Envy and jealousy

Yesterday in my blog i stated that one of Mistress's rules is that jealousy will not be tolerated. It is probably Her strongest rule. Mistress is a polyamorus individual and of course O/ours is a poly family since She has leopet as Her boy and i as Her girl. She has opened Her house also to playing with others as well so jealousy has no place here.

i was asked to research the difference between jealousy and envy i found in Wikopedia:

• Envy is an emotion that "occurs when a person lacks another’s superior quality, achievement, or possession and desires it." They also feel that it is not possible (or not easy) for them to have what they want. Otherwise they would simply go get what the other person had, and they would be satisfied.
• The word jealous is often used to describe an envious state. In its correct usage, jealousy is the fear of losing something to another person (a loved one in the prototypical form), while envy is the pain or frustration caused by another person having something that one does not have oneself.

Being a sissy girl cuckold under Mistress's ownership and rules i find these emotions cropping up from time to time. Perhaps its why i sometimes ask Mistress for reassurance, something She told me She doesn't want me to do. Part of the turn on for a cuckold is a sense of jealousy in that it is a sort of mental masochism.

i think probably the beauty of all this though is that i as Her sissy cuckold girl is rendered powerless and must trust Mistress that She loves me and takes care of me.

i love Her so!

sissy girl

Monday, July 28th 2008

my my, this month, this summer, is flying by!

Today Domina woke up to my alarm clock at 3:30am. She got up and got dressed and went down to the kitchen where leopet was fixing Her breakfast. he likes serving Her like that. i tried to go back to sleep but just couldn't. At about 4:15am i got up and took a shower and shaved my legs. i bought some new four bladed Ladies Shick throw away razors and used Ladies Silk cream and they really worked well for me. i dried off and used the round brush and the blow drier and brushed my hair in a feminine style. i used Secret Tropical Essence deodarant.

i started doing housework. i took a box Domina wanted out of Her bedroom down to the storage room. i changed the kitty litter and vaccummed the laundry room. i cleaned off the washer and drier. i did the dishes. Domina came home feeling great. She went to Her bed and read Her email. She is really happy with the arrangement of Her bedroom now. i continued the housework by scrubbing the shower.

Domina kissed me and left for work for the second half. i got on the computer for awhile and then laid down on the futon in the living room because i didn't want to mess up Her bed since i made it for Her. i had a nice nap and woke up at about 1pm. Domina came home from work for the day and told me W/we were going to meet a potential sub for a drink. i asked Her what She wanted me to wear and She told me what i had on was pretty. This sub She said liked tgirls. W/we got in Her car and headed to the Outback Steakhouse. She looked at me and told me i should take my boobies off. She didn't think it would be a good idea to meet someone for the first time. Domina also told me earlier that She didn't want me to go out and about wearing my breasts remembering the incident the other day where a boy yelled out at me. She said She only wanted me to wear them if with Her and She would stand up for me.

W/we got to the meeting place and met the guy. W/we had a very nice talk and Domina always referred to me as 'her' 'she' etc. Domina is so wonderful! The guy is going to come over Wednesday afternoon to see the place, the playroom and a first light session.

W/we stopped at the store for some dinner. W/we checked out the DVD "Walk Hard" to watch. W/we also stopped at the combination Long John Silver's/Taco Bell to get me a taco salad and dinner for leopet.

W/we got home and W/we all got in front of the tv and watched the movie. leopet got naked and Domina stroked and played with his man cock for the duration of the movie. Sometimes She looked at it in wonder. Domina didn't touch my clitty. i was still dressed in my cami and girls shorts. my clit was really wanting Her touch but remembering that one of Her rules now is that it is none of my business whether She plays with my clit or not and that jealousy will not be tolerated in any way i kept my focus on the movie and caressed Her breast.

The movie ended. W/we enjoyed it. W/we watched one of the extras and then Domina and leopet went to bed - not in the same room.

i'm on my computer of course :)

sissy girl

Sunday coffee July 27

yummm this coffee tastes so good. i'm glad W/we got the new coffee pot. Although i liked that the old thermal one kept the coffee fresh and warm for awhile longer maybe. The glass carafes seem to help it taste better.

Friday i went to the store in the evening for food. Mistress wanted me to get ingredients for a chicken pot pie. i went with my bra and forms as well as my girls jeans and cami. i thought i was quite passable. When i was going through checkout the lady asked, "How are you doing sir?". Teeehee! You never know!

