On the way home

This morning I got to sleep and woke up with Domina. It was sometimes emotional but we understand better now. I was hurting last night emotionally and felt I needed to express myself. For me its difficult to wait a day for help. Domina felt that I just couldn't be satisfied with the play we had. I was feeling down thinking about the days I could e put up on the st andrews cross and be flogged so hard and feeling the endorphin rush, subsace, etc but just caanot due to physical changes, pinched nerves etc. Mostly being able to show off my Mistresses dominance through ungeon play. Its hd to hear too how people I've played with are having serious health problems.
Now I have evolved into a sissy girl and feel young and wonderful being feminine more and more. It was so cool feeling accepted and hearing admirations about that.
On the way home after an enlightening experience through te winter storm.
sissygirl

Beatme in St Louis 2009

Sorry. I just spent about an hour putting my thoughts about this event and the program lost it.
In short, I wanted to come out here. We haven't in years. Caught up with several mutual friends are terminally ill, blind. etc. Realizing I don't have the libido I once had. Feeling blue. Domina doesn't want to hear my feelings. Fight. Hopefully not as bad as I think right now.
We are driving back in the morning.

Sissygirl

Is it already Friday? Friday March 20 2009

Whew! How this week has flown! Its been beautiful here. Domina and leopet has been working on the garden a lot. T/they built a couple raised beds last year and this year are putting in a lattice fence around it to keep the critters out

Last weekend was a bit of an emotional weekend. i had working out of town on a short project much of the week so it was nice being home and being all girl.

That Sunday morning bear looked like he was getting ready to leave to go home. Domina looked like She was down. Soon i saw Her and bear down on the futon holding each other. Domina was talking to him and i couldn't hear what She was saying. T/they were there for quite awhile.

Soon Domina came by my office and told me that She and bear were going up to Her bedroom and T/they were not to be disturbed. i said, "Yes Domina"

T/they went upstairs and were up there awhile. After about 1/2 an hour i heard "jamie!". i jumped up from my chair and ran upstairs. i opened Her bedroom door and saw T/them naked in bed together. Both had smiles on T/their faces. Domina said that bear wanted to, "chuck" me. teeehee each of U/us seems to have our own fetishes. bear doesn't really understand mine too well but as Domina has said he sees me as a girl and loves sucking teehee.

i said yes Domina. She told me to pull the desk chair to the end of Her bed and sit.

i sat and watched. T/they started making out and bear made comments like, "mmmm She has a sweet pussy". "What beautiful breasts", etc. i watched with a grin on my face not saying anything.

Soon Domina told me to come over. Her boyfriend wanted to suck. "you are just a thing, a tool" he started sucking my clit. yummmy!

After a bit Domina told me to get some lube and to play with my clitty. Domina had talked about me playing with myself while watching them have sex. i told Her that i thought that would reinforce that i get off on T/them fuck and make out. She nodded to that.

i was playing with my clitty. She told me to come closer. i was touching myself so light. i could cum at any time.

Domina commented how hard i was and that maybe She might want to ride that thing. Soon Domina had me lay on my back. Domina got on me and started up and down. It felt so good. It felt a bit strange too. It was so weird that it almost seemed taboo. Almost like i was cucking Her boyfriend. Also felt a bit strange that She was fucking with me. It had been so long. Domina soon commented how long i was lasting this time. "Don't you like it girlie girl? i said oh yes Domina!!" Soon She said, "he does it better than you" i then started cumming so hard! i was screaming and pulsing.

Soon Domina got off and went to bear. She told me She was through with me and to leave the room.

i left and went back downstairs.

Soon bear left. What a day!

sissygirl

Beautiful Saturday! March 14 2009

Last week i worked! i worked for a short term project for most of last week. It kinda came out of nowhere. Domina was sure happy. It was refreshing to me. The only thing.. i had to pretend i was a boy. It went well though. At times it was pretty rigorous jumping around from computer to computer but it went well. It had some travelling involved too. i was away for a couple nights. leopet took care of things for Domina.

i was up last night til about 1am polishing my toenails pink and watching an old Bruce Lee movie on the computer. About an hour before i went to bed i discovered that the server was having issues and ended up having to do some file system repair. i went up to bed and found Domina still awake. As i was laying down She said, "your coming to bed pretty late. Watch out i will kick you out of bed at 10" i asked if Her boyfriend was coming in the morning. She said yes. i continued and She said She wasn't playing. It was too late. i went to sleep soundly.

This morning i woke up feeling quite run down. Domina woke me up with a kiss and told me to get Her coffee and cereal. i went down stairs really feeling worn out and got Her breakfast. i then went back downstairs for awhile. i came back up and asked if i could take a shower. She said yes. i went in the bathroom. Plucked my eyebrows. Brushed my teeth. Washed my hair with Infusium Colorologie. Rinsed with the hair color rinse. Used a generic brand of Caress's silky vanilla essence body wash and shaved my face and legs with Silk gel.

