted to hold Domina up on a pedestal because She is my Mistress and my Goddess. Things are usually very good but in times like this its pretty tough for me.

i agreed a few weeks ago to see a therapist because Domina felt that i get angry and upset about relatively little matters. She calls them rages. i have seen the therapist a couple times and mostly we are getting acquainted. i have been totally up front with her about O/our lifestyle and all.

Why am i blogging this all. Maybe to let you know that the lifestyle W/we are living is real. Things aren't always so beautiful and girlie. W/we all like jamie more than james but its difficult to not be able to be open and expressive with one's Mistress/Wife without an argument ensuing.

i would appreciate some guidance.

sissy girl


Tuesday, November 11, 2008

sissy girl's updates Nov 11th 2008


Last Saturday Domina and i went out and about shopping. W/we went to Joanns, Hobby Lobby and Walmart. W/we got home and Her sub boyfriend soon came. he brought some beer and steaks. Domina and he were laying on the futon in front of the TV for awhile watching shows. Domina then told us to put on the steaks so we did. During dinner i sat next to Domina eating my steak while W/we watched the new DVD W/we got, "Get Smart". i thought it was pretty good. bear, Her boyfriend has had insomina lately and looking over at him i saw he was dozing on the couch. Domina was dozing too sitting next to me. Soon he came over and told me he was going down to the basement bedroom to go to bed. After awhile Domina woke up and asked where he was. i told Her. She went down to him and was there for awhile. i went down there to see if W/we were all going to play because She had planned on that. i saw T/they were playing there in the dark on the bed. Domina told me to go put on something pretty and that T/they were going to come up to play when the movie was over.

The movie ended and Domina and Her boyfriend came up. i looked over and saw he was naked laying on the futon. Domina told me to put on a Femdom DVD. W/we were watching it and soon She was playing with him stroking his man cock. i came over and She got on top riding him. That is always so hot watching my Mistress Wife and real men playing. Soon She told him that he was going to suck my clit. She told me to sit on his chest and he took it and started sucking. i couldn't see Her but knew She was having fun with his cock. Suddenly i felt my clit getting ready to cum but i pulled out and grabbed it almost crying. i soon realized i had a bit of a ruined orgasm. Very soon after Her boyfriend came in Her. She then laid down and told me to get a washcloth. i did and She cleaned Herself off as well as Her boyfriend.

Domina then told me i had the choice of sleeping at the foot of Her bed or down there on the futon. i chose the futon because i usually take naps there. Domina and he then went up to Her bedroom for the night. i got on my computer for awhile and then went to bed on the futon. i was so tired at that time that i went right to sleep but woke up at about 3:30am with crazy thoughts going through my mind. Thoughts about what is exclusive in O/our relationship now that Domina is sleeping with someone else. Thoughts about Her wanting to take trips with him on some of his adventures, etc. i certainly had some of those pangs of angst that cuckolded husbands do have.

i went back to sleep and woke up at about 9am and went upstairs. Her boyfriend had left and went to McDonalds for coffee and had returned. i went up to Domina's bedroom and found Her awake. She asked me how i slept and i told Her while i was using the bathroom. i soon came to Her bed and W/we talked about it all while She was playing with my clit. She told me that She sees me as an important part of Her family but cannot call me a husband because i am not a man. Husbands are men. She sees me more like a girlfriend or wife. She told me that She has come to enjoy cuckolding. She also said that She feels its right for Her to share adventures with Her boyfriend. Why not take opportunities like that? She does see O/our day to day relationship as exclusive to U/us. i left Her bed feeling a good peace.

The rest of the day i felt so tired. It was great sleeping in Domina's bed again that evening.

Today i met Domina at a local Starbucks where She was meeting a friend of a friend who wanted to learn about how to talk dirty in sex. i was introduced as jamie, Domina's husband. A transexual. T/they talked awhile and soon Domina told me She wanted to talk to her privately so i was dismissed. i then went to the local Salvation Army store and did some clothes shopping. Soon Domina joined me and W/we picked out alot of pretty clothes together. Afterwards i went to the grocery store and picked up tonights dinner.

sissy girl

Friday, November 7, 2008

Friday's here! Nov 7 2008

It has been a nice week. Domina's boyfriend bear came over Wednesday and T/they played. he is going on one of his adventures out of the country and i know Domina is going to miss him. Actually W/we all will. he is really a great guy. Before Domina said She didn't really like calling him Her boyfriend because he is a sub and She sees all of us as equals but in our own capacities to Her. The relationship though looks and seems more like a Mistress and sub boyfriend and She knows that it is more titillating to me, Her sissy cuckold slave so She will allow it.

i asked Domina how She sees me the other evening. She said, "I don't see you as My husband because that would mean that you are a male, which you aren't. But more as a close girlfriend or wife". i don't know why but reminding myself of what i am and hearing it from my Owner is quite a turn on to me.

On Wednesday also, Domina's friend came over and we did another photoshoot. Everything i wore was different than before. It went much like before where he sucked my clitty from time to time. he really wanted me to cum in his mouth but Domina and i talked about it before hand and it just wasn't right for Her sissy cuckold girl to do that especially without Her there.

Last night Domina's laptop's battery quit charging and it put U/us in a bit of a frenzy. i found that the battery was at the end of its life so i ordered another one hopefully to arrive in a couple days. The jack is a little quirky too so i might have to tear it apart.