Yesterday i woke up at about 7:30am i think. i had coffee and a breakfast bar and later leopet made U/us all egg scramblers.

Domina went out in the yard and ran the weed wacker. i was in the kitchen cleaning the stove. i took out all the stove heating elements and the silver bowls under them and really scrubbed them, the stove and underneath the stove getting the stains and grease out.

Domina came in from the yard pretty hot from the humidity and working. She went upstairs to cool off. She called me up there and told me to print out the rules and bring a pen and highlighter. i did. She told me to kneel. She then told me to read off the rules one by one. i did. She then had a few things to add and told me to get rid of redundant ones. One of the biggest and most important rules She told me to add was that there would be no jealousy at all from me. That there would be no tolerance for it. This was pointed out especially since W/we are having more submissives and other people involved and all.

Another rule was that i was not to try to manipulate Her for reassurance. i.e. asking if i am Her girl, am i pretty, etc.

i love rules. i always have since becoming in this lifestyle. i guess it excites me how putting it on paper makes it all more real too. Domina likes them too but She doesn't want me to put rules down for a "titillation factor".

Domina told me to revise the rules and send a copy to Her. She then told me to go to the store. W/we made a shopping list together including; some baked potatoes, new breast forms, cherries, guacamole, eye liner, razor blades, shaving cream, conditioner, etc. Domina took Her shower and then i did. i shaved my legs and got myself pretty.

i left for Walmart and found all i was looking for there including the breast forms. They didn't have quite the ones i had before which was skin colored with a nipple but i got a clear pair with nipples. i went to the grocery store and got the food items as well as some Wine Coolers for Domina and some Long Island Ice Tea.

i came out of the store and was loading up the car. Some car over in the next lane pulled out of its space and a young boy leaned out the window and yelled "your disgusting!" At me. i just waved at him and proceeded over to the store's gas station and got some gas for Domina's car. i thought about the young boy, probably in his late teens and thought he must really be a close minded person.

i got home and put the groceries away. i put my new breast forms with the other forms i bought the other day in my bra. They work so well! You can see the nipples under a cami too. i put on my jean shorts and my strappy high heels. Domina woke up and i told Her about the shopping experience.

i grilled the chicken with teryaki sauce and baked some potatoes. Domina came down and got a wine cooler. She got in front of the tv and told me to get Her food. i got a chicken breast and cut it up for Her and made up a baked potato. She said the chicken was too dry. arggh! They were frozen to begin with and hoped that they would thaw out on the grill and all. i will watch that next time.

Domina went upstairs to get ready for a sub that was coming in for play. he was a bit late and She told me to call him. Just as i was getting ready to he called and said he was lost getting here. i gave him directions and he arrived in a few minutes. i took him up to the playroom where Domina was and closed the door.

After a couple hours Domina came out and told me to bring Her computer down. i did. The sub boy came down dressed and T/they talked. he then left. Domina and i then watched Swingtown.

Domina then went to bed.

sissy girl

Yaaay Friday! July 25 2008

Yesterday morning i did my usual things in the morning. i had a breakfast bar and coffee. Read the internet. i hadn't shaved my legs since Wednesday and my legs felt far too stubbly so i shaved them. i so love the smooth feeling. i put on the eyeliner and mascara and some wrinkle cream. i have been experimenting with my hair with the round brush and blow dryer. The result has been a more feminine look with my hair kind of curly and up. Mistress loves it :)

i put on my Covergirl face powder and lipstick and watered the potted plants. i did lots of laundry. So funny how you can accumilate a lot of clothes in drawers and forget what you have. i found lots of camis, Victoria Secret ones and others. i hung them all up in my closet.

After Domina came home W/we worked a bit on the house. i went up to the playroom and used the upholstry attachment on the carpet shampooer and cleaned Her red throne.

Mistress wanted weanies and beanies for dinner so i took my purse (now with a red bling iron on heart) and went to the store and got dinner. It was nice getting a compliment from the girl at the cash register on my necklace :).

i got home and took a nap. leopet called and said he was going to be late getting home from work. Mistress took the weanies and beanies and cooked them. W/we also continued on cleaning up the living room. Now there is much more room down there. yaaay!

