Thursday, November 13, 2008

Today Nov 13 2008

Today went a lot better than yesterday. Domina and i talked about yesterday's drama. Some things are really clear. Pandora's box is open and it ain't closing. i asked what isn't. Domina said everything. me being a girl. cuckolding. Domina playing with others and all. It is one of those things that you fantasize about it. You might experience it and then at some point you think, "really".

i shaved my legs and everything else this morning after i vacuumed Domina's house. She texted me to have the playroom cleaned up since Her boyfriend was coming over for play. Today is his 2 month anniversary with U/us. he is leaving for an adventure out of the country tomorrow i think. When i was getting dressed he was laying on Domina's bed next to Her. She told him that i have to wear training bra's (sports bras) except when boy-child was around.

i kissed Her and went on errands. i stopped at the bank for a deposit and then to the hardware store to get a key made for bear. Then i had to drop off a package at the UPS store. Finally i stopped at Hyvee where i paid a utility bill and picked up fix-ins for tonights chicken noodle soup. Domina told me that leopet wasn't feeling to well and home made chicken noodle soup usually helps.

i got home and saw that bear's truck was still parked by O/our house. i went upstairs to the playroom where i heard Domina talking about me and last night. Its really a strange experience hearing ones Mistress Wife talking about things like that but actually i still feel a bit numb to it all.

i put the groceries away and then i thought i would look for Domina's case for Her new Instinct phone since She lost it the other day. i wound up my battery-less flashlight for a few minutes and then went out to the garage to Her car. As soon as i opened the door there it was! Right there on the console. i put it in my pocket and went back inside.

i started making the soup when Domina came down in Her new silky red PJ's. i told Her i got Her something and asked Her to close Her eyes and put out Her hands. i put the phone case in Her hands and She lept with joy. W/we have been looking for it every where!

i asked Her if She marked bear with the henna She had me buy yesterday. She had told me that She was going to mark him so he would always remember Her for the two weeks he will be gone. She told me it was actually for me. wow! She plans on doing some art or words or something on me. She reminded me that yesterday didn't go so good.

W/we went down to the living room and watched some tv. W/we had dinner and then Domina turned it early. She was so tired.

It was a much better day today. i made an appointment to see a psychiatrist in a week for medication management as my therapist recommended. i think things will really come around.

sissy girl

7 comments:

Lucinda Michedge said...

Hello,
I have been watching your blog for sometime ...
and shall continue!

sissy slave jamie said...

Hi Ma'am!
awww Thank You!
curtsy
sissy girl

Miss D said...

jamie... I wanted to reply to your blog but didn't have time until today. After reading your previous entry, I got the distinct impression that you were having jealousy angst? Is that so, or did I mis-read your state of mind?

I think you already know what My opinion of a jealous sissy cucky is... Please tell everyone that you are not a jealous gurly...

As Domina stated - the box has been opened - it can't be closed again. She can only think of you as a gurl now - that's how we all think of you now - jamie is a gurl. A sissy cucky gurl. Accept it sweety - your route is to be more femmed - more compliant. This is what you wished for isn't it? All of us who read your blog are hopeful that your femming proceeds and that you learn to be the best little sissy cucky ever...

A thought about your vists to the therapist... Just a question - wouldn't a hard spanking be more useful? I know how you don't like pain - but wouldn't that adjust your moodiness better?

Miss D

Miss D said...

BTW, I wanted to commend you on writing sbout the reality of life. Not everday ends in a rosey sunset. There are bumps in life - we are all human. But at the same time - one bad day is exactly that - ia bad day - nothing more. It certanly doesn't change what you are - does it?

Miss D

sissy slave jamie said...

Hi Miss D,

Thank You Ma'am. i'm sure You are so very busy.
i hope it wasn't about jealousy. i was in the mode of accompanying Her to Her bedroom to make sure She had all She needed and being abruptly dismissed because She said She was tired one minute and finding Her happily talking to someone else on the phone the next minute. It made me feel bad and i tried to express my feelings later but She turned it around to say i was insulting Her. Even being Her sissy cuckold slave i felt i should be able to express my feelings.
Yes Ma'am. It is what i wished for and it is true that Domina sees me as a girl and my destiny is to become more and more feminine. Like Domina says, it is who and what i am. She didn't like the idea of cuckolding before but now She does and She is embracing it.
i am doing what Domina wanted me to in going to the therapist for anger control and next week to a psychiatrist for medication management. W/we do not think its related to the lifestyle especially since jamie is more compliant and peaceful etc.

curtsy
sissy girl

sissy slave jamie said...

Thank You Miss D,

Especially with the drama of the other night i thought it best to put it that way. Things aren't always rosy. As much as i love serving, worshipping and being owned by my Mistress Wife there are things that come up sometimes like the bills, unemployment, disagreements, etc that may cause tension and things. i will admit that most of the time things are so wonderful and W/we all love O/our respective place in the House of Phoenix. i think its best to relate the good and bad.

curtsy
sissy girl

sissy slave jamie said...

No Miss D, i don't believe i am a jealous girly. Of course i love being with Domina but i know that She needs real men to serve Her too.

curtsy
sissy girl