Today i am taking Her boy to karate where he will be getting with his sister to take for the weekend. So this is an all girl weekend for me. Domina's boyfriend will be over tomorrow and of course leopet will be here for play. It will be exciting seeing Her together again with bear.

Today also little j will be over to play with Domina. i think its pretty wild having a Mistress Wife who enjoys playing with these real men.

sissy girl

Monday, November 3, 2008

Beautiful weekend! Nov 3 2008

Saturday morning bear arrived at about 9:15am and Domina and he left in his SUV to travel to a park about two hours from here. This is the first time Domina has gone with a man like that. Of course this further demonstrated the fact that i am Her sissy slave cuckold girl but mostly it was a chance to give Domina a rest from the everyday routines W/we live. After T/they left i was on my computer for awhile and then went out to the yard and did some yard work with the boy. leopet had to work for awhile that morning.

After the yard work i went up and took my shower and shaved my legs, clitty, sissy balls, pits, ass, and face, put on my eyeliner and mascara, face powder, lipstick (pink) and put on my feminine low belly jeans, plum ladies blouse and a denim shirt. i also wore my Lady's tennis shoes. By then leopet had come home. we all left and went down to Overland Park and went to the Microcenter there where i purchased some more ram for my computer (with Domina's approval), a larger SD card for the camera, a game for the boy and some other things.

we had lunch at Sonic and then went to Target where i bought some Lady razors, shampoo and conditioner.

we continued to the grocery store where i bought some steaks and other things.

we came home. i was on my computer for awhile when i got a call from Domina telling me that T/they were on the way home. She later called and said that T/they stopped at an adult novelty store where bear bought a remote control vibrating egg. he thought it was for her but instead Domina had him put it in his ass and She controlled it all the way home. She told me to have dinner ready by the time T/they got home and to have the playroom open because T/they were going to go straight up there.

i made all the preparations. Domina and bear arrived home and went straight up to the playroom where T/they played for awhile. i had dinner ready. When T/they came out bear was really exhausted and said his goodbyes. Domina said he was so over stimulated he just couldn't cum.

W/e had dinner and watched a few clips of Saturday night live on Domina's computer. W/we aren't going to have the tv working til hopefully today when the replacement lamp arrives. W/we enjoyed the clips but Domina was so tired. She and leopet went to his room to sleep. i cleaned up the kitchen. After awhile Domina went to Her own bed since Her legs were over active from all the exercise. She then went to sleep.

Sunday
i woke up and heard Domina and leopet downstairs. T/they then came upstairs and went to his room. Later Domina came out while i was down in the office and said T/they were fooling around with the egg, making out and She said She rode leopet like a pony for awhile.

W/we got cleaned up and went out shopping all over the place. W/we went to Toys r Us where leopet surprised Domina by buying the Wii Fit for O/our Wii for Christmas. W/we went to Target where i got hair color and a new hair dryer since mine was broke. W/we went to Walmart to look for glasses. i have an appointment Tuesday for glasses. i am planning on getting Lady's George brand glasses with half rims that features magnetic sunglass attachments.

W/we also had dinner at an all you can eat restaurant. W/we went to Sally's Beauty supply where Domina got some red hair color. W/we also got an account card there and now i have it on my key-chain, yaaaaay!.

Finally W/we all came home. Domina and leopet crashed for awhile. Later i gave Domina a foot massage and painted Her toes while W/we watched "Desperate Housewives". When i finished i joined Domina on Her bed while W/we watched "Brothers and Sisters". She was so tired She said She had to go to sleep.

i went downstairs to the office and did my thing for awhile then went to bed.

What a nice weekend!

sissy girl


Friday, October 31, 2008

Halloween 2008

It was a beautiful day today. Domina worked early as usual. i went to the doctor for an appointment. Afterwards W/we came home. She went to take Her nap. i helped the boy with his grim reaper costume. i put on my shiny French Maid costume :) teeheee!




It was a great chance to wear my costume. W/we didn't go to any parties but did hand out some candy. Domina had gone out to get U/us tacos. It was just a nice evening :)

Tomorrow, bear is going to come by and pick up Domina. T/they are going out to a park to go bicycle path bicycling. Domina said She needed a rest from things and She should have a great time with Her manly man sub.

It should be a nice weekend for all of U/us :)

btw Domina played with my clitty for awhile tonight as W/we talked about cuckold relating things. Domina said that if i want to know what happened when Her and bear is together i will have to beg.

sissy girl

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Thoughts on.... Oct 29 2008

A few years ago through my online explorations i kept coming across topics such as "wife sharing", "cuckolding", "interacial sex", etc. At first they seemed so taboo and i guess they still are but for some reason especially since i've gotten married to my Mistress cuckolding seemed to be more and more titilating to me. i found myself immersing myself into reading forums, stories, gazing at captioned pictures etc and finding it all quite a hot topic. At the same time i was drawn to the same kind of online media dealing with feminization, sissification, etc. i used to think of myself as a submissive male who found it quite romantic to kneel at the feet of a Dominant Woman and serve Her. Of course i still think that but i have been drawn to be a girl. It all seems to make so much sense to be a cuckolded sissy girl.

