Saturday, January 31 2009

 

Here we are on the last day of January 2009. The year is moving along so fast already!

Since last night i am wearing my new pink ‘big girls bra’. i really love it. The straps are thinner and look nice with sheer lingerie like the light pink teddy i wore last night. Plus, the bust is a bit larger than my other big girls bra lol :) i love it!

Yesterday, bear, Domina’s sub boyfriend came over for ‘attitude adjustment’. Being a masculine man, during the week he has to be a more assertive type and needs to be put in his place. me, being Her sissy cucky housewife, i can enjoy a more level persona as Her sissygirl. This does bring up the matter that i will need to be employed soon. W/we just can’t afford to keep me at home much longer. i used to work in a more male oriented workplace. Back then i considered myself as a submissive male and really kept it closeted except for a select few and of course other scene members in my support group. Since discovering i am a sissygirl i find it harder to bounce between the two personas. Domina and i would love for me to find a job i could do at home or one where i can be more who i am.

i’ve come across a blog that i am quite impressed with. Its called Femulate at http://femulate.blogspot.com/ and i really love the style and the content of this blog about men emulating women.

The other day i needed to go somewhere where Domina told me not to wear lipstick. i wore my hair brushed back and kept in place with a hair band as well as wearing my butterfly dangly earrings. i still felt naked or incomplete without my lipstick on! Looking in the mirror i just didn’t look right. Of course i went as Domina told me but after i left there i put my lipstick on. Then all was good :) 

Yesterday i ran errands. i went to the post office to mail a certified letter. Then i went to Target to pick up some medication, hair color for Domina and a new inexpensive lipstick called ‘Snow cone’. Its a more pink lipstick that Domina prefers on me. Next i went to Sams and picked up some fruit and beer. Lastly, i went to the grocery store and picked up dinner which consisted of beef and cheese tortellini's, more fruit for Domina and other things. i got home and Domina told me all was ok with bear. She was so tired since She hadn’t had a nap like She normally does when She gets home from work. W/we watched some ‘Fringe’ and had dinner then Domina had to go to bed.

Today i got up around 9 and made coffee. i had some ‘Muffin Top’ pastries and brought up coffee for Domina. She asked for a fruit bowl so i curtsied and went downstairs where i cut up an orange, added blueberries, strawberries, bananas and took it up to Her. She was really happy with it so. Domina then told me that a new younger sub (24 years old) was supposed to come over tonight at 7. She will tell me more about him later. i curtsied again and left to come downstairs.

i’ve been working on my Ds Discussion site a lot lately. One thing i have found is that most of the members now (there are 19) are sissies. Of course sissies are welcome, but anyone interested in alternative lifestyles such as D/s, BDSM, Master/slave relationships, cuckolding, transgender, feminization, etc are welcomed there. i hope that no one looking at the site feels that its not for them. The intent is to build a community of diverse interests, orientations and lifestyles to learn and share.

Well, all for now,

sissygirl

Laid back Saturday, January 24 2009

Its been pretty cool here (23 degrees F) for the last couple days. Yesterday, after Domina and leopet came home from work bear arrived to take U/us out to eat. he came in and went up to Domina who was in Her bedroom. i was working on my Ds Discussion site and was on it awhile when i thought to go up and look in on Domina to see if She needed anything. When i entered Her bedroom i saw bear laying on Her bed and leopet was talking with T/them. Soon leopet left the room and then Domina asked me to leave the room to give Her and bear some private time together. i said, “Yes Domina” and left the room. i went back downstairs and continued on the site.

After about 1/2 an hour Domina and bear came down and She, bear and i left to go out to eat at a local Chinese Buffet. leopet stayed home because he was still full from lunch. i was wearing a loose fitting sweatshirt over my ‘big girl bra’ and cami, female jeans and shoes. my hair is always fashioned in a feminine style over my ears with a hair band over my head. Domina and bear sat across from me at a table. i had Mongolian stir fry, Domina had king crab and bear had lots of hot mustard over all he ate lol.

i felt quite like a girl sitting there across from T/them. Domina and bear looked like quite the couple. i then thought, “If someone asked who i was, what was i to say”.