Domina came in saying She was going to take a shower. i had had the shower low and more cool than hot. i got out and She got in. While i was applying Secret Rose scented anti-persperant, using Q-tips on the ears and applying Colorgirl eyeliner and Loreal mascara Domina said the hot water was running out. i explained that i turned it down and all but it didn't matter. i had dried my hair and used Silk Drops on it to take out the tangles and give it a sheen.

i put on a pair of girls jeans, my fuchsia big girl bra, a lavender cami and my new multi-color blouse.

By then bear showed up. he was laying in Domina's bed as i was de-tangling my butterfly necklace and putting on my ankle socks. i grabbed some laundry and got it going. i had shut Domina's bedroom door and knocked to see if there was any more laundry. She said i couldn't come in.

i went down and was on my computer for awhile. i was drinking lots of coffee and trying to get my energy back. i received a call from a temp job i had applied for. i went upstairs and asked Domina for permission to come in. She said yes. i then asked if She wanted me to take it and She said of course. She was laying there naked and talking to bear. i asked, "Domina are You playing with his man cock?" She said, " Yes, and soon i am going to suck and fuck his cock." i said, "Yes Domina. i better get back on the phone." i told the guy yes and he explained the job and all. i go for training next month. While i was talking on the phone i could hear bear screaming up stairs.

Soon Domina and bear came down. T/they left to go celebrate T/their six month anniversary together. Domina said T/they were going shopping and out to dinner.

Soon i left the house and went to Target for my meds and some cold remedy. Next i visited a GNC looking for Red Clover. They were out of it and the lady there asked what it was for. i told Her phyto-estrogens. She then asked me if i had heard of their female mixtures. She showed me one. i told her i was taking the basic herbs. She called around for me.

Next i stopped at a grocery store and then a health food store where i got the red clover. i went to a drug store too. i returned home.

i had some chicken soup and then took a nap.

i woke up and was up for awhile when Domina and bear came home. Soon W/we were in front of the tv watching 'Reaper'. i always ask Domina where She wants me when i come down to the living room. Usually its at Her feet. This time She had Her two boys on each side of Her and me laying on my back between Her legs. While W/we were watching She was playing with bear's and leopet's man cocks and smooching with bear every once in awhile.

Soon leopet said he was going to bed. Domina said She was going to take a nap so Her and bear is on the futon napping.

i did the dishes and put away some laundry and here i am. Domina said that She was too tired to play tonight. Maybe tomorrow :) teeehee!

sissygirl

Is it Spring? teehee! Mar 7 2009

This week has been really glorious. The previous week snowed. This week has been so spring-like!

It looks like i am finally going to get some work. i have a two day gig next week doing some computer support. Yesterday morning i had to go to the staffing agencies office for training and paperwork. Domina told me to try to pretend to be a boy for it. i put my hair back in a pony tail. i wore no makeup and no ear rings. The only male article of clothing i wore were my socks however. i took care of the meeting and went for drug screening. Next week i'm doing this two day job.

Last night Domina wanted steaks and potatoes for dinner. W/we already had the rib-eyes and i asked leopet to get the baked potatoes. i rubbed the steak seasoning on two of the steaks for leopet and myself and left Domina's naked. She always like Hers very rare too.

While i was making dinner i noticed leopet sitting next to my Queen on the couch pretty close and caressing. he has been a lot more touchy feely lately.

Domina did not have a nap in the afternoon like She usually does and didn't feel too well. She said the food was great though.

i put Domina to bed and watched the movie, "The Day the Earth Stood Still". It was the new one and i thought it was pretty good.

Today W/we work up at around 9am. Domina wanted cereal with strawberries and blueberries and coffee. i went downstairs and made them for Her and had cereal and coffee myself. i then took a shower and got pretty. i wore my multi colored hoody shirt, girls jeans, girl socks and tennis shoes. A couple days ago i picked up Covergirl face makeup/compacts for Domina and myself. i applied that. W/we both love how it smooths O/our faces. i put on eyeliner and mascara and then my pink lip color. W/we left and went down to the farmer's market and shopped there and then the Chinese/Asian grocery store. While walking around in there i was thinking if they might think of myself as a ladyboy. hmmmm. W/we got some fresh fish and i got some Liptovan. Its a vitamin drink i loved when i used to live in Hawaii.

W/we left and came home. i brought the things in and then W/we left again to go to the thrift store. W/we were looking for a swimsuit for me for when W/we go to an upcoming fetish weekend event. i picked up a couple pair of pretty panties and thong. Domina got a nightie.

While W/we were out Domina mentioned that next weekend is Her and bear's six month anniversary. T/they are planning on staying the night at a bed and breakfast near here. i think times where She and bear go out of town and overnighters mostly touch on my cuckold angst. i said, "my Mistress Wife and Her boyfriend spending the night alone together.." i asked (of course knowing the answer already) "Are Y/you going to have sex with Your boyfriend?" She said, "Yes, lots of it". i said, " Yes Domina".

my goodness. Domina does know me so well. She knows how to push my buttons. She knows how cuckolding turns me on. How it affects my sissy clitty. She told me yesterday that mostly She loves cuckolding because of the pleasure She has with bear and as a side effect it cuckolds me. i thought cuckolding involved all of it really.