When i started communicating my turn-ons in these things, Domina listened but told me that i was being obsessed with these things. She also said that Her definition of cuckolding was really mean and She saw Herself as more of a nurturing Mistress. When talking about sissy play She asked if i was gay and i said no. Of course i am bi and i thought sissy play might be fun. She said that if She wanted a girl She had a girl She used to have as a lover. At one point She told me how sometimes She misses having a strong man take Her and ravish Her but being a Dominant She made the bed and must lie in it meaning that She must always be the strong one.

i started having a kind a fantasy going through my head that was really obsessing me:

i had installed a wireless electronic doorbell between my office where i spent most of my time at the computer and Domina's bedroom and craftroom so She could call me into Her presence without shouting through the walls. It was a solution to many fights W/we had when She said She called me but i couldn't hear Her. The bell worked very well.

my fantasy started with me sitting at the computer and hearing the bell ring. i get up from my chair wearing a French Maid's uniform with the hat, cute white girly socks and mary janes. i quickly swish up the stairs to Domina's bedroom that morning and knock on Her door. She yells, "Come in!". i enter and find Her naked on Her side toward me with a naked masculine man behind Her fucking Her. i kneel by the side of Her bed and She tells me that Her and Her lover would like refreshments. She asked for wine. i curtsy and quickly proceed to the kitchen where i pour out wine in two glasses and then return to Her room and find Her now on top of him riding him. i kneel and place the glasses on Her night stand and start to rise to go. She then asks, "Where are you going sissy? i haven't dismissed you."

i then return to my kneeling position feeling quite small. She then looks at me sternly and asks, "How do you like seeing a real man fucking your Wife?"

i say, "i think its hot Domina"

Domina looks at me and smiles. "It feels so good. You should thank him for pleasuring Me."

i look up and say, "Thank you" to the man. He lays there while She continues.

From there all kinds of variations have gone through my head like Domina dismissing me or continuing telling me how i am not a man at all but a girl to Her telling me that the man is now my Master, etc.

One night i told Domina my fantasy. She listened carefully and then told me that it was doable but as things continued one day She told me that She just couldn't do it. She thought it was just too mean to me.

i stopped talking about sissification and cuckolding but the feelings and fantasies did continue. Finally an interesting thing happened. Domina started implimenting themes of both in O/our play. i've since found that If i have a want, a fantasy, etc and communicate it to Her. She will think about it and make it Her own. In a sense i believe this alleviates the age old problem of "topping from the bottom". This is something i've never wanted and Domina definitely hates.

Now there are so many aspects of my fantasies integrated into O/our lives. i think its all fascinating, tittilating and scary. So many times i've heard the words, "Be careful what you wish for. You might just get it". i think its all fascinating because of the way Domina does things. She makes them happen but in Her own way. Which is what i think of a successful Mistress. Its tittilating because they answer my fantasies and sometimes go beyond. Scary because i feel so out of control and find that i have to trust Domina on this journey. She is the one in control.

Some of the observations i have made are:
  1. Domina is definitely head of the house. No one would question that
  2. i am Her cuckolded sissy slave. Domina now calls me jamie and with female pronouns such as she, her, etc.
  3. Domina has set responsibilities around the house as man things done by leopet and girl things such as cooking and housework to me.
  4. Domina has added a third to Her harem in the form of a masculine and adventurous male She calls bear. She calls him Her slutboy sub but besides that he is like a boyfriend. She does not want me to call him Her boyfriend though.
  5. Domina has the freedom to do as She wishes.
  6. Domina has let me know that things cannot reverse. Once W/we have opened the marriage it cannot close nor can i not be a man again. "That ship has sailed".
Some things that has almost made me stop breathing when i've heard them has been when Domina has mentioned going out of town with bear for a weekend or to other countries in his adventures. The husband part of me kind of wakes up feeling angst that She might want to enjoy adventures without me. i tell Her that and She asks why can't She take the opportunity to have fun if She can. i then feel like i need to wrap the idea around my head. W/we are in a very non-traditional relationship. It is a kind of a one sided poly relationship.

All in all things are happy right now.

sissy girl

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Updates Sunday Oct 26 2008

Wow the year is really flying by! Here it is almost November. Its getting so much cooler. i haven't been wearing shorts and skirts so much lately but more Feminine jeans when i've gone out and about. Wearing jeans of course reduces opportunities to show off my legs but of course i still shave them every other day. i just love keeping them smooth and feminine.

Last week Domina officially collared j i will now call bear. Domina wants to call Her pets by animal names. She hasn't found one for me yet so She will call me a fairy :) She doesn't want me to call bear Her boyfriend. Domina just doesn't like that. She prefers that i call him Her manly sub, leopet Her fucktoy, and me Her girl. Domina said that She does not see me as a man but as a girl. When talking about emasculation She asked how She could take masculinity away from me if i have never been a man. i love being Her girl!

Domina said Halloween i will be wearing my french maid costume almost all day. so cool!

i am now expected to wear a bra always. At least a sports bra with a small breast form when i cannot be full fem and my full bra and forms when i can. On weekends and times without the boy around i am expected to be all girl. Yesterday Domina dressed me in more drab wear with holey jeans, my ring belt, black sweater shirt and my new brown heel shoes. i wore lipstick, eyeliner, mascara etc and W/we all went out shopping in a open mall. It was so much fun. i kept getting looks. Sometimes i felt self conscious thinking, "These people must be seeing through". Domina said that really i looked like i could be a model and i moved like one too. Ahhh Domina was so wonderful saying that!