W/we finished O/our meal and got up and left. bear got in his SUV and left to go home. i was in Domina’s car. W/we talked about it all the way home. i told Her that i felt like a girl sitting where i was and She and bear looked like a couple. She said She felt like T/they were on a date. i then asked Her in situations like that if someone was to ask who i was what should i tell them. Domina said that it wasn’t any of their business but She has been telling people that bear is Her husband and i am Her wife. i told Her that was wild. She then asked what i felt about PDA (public display of affection). i said that it was ok. She said ok, She was just concerned about my feelings.

W/we got home and watched a little TV and then Domina went to bed. i stayed up awhile then i went to bed.

i got up this morning with Domina and brought Her up coffee and an apple with peanut butter. i then went downstairs and worked on the site. Soon, leopet went upstairs and i could hear T/them talking. Soon i couldn’t hear them too well and i went up to see if i could get Her anything and to use the bathroom. leopet was in Her bed and when i entered Her bedroom Domina said She was playing with Her pet. She then told me when i left the room to close the door which i did.

Later leopet came down and asked if i wanted to join them to go to Walmart. i said yes and went upstairs to take a shower. Domina was naked on the bed and She looked like She had some fun. i asked Her and She oh yes.

i took my shower and got all pretty. W/we left and shopped at Walmart. W/we picked up some Covergirl makeup that Ellen DeGeneres as been advertising as well as food for the weekend. W/we went to get some burgers then came home.

Domina told me that tomorrow bear is coming over to watch the Super bowl and that i was probably going to need to take Her son out shopping to let T/them play. Little Mistress is going to play.

Today Domina left to go over to Her footslave’s place for some foot worship and i nice bubble bath.

Domina has been telling me that my next tattoo is going to be a butterfly. She has chosen the butterfly for me as my animal. leopet’s is the maverick, bear is the bear. i asked Her why the butterfly. She told me that She thinks of me developing thinking i was a boy to being a girl like the caterpillar metamorphing into a butterfly. Also that they flit and float gracefully and are delicate. i can’t wait for the tat. It will be in the lower center of my back.

What a weekend so far!

sissygirl

Lost blog post grrr Jan 24, 2009

Wouldnt' you know it. i had this blog post going and went i went to insert a photo it all froze. Goes to show i should have saved some drafts.. grrrr. lol

sissygirl

Monday, January 19 2009

Today so far Domina came home from work and W/we left to go shopping at the thrift store. Today was family day with 75% off all clothes. i found several things; a few lady’s pj tops and bottoms, a couple teddy's one pin and the other green and a pretty bra that holds breast forms in fuchsia. i love it! Domina found me a pair of jeans and some casual wear for Herself.

W/we came home and then i left to go to Sally’s Beauty supply where i picked up some hair color. This time a Ferreira brand light golden blonde.

Last weekend was so very nice. It was very low key. bear had stayed over Friday night. W/we all had watched several tv shows and a couple movies. Domina was very tired and bear said he was going to sleep on the couch. Domina told him he wasn’t and later explained to me that i got to sleep with Her most nights and since Her boyfriend was here She wanted to sleep with him. Before W/we all slept in Her bed together but Domina said that it was too crowded and She wanted quality sleep with him.

i was on my computer for awhile and then went down to the living room and lay on the floor. i woke up feeling cold although i had a thick comforter over me. i moved to the couch where i slept warmer. Later i heard bear talking and i guessed that he was going out for coffee. i woke up around 7 and got my coffee and fruit bars. bear came back home and we talked awhile. he then went up with Domina. i played on my computer awhile and then went upstairs to see if anything was going on. i entered Her bedroom and saw that T/they were playing. She had Her cane out and was striking him with it. he left and then She hit me a couple times with it. It was a sharp sensation but nice. Later, Domina told me that early in the morning bear came down and was stroking my legs. i sure couldn’t remember that! teeehee!