Now Domina and leopet are at Home Depot gathering lattice and other material for the Spring gardens.

A nice weekend so far!

sissygirl

Today Feb 28 2009 Part 2

Domina came down from Her bedroom wearing only Her robe and bear followed after. Domina started making a Mediterranean soup and French bread and went down to the futon in front of the TV and read from Her laptop. While T/they were up in Her room i had made my blog entry and sent Her an email, "

Wow. You and bear are up in Your bedroom fucking and playing. Your sissy girl cuckold downstairs in her pleated denim skirt and 'don't look back' shirt. i just wrote in my blog about today so far. i do feel like such a feminine sissygirl. You seem so powerful and so above me Domina. i feel so much smaller and weaker to You!

i love You Domina!

Your sissygirl"

i went up to Her room and brushed my hair and noted that Her bed had the top sheet and comforter pulled to the floor. i went back down and asked if She wanted me to make Her bed. She looked at me sternly and said yes. i went back upstairs and i heard Her read my email to Her to bear. i made Her bed and returned downstairs.

i joined Her on the futon and asked Her if She wanted to watch a movie. Domina told me that She wanted to watch "When Dreams May Come". i found it and put it on. Out of the blue i asked Domina when i develop breasts would She want to play with them. She said, "Of course, i'm bi i like to play with tits too."bear soon joined U/us.

While watching the movie Domina was holding hands with bear or playing with his man cock. She was holding Her glass of wine with Her right hand between U/us. Once in awhile She would touch my hand but wasn't touching my clit. Dinner was finally ready and She told me to get Her a bowl of soup and bread. i went up and got Her dinner and brought it to Her and curtsied. i went up and got mine too.

W/we continued watching the movie and finished dinner. leopet came in and asked me to take the car for a spin. we left and went to the store and got him some beer then took the car on the highway. he did a great job. The car drove great!

we returned home and was watching tv. Domina started playing with my clit and bear and Her was making out. Kissing deeply and french kissing. i was watching them and was so turned on! After awhile of watching T/them i told Domina that i needed to cum. It was so hard to turn back. i started cumming and stopped. Domina slapped my sissy balls and told me to clean up. i did and lay back on the futon watching T/them. It was so hot watching T/them in such passion. She then told him to come around and T/they were going to play with me. Domina got on his cock and started riding him while he was sucking me. i told Domina that the last few times i had cum it had been at the hand of men. She then said something like, "Yes, you can't have sex with females anymore but men." i don't know if She really meant that or that She said it to turn me on but then i came so hard and intensely. (edit: i clarified this this morning and She said "no, you will have sex with whom i tell you too. I might want you to be a slut..") he rolled over and started fucking Domina. T/they were doing it in several positions. It was so wild! bear noted that i was still hard. Domina said, "Yes, she stays hard for awhile". She then told me to get up there and i moved so he could suck my clit some more. he did but i grew soft.

Domina then said T/they were going to bed. i asked where i was going to sleep and She said either at the foot of Her bed or downstairs or crowded in bed with T/them. i told Her i would sleep downstairs since before bear had left Her bed because it was crowded.

i filled up the humidifier and closed Her door and went downstairs.

i was on my computer for a few hours and went down to the futon at about 1am. i started having those feelings of angst when thoughts passed through my mind about how passionate T/they were and my place and things. i slept well though.

i woke up with a bit of a headache and Titus O/our dog was playing his strange game where he will hide a ball or object under a blanket and then pull the blanket around to get it. i went upstairs and had some alka seltzer, coffee, all my herbs, and cereal.

Soon i went upstairs to see if Domina wanted coffee or cereal. i entered Her room and She and bear greeted me. W/we talked awhile and She told me to put Her coffee in a regular cup and warm it up. bear had gone out to McDonald's early and got Her coffee. i went downstairs and did just that and returned to Her and curtsied. i asked Her if i was Her girl. Domina said, "Of course you are my girl. Are you feeling insecure? How would bear look wearing a skirt and things? Yes you are my girl." i thanked Her and then gathered dirty clothes together and started a load.

i was on my computer for awhile and thought i would check if Domina wanted more coffee since i just brewed a pot. i went up to Her room and entered. Domina and bear had been talking in bed. She then talked about me knocking on Her door when T/they were alone. She then explained that W/we spend a lot of time together but time with bear is not so often. i asked Her if She wanted me to knock from now on and She said yes. She told me that i have no choice. i will let T/them have private time together. That She appreciates that i don't pout. She handed me the newspaper and i closed Her door and went down to the office and looked through the paper for makeup and other cosmetics.

i am feeling more and more femmed. i think its interesting that i got this new shirt that say, "Don't look back". Its what Domina has said several times in relation to the fact that i am a girl now and that i am a cuckold. Pandora's Box is opened. It will not close. The ship has sailed. i asked Domina yesterday if She enjoyed cuckolding me. She said, "Oh yes!"

Right now T/they are playing in Her bedroom. i can hear those sounds of passion. my clitty is so hard!

sissygirl