This week Domina ordered a new belly button ring for me. Its a blue sparkly lock. i really love it. It should arrive soon. She wanted to get a pink one but it wasn't available. i thought it would show more when i wear pink outfits anyway.

Domina has been talking about getting a real girl as a sub for Her stable. It is kind of difficult finding a bi-girl. Domina would like her to be sexual with both Her and the boys. i think it would be wonderful to have a girl like a sister to also keep me in check like to let me know when i might start acting/talking like a boy so i could correct myself. W/we'll see.

More and more Domina plays with the boys and makes the distinctions between Her real men and Her girl. Their's cocks and my clit. She plays with it sometimes but leaves it alone more and more. She knows i love watching. Something about the sexual tension is soo hot to me!

Domina has been calling me jamie more and more. i love it!

sissy girl



Sunday, October 19, 2008

Sunday Oct 19 2008

Yesterday morning Domina, leopet and i got up. i took a shower and shaved my legs, pits, face, sissy cock and balls. i put on mascara and eyliner. i put on my Lady's low hip jeans, a plum blouse with a pretty flowery design and a denim over shirt. W/we went shopping. W/we went to Hobby Lobby, the Thrift Store where i got some new Lady's jeans, the grocery store and Hobby Lobby. W/we then went to Sam's Club and enjoyed samples and got a few things.

W/we got home and i scrubbed the bbq grill and replaced another burner. i took another shower and this time put on my pink polka dot top, my new black bra and my short short jean skirt plus my highest heels. i wore my face powder, mascara and eyeliner, and red lipstick. i asked what nail polish Domina wanted on me. She said the happy pink. A very vivid bright pink. skweeeee!

j arrived and i showed him the grill. he brought several steaks for U/us all. Domina put Her new collar and leash on him. he wore his usual jeans and t shirt.

At about 4pm, Domina's sister and new hubby rolled into the driveway. They got out and there were lots of hugs and kisses. Everyone was so happy!

W/we watched several episodes of Big Bang Theory on the DVR until Domina said to put the steaks on. j was a bit nervous about getting the steaks right but they came out beautifully and tender. W/we had steaks, baked potatoes and salad. For drinks there were margaritas, beer and wine. Yummy

j had been snarky during the day. Domina then took j after dinner up to the playroom for attitude adjustment. T/they played for awhile and when T/they came back down he was lots more docile.

W/we put on Ironman and was watching it while Domina was playing with j's cock. She wouldn't let him play with himself although it was hard for him to not do. She let him play with my clitty though and soon had him begging to suck me. It was sooo nice :) At one point She played with his cock until he came. She said i wouldn't be able to cum because She wanted me to remain docile, submissive and girly while Her sister was here.

While She was playing during Ironman, Her sister and hubby decided to go to the casino. So W/we were alone to play. After play Domina went to bed. j stayed downstairs to sleep and i was on my computer until around 12 midnight. Early in the morning j left and Domina and leopet fooled around.

Now W/we are having a nice breakfast leopet through together :)

sissy girl

Friday, October 17, 2008

Weekend plans Oct 17 2008

Today, Domina Her sub girlfriend i went out shopping for awhile. i was home before cleaning Her house to welcome Her sister and her new husband who is arriving this Saturday. i had planned on shaving my legs but ran out of time so i will surely do that tomorrow. Domina came home and i quickly dressed in my Female low belly jeans, a cami and an open denim shirt with fall leaf patterns on it. i came down and put on my black strappy sandals and put on my face powder and lipstick. i had put on mascara and eyeliner after the shower. Domina was well pleased with my new hair cut. It is perfect for me with a lot of texture and i had colored it yesterday with the lightest blonde beige.

W/we left and went to Joanns for some things Domina wanted and then had lunch at Boston Market. W/we then went to Hobby Lobby where i got a G cleft music charm for my new purse as well as a Tinker Bell charm for my belly button ring. Domina got a new lock with keys charm to put on my necklace/collar. It is more feminine with four jewels on it.

W/we then went to Super Walmart where W/we shopped for things for the weekend and then returned home.

i then left to go to a local store for some things and returned home. leopet's car was in the drive way. i came inside and went upstairs. Domina was showing leopet how to use the phone She used to use.

i went downstairs for awhile and got on my computer. i went back upstairs and saw Domina and leopet making out. She told me to get the lube and i did. Next some small rope. i went in the playroom and got some. Next the camera. She wanted me to take some pictures of his cock. So i did. Domina tied up his man cock and played and stroked it. i asked if She wanted me to put on my bra. She shushed me and continued playing until he came.

A little later W/we were watching tv while She put my Tinker Bell charm on my belly button ring and the new lock charm on my necklace collar. i love them! While She was putting on the Tinker Bell She told me that:

  1. i must be on my best behavior while Her sister and husband was here. There will be no james here at all.
  2. i will be all girl. i will wear skirts and all Female tops
  3. She repeated that i will be on my best behavior or the consequences will be bad.
  4. i will not be unduly prissy where i complain about ruining my nail polish, etc
i said yes Domina to all She said

i still need to replace a couple burners in the bbq grill.