Later in the day Domina and i went shopping. W/we went to Michaels and then Joann's where W/we picked up some walleys for O/our night stands. i picked up some with some antique looking fairies and butterflies. my symbol is the butterfly. Domina has an animal name for each of Her subs/slaves. bear is bear of course. leopet’s the puppy.

W/we came home and i cooked oven fried chicken with a recipe i found using corn flakes. It worked wonderfully!. W/we watched some tv and then Domina went to bed. Sunday Domina worked on the night stands. i worked on the Ds Discussion site (http://bimpie.no-ip.com/discuss) and was experimenting with a media server. i ended up getting my old tv card to work with Vista with the help of a few forums.

One thing that i have had trouble with lately is keeping my hair behind my ears. Domina preferred my growing hair fashioned that way and i like it since it looks more feminine. i asked Domina about it and She suggested hair bands. So now i am using hair bands over my head. Today was my first time out with them. i think i look even more feminine with them :)

sissygirl

Friday January 16 2009

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i woke up this morning and found that it had been snowing. The yard outside was all white. i got on my computer and surfed and worked on my new Ds Discussion site (http://bimpie.no-ip.com/discuss).

Domina came home for Her usual 8:00am lunch break and was having allergy attacks from work. She took some antihistamine and left for work.

i did some laundry and then took a shower. i shaved my legs yesterday so i didn’t today. i put on my eyeliner, mascara, my new blossom lipstick and some lip inflator. i wore girls jeans, a cami, my black big girl bra and a purple sweatshirt.

Early in the afternoon Domina came home from work and told me to go to the store and pick up the ingredients for Her home made chicken noodle soup. She said bear was staying the night.

i went to the local Hyvee and picked up some of the vegetables but was unable to find soup stock or the bread W/we like there. i did enjoy a double espresso from the Starbucks satellite there.

i then went to Price Chopper where i found the rest of the ingredients and then came home.

i had picked up some cookie mix and made chocolate chip cookies.

i was working on my computer some more when bear arrived. he came in and Domina came down from Her nap. She had such a happy smile on Her face :)

Domina put together Her soup and soon joined bear down in the living room.

i was working on putting together a PVR namely Knoppmythtv on a computer i haven’t used for awhile and got to a point where i could get away from that. i found Domina and bear sitting on the floor in front of the couch in front of the tv under a couple blankets. i could see Her hand under his playing with his man cock.

i soon came down and joined T/them. leopet was there too on his laptop.

Domina soon told me to dish out some of Her soup to let it cool. W/we were watching the first episode of “The United States of Tara” and W/we enjoyed it. The series is about a Mother and wife with multiple personalities who changes them as she needs them.

Domina stroked and played with my hair for awhile. It felt so nice. i am so glad that She wants me to grow it out and fashion it in a feminine way. i asked Her if i could get a hair band or something to help keep it over my ears. She said that W/we will get some and that its quite feminine.

i could see that Domina and bear were getting a bit Randy as She twisted around with Her head on his chest. She put Her legs over mine.

W/we then watched an episode of ‘The Mentalist’. i was enjoying a can of Twisted Tea, a malt beverage i thought sounded interesting. Domina was having Her wine, and bear had his beer.

W/we then watched an episode of ‘Lost in Space’ from a set of DVDs Domina won at O/our family Christmas get together.

Soon Domina said She was going to bed. bear said he was sleeping on the couch but Domina said no, you are sleeping with me. i followed Domina to Her bedroom to make sure Her bed was clear and that She had all She needed. Domina told me that i will sleep downstairs on the couch or the floor or i could sleep at the foot of Her bed. i would not sleep in Her bed because She wanted to sleep comfortably with Her boyfriend. She was tired and so was he from a business trip. i told Her, “Yes Domina. i understand”. She said She doesn’t see Her boyfriend as much and i will get to sleep with Her tomorrow. i said, “Yes Domina.”

bear came upstairs and was a bit surprised to find that i was sleeping downstairs but the door closed and i was outside.

i came downstairs and did the dishes and cleaned the kitchen.

i then went into the office and attempted to get knoppmythtv to work but it was no luck. Maybe tomorrow.