Domina's new sub boyfriend j will be over tomorrow. he will be kept on collar and leash and maybe panties. Domina's sister has not yet met him. Domina plans on doing the official collaring for him in a week i think. She really has a crush for him.

Things are going very well. i just need to always know my place. No whining. No obsessions. No tantrums.

sissy girl

Thursday, October 16, 2008

sissy girl's updates Oct 16 2008

Wow! so sorry i haven't posted for awhile. i think a lot of things has been going on i've been trying to leap back in and update.

Domina now has three collared people; leopet, j and me. It seems things are really happening. For the last couple weekends j, who is in an open marriage has been coming over for the weekends and Mistress has really developed a crush for him. j is an adventurous and masculine guy and very friendly. She really relates to him and enjoys the way he talks and the way he responds to stimulation in play.

Last weekend j brought over some marinated chicken breasts to grill and salad. W/we had a lovely dinner while watching a couple episodes of Rome. Mistress was playing with his cock like She loves to while laying on the futon in front of the wide screen tv. T/they really seem like boyfriend/Girlfriend. Since he doesn't live with U/us naturally Domina spends more of Her time with him while he is here.

After the episodes of Rome was over Mistress said that T/they were going upstairs to play but changed Her mind and said that T/they were going to play downstairs and asked how i was feeling. i said that i had a bit of a headache and felt a bit run down. She told me that i could watch since i am really good at it and join in when She wanted me to. W/we went back downstairs. j was naked. Domina tied his wrists together and had me get on the couch behind him and hold the binds. he really doesn't like too much bondage but i could tell he was getting excited.

Mistress tied up his cock and started playing with it and kissed and made out with him back and forth. She started sucking his cock and then looked up at me telling me to watch and learn. It was really hot watching Her suck another's cock. Soon She got naked and got on his cock and started riding it. She pulled me down off the couch and started playing with my sissy cock. i almost came immediately. It was so exciting!

W/we all then went upstairs. j was sleeping on the floor under some comforters. i was on my computer for awhile. Before i left j was playing with Mistress with a vibrator.

Through the week there has been an almost endless exchange of emails between T/them. She is really excited about him.

i on the other hand have had some problems. i get really frustrated over things some times like being unable to find tools, kitchen utensils, etc where they are stored because we are not on the same sheet of music about organization. i have tried communicating it to Domina but i guess i come across like i think i'm better than everybody or something. Usually its pointed out how cluttered my office is and such. These exchanges got heated and i don't feel so girly and in Mistress's mind james comes out. james is not wanted here. Mistress and i both prefer jamie, Her cuckolded sissy girl, sweet and all. Tuesday night W/we had a very serious talk. It was really scary to me. Anyway, i woke up when Domina woke up the next morning at 3:30am and when She left i was like a tornado removing the clutter from the office as well as the kitchen and did other housework. i went out later shopping and bought Mistress a couple dozen roses.

Things have really improved now, i just need be stay girly, be jamie. Mistress has Her boys.

After Mistress came home She went to take Her nap. W/we talked a bit about j and things. i asked Her if She was turned on cuckolding me. She said that as a person She is still trying to believe that it isn't hurting my feelings but knows that it turns me on. As a Mistress She said that it seems to be growing.

Mistress had been working on a collar for j and other jewelry. She told me to put Her jewelry stuff away because She was done. i asked Her about something She said She was going to make for me, a surprise. She said She was going to get back to that and hinted that it was something for my sissy cock. i have a feeling it will be a chastity device. we will see.

Today j came over for some play in the play room. Mistress sent me off to get Her a new phone, get a hair cut and some burners for the grill. i bought a new Instinct for Her, got a fairly adrogynous hair style that Domina loves and the things for the grill.

Tonight W/we watched tv while i showed Her how to use the phone. my new black bra with pockets for the forms arrived. i love it! Its just like the white one but new and black. i've about worn out the white one.

Tomorrow Her boy goes to his Uncles for the weekend. Mistress's sister got married today and her and her new husband is coming Saturday for the weekend. She and her husband wants us to be as we are without non-scening people around. me all girly and dressed, j in collar and leash, etc. It should be an exciting weekend!

whew!

sissy girl


Thursday, October 2, 2008

Photoshoot

Monday a bi-male friend of Domina's came over to do the photoshoot he has been wanting to do for some time. He is really turned on my t-girls and he really liked me.

Domina came home early from work since She had a doctor's appointment early that afternoon and She went to bed. She didn't want to be disturbed and i thought about cancelling the photoshoot but She told me not to. She wanted pictures. She also told the guy that there wouldn't be anything but the photoshoot.

He came over at about 10am and i had just got out of the shower. i put on a robe and went downstairs and let him in and showed him to the living room. i went back upstairs and finished putting on my makeup and put on a pink cheerleading uniform and proceeded downstairs. we went outside to the back yard and i realized i forgot my bra with forms so i went upstairs and put it on and went back outside. He took a few shots and then i went back upstairs and changed. We were back in the living room and he took more shots. i changed again in different outfits. i put on my new fetish french maids uniform and he took more pics. i then put on my black and pink striped cami with red lacey panties and was really feeling slutty. The poses were getting more and more suggestive and while he was kneeling down said he just had to do this and took my clitty in his mouth and started sucking. It was feeling so good and i was feeling slutty and oh so girly. He looked up and said that was the first time he had done that and did some more. He asked if i would cum in his mouth and i said i couldn't do that. i went upstairs and changed again and told Domina about what had happened. She was turned on and asked if i wanted to cum and i said no. She said, "Good girl".

i went back downstairs in a lingerie outfit and there were more pics. Back and forth with different outfits and also with a long dress.

Finally i put on an outfit i wore to a bi-group meeting a few weeks ago and took shots out on the deck. He gave me his storage card and i downloaded the pics to my drive while he was kneeling by my desk sucking me some more. i never did cum. Its hard to want to because i lose a lot of my docile nature and femmed nature when i do.

He got up to go and was looking at me funny and kissed me. Then he kissed me deep. What a wild morning! Mistress was very pleased :)

sissy girl

Monday, September 29, 2008

Nice weekend :) Sept 29, 2008

It was a very nice weekend. It was kidless so it was all adult and of course Domina expected me to be all girl.

Friday and Saturday i wore camis and my jean skirt and my bra with forms. i went out shopping and it was so nice going out and about. i've been wearing face powder, eyeliner, mascara and lipstick everyday and it wasn't an exception over the weekend.

Saturday, j came over to spend the night. he brought a couple bottles of wine, a pork roast and m&ms for dessert. When i got home from shopping i showed Domina what i had bought. Mostly it was household things but i also got a cute little karate kid costume for O/our Westie and an Apertini mix in a glass mad scientist beaker for Halloween lol. During the evening Mistress and j lay on the futon in front of the tv while i lay on Her left and leopet was on the floor playing with his laptop. Mistress played with j's cock and my sissy cock while W/we all watched the movie, "Shortbus" on the tv. It brought back memories from a year ago when Mistress, leopet and i went downtown to an art theatre and saw the film. It was the first time i went out fully dressed as a girl.

j grilled the pork roast and i zapped up some rice and W/we all had a nice dinner. Later Mistress, j and i went out on the deck and chatted about the lifestyle.

leopet went to bed and Domina started playing with us. She tied me up with rope around my ankles and arms and played with my sissy cock. She then had j come over and had him suck me. She kept remarking how i am not a real man so i don't have a cock but a large clitty. he sucked me with enthusiasm. Soon She untied me and had me suck his manly cock. It was so nice having it in my mouth. She told me to suck him like the girl i am. Soon She had me get on my back and kept playing with me until i had to beg to cum. She told me i had to do it quietly since i am usually quite loud. i did as She told me to. It was quite intense!

Next She was playing with j and started kissing him and got on top of him and told him She was going to ride him like a pony. Soon he was begging and came quite violently. She was going to have me clean it up but didn't. It was sooo wild!

It was getting quite late so Mistress and j went up to bed. j lay on the floor and Mistress went to Her bed. i soon needed to get something out of the bedroom and found T/them cuddling on the floor together. She said T/they had been talking about me teeehee.

i left and played on the computer awhile and went to bed. Early in the morning j woke up to get some tea at Mickey Ds and Mistress went too. i slept and when i woke i found Mistress asleep on the futon down stairs. j was reading the paper and listening to his Ipod. he soon left to go home.

Later i went out shopping and picked the boy up. It was a really nice weekend!

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Saturday September 27 2008

Its been quite a week! i had a couple lost days due to some kind of stomach/head thing. Yesterday i went to a couple job interviews. One looks pretty likely. W/we'll see.

Yesterday Domina and leopet took Her boy to his grandma's so this is an all adult weekend and of course i'm all girl. Domina said this morning that She expects me to be all girl not that i am all the time anyway but weekends like this i am to dress, act, etc like the girl i am :)

Lately Domina has been emailing and talking with j, Her new very adventurous and manly sub. he is supposed to stay the night with U/us tonight. Domina thinks he compliments Her group quite nicely. Now it seems its leopet, j and me Her girl :) i changed out the grill thingys because they are all rusted and put some nice porcelein ones on there. j is going to grill pork loin there tonight.

Domina had been conversing with a sissygirl who wanted to meet U/us. W/we had earlier arranged to meet at Santa Caligon but she had had a wreck on the way. she then disappeared. she reappeared asking forgiveness and really wanted to meet. As it turned out she didn't materialize. Domina was quite frustrated by this and now blocks this individual. my advice is please be real!.

A little earlier Domina left with leopet to get some onion bulbs. T/they plan on working in the garden today. She told me to clean up around here. She went to take a shower and then came out and had me pull up my nightie then spanked me some for forgetting to put clean towels on Her towel rack. owie! After T/they left i vaccumed and straightened the place up. Soon im going to take a shower myself and get all girly. i'm not sure what i am going to wear yet. hmmm....

It should be an exciting weekend. Being Domina's girl and watching Her with a couple real men. It is always so exciting to me. Domina mentioned chaining someone to Her bedpost on the floor while having fun with the other in bed. i asked who. She then said maybe it will be me on the floor. teehee. W/we'll see.

sissy girl

Friday, September 26, 2008

Friday :)

For the past few days i haven't been feeling too well. W/we had chef salad the other night for dinner and that night i started feeling a stomach thing. i woke up the next day feeling bad and it carried through a couple days. Domina doesn't think it was the salad. W/we'll i'm feeling better today.

i have a couple job interviews today. One where Domina used to work. She thinks its a pretty much done deal.