Now i am going to surf awhile. Maybe watch an episode of Dexter and then go to sleep on the couch.

sissygirl

Tuesday January 13 2009

Last weekend went really well. It was a kid-less weekend so i was all girl. Even when he is around Domina reminds me privately, "you and I know what you are, don't W/we?"

bear, Domina's submissive boyfriend was going to come over on Friday but he had work commitments. Domina told me that he was coming over Saturday morning and T/they were going out to some garden spot in Missouri to look at things for the garden this year.

That morning Domina and i was up earlier and She got Herself so pretty to go. bear arrived and T/they left after She told me that Her boyfriend was taking Her out.

Through the morning and into the afternoon i was working on my new Dolphin based D/s Discussion site at http://bimpie.no-ip.com/discuss and found it quite the challenge. The board features several things i never had in a board including audio video chat, as well as several other things and each presented their own challenges. But its fun! teeehee!

Later in the afternoon, Domina and bear arrived. She told me that She was feeling 'out of sorts' and i hoped that there wasn't a fight or something. i asked Domina if i could go out and about since i hadn't been out of the house that day and had some errands to run such as picking up my medication as well as Hers. She said it was ok and that She and bear were going back out to find some silver chain for his collar.

i left all girly with my hair brushed back over my ears. my hair now is down my neck in a classic curl :) i think i look more feminine now. i went to Target for the prescription and shopped a bit. i then came home because Domina didn't want me out too long.

i found Domina, bear and leopet down in the living room. W/we had moved the futon from the floor in front of the couch to behind the love seat because Domina wanted room for the Wii Fit thing. Lately Domina has been sitting on the couch while watching TV and eating dinner and She has preferred me on the floor by Her feet. At this time leopet was sitting on the floor surfing the net on his laptop and Domina and bear were sitting on the floor leaned up against the couch. bear had the blanket She made for him around him and She was playing with his man cock.

i went to my computer and continued working on my Ds Discuss site and after awhile i heard Domina talking loudly to bear and saw Her leading him upstairs for a scene. After awhile She called, 'jamie!' and told me to come upstairs. i found bear naked on his knees in the playroom. Domina told me to put on my purple teddy that i had worn the night before and come in and light the candles.

i already had my black bra on with the forms (which i wear all the time now), my black lacy panties and the purple teddy. i went in and lit the candles. Domina was commanding bear to stay kneeling and said, "Doesn't my girl look pretty?" and other things. Soon She told me to go to the cross where She cuffed my wrists above my head and then ties my ankles to the lower O-rings.

Domina then went to bear and cuffed his wrists together. he really doesn't like bondage. She had him come over to me and told him to lick up and down my legs. i had never felt that before and it was so exquisite! She then told him to suck on my clit which he did enthusiastically. It felt so good! It had been over 30 days since i last came and i was so sensitive! After seeing him pull back then back on Domina told me to cum in his mouth. he kept sucking so well and finally it came. It felt so intense i screamed to the top of my lungs. Afterwards i felt so weak and my throat really started hurting.

Domina took me off the cross and told me to sit on the floor and watch. She and bear started making out and then with him laying on his back on the floor Domina got on and road. She was riding faster and faster. Then She got off and started making out some more. Domina told me to clean off Her boyfriend. i went to his cock and licked and sucked. She then got on some more. It was so wild watching my Mistress Wife and Her boyfriend fucking! he then started begging to suck on my clit and She told me to move over to him. he started sucking some more and finally came. By then i was really hoarse and Domina told me to take a throat lozenge.

Domina and bear stayed in the playroom for awhile and then came out. i could smell the smoke from the extinguished candles. bear left and Domina, leopet and i went to a local buffet for dinner. i wore my plum blouse with flowers on it, jeans, girls tennis shoes and my black big girl bra with the forms still. i felt i acted like a girl friend to Domina and leopet that evening.

What a weekend!

sissygirl

my birthday January 3rd 2009

Today i got up before everyone at about 8am. i spent some time on my computer until Domina yelled for coffee. i brought Her up a cup and She wished me Happy Birthday. She had told me the night before that She would be going to breakfast with bear at 10am.

A couple days ago on New Years bear was going to come over but he called and said that he wasn't feeling too well. Then later Domina told me he was coming over. W/we had been watching tv and laying down on the futon in the living room when he arrived. bear came down and joined us while W/we watched tv and Domina played with his man cock. Mistress and boyfriend cuddled together in a blanket Domina made him for Christmas. i lay down on Domina's side while She and bear cuddled and watched tv. After awhile Domina reached for my clit and started playing with it. Since i am the sissy cuckold my clit is always quite sensitive and it surely felt so good. After awhile bear got up and put his clothes on. At first he said he was going to the bathroom then he said he was going home since he had lots to do.

i felt kind of strange and hoped that he was not feeling jealous that Domina was playing with me. he left and went home. Later he called and asked Domina if he could cum. Then it erupted into an argument. Yes, as it turned out he felt ignored as Domina was playing with me. Domina tried to explain that She thought he felt comfortable with Her playing with any one of us but it turned into a non-communication kind of argument which got Her really upset. i tried to soothe Her but the best thing i could do was to let Her take Her nap. She turned off Her phone and closed Her email.

The next day Domina felt really bad and later in the day talked to him on the phone and planned to have breakfast to talk it out.

Back to today, Domina's phone rang and i picked it up. It was bear. he thought it was me and sounded quite apologetic. Finally i corrected him and told him it was sissygirl, it was jamie. he said he felt bad and all. i said everything was going to be ok. Later Domina pointed out how different O/our lifestyle is where the cuckolded sissygirl is trying to soothe his Wife's boyfriend and all.

T/they went to breakfast and now all looks ok. While T/they were out, leopet and i packed up the Christmas decorations. i took care of the inside stuff and he the outside. Domina came home and W/we continued together.

i took a shower and got pretty. i shaved my legs yesterday. i have been shaving them every other day. Any more or less often seems to give me the red bumps. i got some St Ives oatmeal and shea butter lotion for moisturizing after the shower. i put on my eyeliner and mascara and continued with Cover Girl face powder, lipstick and Sally Hanson Lip Inflation. i put on my big girl white bra with forms, my polka dot cami, my new cami panties, girl jeans, pink and black striped shirt and a denim shirt. i wore my girls tennis shoes.

Domina and i left and went downtown to Microcenter to get my birthday presents. i got a new 1 terabyte hard drive and an additional 1 GB stick of ram for the server. Its going to help U/us all to be able to back up O/our computers as well as have room for my websites.

W/we also went to Big Lots where W/we bought Her boy a gaming chair and then W/we came home.

W/we continued packing Christmas stuff away but Domina found W/we needed more containers for the stuff. i left and went to Big Lots and picked up a plastic container and found a clearance computer game. i went to checkout at customer service. i asked the lady there if i could check out there. She was working on some paperwork and didn't really look up but said, "Yes sir, i will be with you in a moment" then she said, "Sorry sir, that its taking so long, i will be right there". She then looked up and said, "i'm sorry, i should have looked up, you were tall." She was apologizing for calling me a guy! Wow, i said that was ok and left. i then went over to Goodwill and donated some of the Christmas decorations W/we didn't need anymore. i shopped there and found a cute cami that says ARMY vertically. The words spelled out says Adorable, Ravishing, Magnificent, Ya Know? teeeheee! lol Domina thought it was cute hehehe. i wore my short short cami panties with that new cami the rest of the night.

W/we watched some tv (1408) and checked out the new gaming chair. It is really cool, gets sound wirelessly. i installed the ram in the server and tried the new game.

Whew, what a night! i put Domina to bed and kissed Her goodnight. Her little stuffed bear from bear laying on the pillow :)

sissygirl