Its Friday! Domina hopes to see Her two boys and girl playing this weekend with Her :) teeehee!

W/we might go to a haunted house this weekend too. booo!

teehee!

sissy girl

Friday, September 19, 2008

Sweet Friday :) Sept 19 2008

Don't you love them? Even though i have been the sissy housewife for awhile now Fridays still seem so nice :)

i got up just before Mistress came home for Her morning break from work at 8:00 am. She was in great spirits. Mistress told me to get Her some cereal and orange juice and i served them to Her on my knees. Mistress said She got some emails from some of the new subs. i asked about some of them and She told me that they were real men who can do the job of real men. Not like a sissy girl. i said "yes Domina". She left for work a bit later.

W/we have been having trouble with the computers doing remote printer that's shared on my computer. i tried all sorts of things trying to get it to work including un-installing and reinstalling the Internet security, configuring, reinstalling printer drivers etc. my computer has been so slow shutting down and booting i'm thinking of reinstalling Windows. W/we'll see.

i took a shower and exfoliated my legs and everything. i shaved my legs, sissy cock and balls, under arms and my face. i put on my eyeliner and mascara and wore a pretty new periwinkle cami with girls shorts and black strappy flats. i put on my face powder and pink lipstick. Mistress took Her nap. i left and went to Sams club to do some shopping and came home.

leopet took the boy to karate and then a new sub i will call j arrived with a bottle of wine. i showed greeted him and took him to Mistress. Mistress and he talked for awhile and then went to the playroom. A few minutes later Mistress told me to bring up Her laptop for some music and i brought it to Her. i went back to the my computer and Mistress yelled down for a glass of wine. i brought it up to Her and found the sub naked and Mistress and he kissing. i stood there feeling my sissy cock grow a bit. Mistress asked if that's how i bring it to Her. i fell to my knees and presented the wine to Her. i then stood up, curtsied and left.

Later Mistress was down on the deck working with some jewelry. She said She had some surprises for me. One was a pink tinkerbell charm She got for my ankle bracelet. swooon! Another is a pink charm for my keychain. She said She has another one that She will give me Sunday. i sooo love Her!

Awhile later leopet and the boy returned and W/we had dinner. Mistress and the sub and leopet were down on the deck talking. i joined them. Mistress was discussing his likes/dislikes sheet. After about an hour the sub left.

W/we then enjoyed the new episode of Stargate Atlantis.

Mistress then went to sleep.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Playtime :)

Yesterday was quite a day. It was quite rainy but fun. Mistress and leopet had gone shopping earlier and came back with some stuff including a new slimline cyberskin cock and a bumper sticker for me that says, "Yes, my tits are real. so is my penis" lol

Mistress told me i could wear my tits and skirt since the boy was at his sisters. i showered, exfoliated my legs and face and shaved all over. How i love being smooth and feminine! i put on my face powder, pink lipstick, eyeliner and mascara. i put on a nice burgandy blouse, denim skirt and my black strappy flats. Later when W/we went to the restraunt i wore my blue strappy heels.

Mistress told me to go out and look for Her a birthday gift as well as to return a refrigerator can holder that didn't work for U/us. i'll let my Twitter entries tell my story out:

sissyslavejamie Fun this weekend. A new boy toy spending the night with Mistress and us tehee Sat, Sep 13 09:25:07 from OutTwit

sissyslavejamie Still raining here! i think its been raining for 4 days. Tornadoes around last night!
Sat, Sep 13 09:29:55 from web

sissyslavejamie out & about in burg blouse. denim skirt blk strappy flats
Sat, Sep 13 14:40:57 from mobile web

sissyslavejamie looking for "Baby Mama" lol!
Sat, Sep 13 14:41:27 from mobile web

sissyslavejamie now look for birthday prez for Mistress
Sat, Sep 13 14:42:24 from mobile web

sissyslavejamie i'm sure Mistress & leopet back home playing teehee!
Sat, Sep 13 14:43:34 from mobile web

sissyslavejamie got ear riings at Kohls
Sat, Sep 13 15:19:29 from mobile web

sissyslavejamie at walmat. had to return somet ing
Sat, Sep 13 15:55:48 from mobile web

sissyslavejamie left walmart
Sat, Sep 13 16:17:39 from mobile web

sissyslavejamie btw when i was at Kohls i asked for help. Lady asked what kanji on my arm meant. i said slave. She said cool
Sat, Sep 13 16:19:40 from mobile web

sissyslavejamie back home
Sat, Sep 13 16:48:19 from mobile web

sissyslavejamie leaving to pick up boytoy
Sat, Sep 13 17:50:51 from mobile web

sissyslavejamie another sub is joining us tonight too
Sat, Sep 13 17:51:28 from mobile web

sissyslavejamie im gonna be tied up shibari
Sat, Sep 13 17:56:10 from mobile web

sissyslavejamie on the way to the restraunt
Sat, Sep 13 18:35:17 from mobile web

sissyslavejamie yummy chinese!
Sat, Sep 13 19:37:14 from mobile web

W/we left the restraunt quite filled and noticed a beautiful double rainbow in the eastern side of the city. W/we got in Domina's car and drove home. She told me to put on my corset so i went upstairs and changed into my corset and a pair of pink and black lacy panties and my highest black strappy heels and came downstairs.

While i was upstairs, another bi-male sub arrived and T/they were all talking: Mistress, leopet, boytoy and the new sub. i got some really nice comments about my outfit. i lay down at the end of the futon while Mistress was talking about Her rules and conditions as well as different aspects of the lifestyle. She told them how i am Her girl and leopet is Her boy and about our roles.

A little later W/we started playing. boytoy wanted to show Domina his expertise in the art of shibari so She told me to take off my heels. he then tied me up in a nice rope dress and then showed some various restraints. It was great!

In the mean time Mistress was playing with the new sub. She told him to take off all his clothes since males aren't allowed clothing in Her presence in Her house. She also told boytoy too and leopet.

Mistress tied a whirlybird around the sub's man cock and then jerked him off. he moaned loudly and begged permission to cum. She said yes and he came quite loudly. She told him to clean it up and he promptly cleaned it up with his tongue.

While the sub was recovering, boytoy was talking about his ability to crack his cock. She told him to do it. he said that he had to be hard to do it. She said She wasn't going to do that but turned to me and said, "girl, go do it. you know what to do. i crawled over and licked his man cock and Mistress said no do it. i took him in my mouth and sucked him a few minutes and used my hands. he said he was ready then and i leaned away. he then cracked it. arggh! It shocked us all. It was similar to cracking one's knuckles teeehee. he said it didn't hurt.

Mistress then dismissed the new sub. he put on his clothes and left. i asked Mistress if She wanted to watch a movie. She said yes and W/we tried to think of a movie to watch. i brought out "Body of Evidence". A kinky movie Madonna and Willem Dafoe starred in from the 80's i think. She yes ok.

leopet went to bed

Mistress told me to take my panties off and boytoy lay on Her right and i on Her left. She played with his cock and my sissy cock throughout the movie. W/we all enjoyed it.

It was around 1am when Mistress went to bed. boytoy was going to stay the night but i guess he called home and needed to leave. i then put on my skirt and a cami plus my rain jacket since it was raining hard. we left and i took him home.

After i returned i worked on the computer for awhile then went to sleep.

What a day!

sissy girl

Friday, September 12, 2008

Rainy Saturday Night!


Its been raining most of the day and it still is. Earlier Mistress and leopet were going to take the boy out to his sister's for the weekend but the tornado sirens blew. i was going to go shopping myself but Mistress called me and told me to go inside since there were possibilities for tornados all over so i did. i did go out later and got some Mexican food for all of U/us.


Yesterday Mistress and i met a T-Girl at Borders and had quite a nice chat. She is a lovely girl and soooo passable. She has had quite a life and Mistress finders her so interesting. She and her mentor are coming over tomorrow to see the place and who knows what else. i was wearing my tits and a nice purple cami with sparkles in the front. Over it i was wearing my new denim shirt with Autumn leaves sewn in it. i was wearing my hip jeans and black strappy flats. i felt quite girly. i have been wearing pink lipstick now since Mistress prefers it for me.


Mistress has been chatting and emailing with several subs all around. Its pretty wild to me to think of Her Dominating and playing with other people. She is having a great time at it.


W/we'll see what the weekend brings. Mistress is taking the boy out to his sister's in the morning for the weekend.


sissy girl


Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Nice Wednesday :) Sept 10 2008

Today was a nice day. i woke up when Mistress woke up this morning at 3:30am and found that i couldn't go back to sleep plus my legs were itching some so i took a Benadryl, had some coffee and stayed on the computer til about 5:30. By then i was sooo tired so i went back to bed. Mistress came and went at 8:00 for Her break then i woke up at about 9:30am.

A couple weeks ago Mistress's laptop broke when a portion of Her shirt got wedged between the monitor and the base. From what i could see part of the frame snapped. Although i woke on computers a lot i didn't feel too comfortable working on this problem on Her laptop. i looked up the part and found that the manufacture charges $57.95 for it so i thought i'd try it. i ordered it and it came today. i went right to work and yaaaay its all fixed!

Mistress wanted me to get more text messaging from Sprint. i called them and found that we could get a better plan that gave us unlimited (up from 300 shared) plus more talk time and data. Mistress came home while i was talking to the customer service so when i got off the phone i explained the new services. Mistress then wanted to know why Her laptop was downstairs. i kinda lied a little by telling Her that i thought She wanted it downstairs since She usually tells me to bring it down there. i brought it to Her and She saw that i had fixed it. She was sooo happy! i felt so good pleasing Her :)

i then went and took my shower and got all pretty. i fashioned my hair in a feminine style using the round brush and hair dryer. i put on my pink Old Navy tank top and wore my feminine hip jeans. Mistress told me not to wear my tits. i put on my face powder and pink lipstick. btw i painted all my nails with a silvery pink polish the night before. i left to go to the bank then to Super Walmart where i picked up bathroom stuff as well as a couple pizzas for dinner. i then went to the car dealership to get a key made and came home.

W/we had dinner and watched Mad Men on the tv. Mistress and i talked later about the 24/7 lifestyles, Femdom lifestyles, etc. Tomorrow W/we are going together to meet another t-girl who lives as a female 24/7. It should be a great time.

sissy girl