W/we had dinner in front of the tv. Mistress's antivirus had run out on its subscription. Mine did too the day before and i downloaded the bitdefender evaluation to try it. i was doing the same with Mistress's laptop but it just wouldn't connect to do it. i tried to connect with my computer and it wouldn't. i thought i would try the next day (today).

leopet was naked next to Mistress and She was playing with his man cock. he was caressing Her. i was there in my pink nighty trying to get antivirus on Her computer. Finally She said to leave it alone and W/we watched Stargate Atlantis. Mistress told me to rub Her feet since they were hurting from so much standing up at work so i got the foot cream and started rubbing Her feet. It was really hot doing that while The two of them were there caressing each O/other.

After the show was over leopet went to bed and Mistress and i watched Confessions of a Call Girl. She snuggled up next to me while W/we watched. She didn't play with my clit and i didn't say/ask anything. She would play with Her toy if She wanted to.

Mistress went to bed and i tucked Her in. She usually loves to read Her Slash fiction when She goes to bed. Last night had limited connectivity so at least She was able to read that.

i got back on my computer and found that connectivity was really bad. i tried all the usual trouble shooting procedures like shutting everything down (cable modem, router, pc) etc but no good. i finally called tech support. They had me do what i just did and now things seemed to start working but after hanging up it stopped again. i called back and talked with another guy who thought the cable modem was going out and suggested swapping it out. When i told him that i got intermittent connections like i could get to a web site one minute and then not the next he thought it was a software problem. i tried to explain that the same was happening on two different computers but he thought it was a hardware/software problem. argggh. At 1:17am i went to bed!

This morning thankfully all is working! i installed the antivirus on Domina's computer and all is well!

whew!

sissy girl

Wednesday, July 23rd 2008

Yesterday i got up and did my usual breakfast and coffee. i showered and shaved my legs. It was only a day since i last shaved them but they did feel a bit stubbly. i plucked my eyebrows. i think they are getting that arched look. Mistress commented the other day that they are looking good. At one time they were all so think and growing every which way. Now they are much thinner and more feminine. i put on some wrinkle cream, eye liner and mascara. i put on a pretty girls sleeveless shirt and girls denim shorts and my black strappy shoes. Of course i put on my breasts.

i watered the potted plants. Mistress said it was supposed to rain so i wouldn't have to worry about the gardens.

Mistress came home and told me to go out and mail a couple of bills and get pizza for dinner. i asked Her about wearing my bra with forms out. She said yes.

i left the house and went to Joanns to get a new set of breast forms since the other ones got messed up when i tried piercing them. i picked up a set but they were different and clear. i dropped off the bills at the Post Office and then went to the store and got the pizzas.

i got home and tried to take a nap. i got up when leopet got home. Mistress said She was hungry so i popped the pizzas in the oven. She likes chopped veggies on them so i did that. i went up stairs and put on one of my pink nighties and came down. W/we had pizza in front of the tv. leopet was naked and. After the pizza Mistress started playing with leopet's cock. Mistress told me to get Her a bowl of ice cream. i got one for me too. leopet was playing with Mistress under the comforter and i could tell he was really horny. After watching the show Mistress said She was going out to the garden to spray for bugs. leopet was still horny and Mistress kept playing with his cock. She then got on him and asked him what he wanted. i couldn't hear but She started making out with him and was soon naked. She then started riding his boy cock. It was so hot laying there. Mistress then told me to take my panties off. She could see my clit was so hard! She then told me to take the lube and to stroke my clit which i did. She asked me if i was turned on watching Her and leopet play. i said yes Domina. She told me i could not cum so i backed off and didn't stroke so hard. Finally after awhile Mistress got off leopet and got dressed and went out to the garden with leopet.

Later Mistress came back in and W/we went up to the playroom. Mistress showed me the different things She wanted me to accomplish today like mounting a pegboard. Painting over wax drippings on the wall, etc. i asked Her if it was ok that i was turned on while watching Her and leopet play. She said "Oh yes. I like that my girl gets turned on watching me play with and fuck a real man. I like to that She strokes her clitty and is excited watching." She then said something about me stroking my clit for other men and people. i thought that was really hot!

Mistress went to bed and i went to the computer.

sissy girl

Shopping, July 22 2008

Yesterday was so hot! i think the heat index was over 102 or something. i did my usual morning routine and then tried to take a nap. Mistress had several tasks for me to do like hanging a couple corner shelves and a straight shelf in the play room. Also She wanted me to remove some melted wax on the wall and floor and spackle a hole in the wall. Another thing was to take the pots and pan rack from the ceiling. It was taking up too much space and W/we are going to try a peg board. i thought that i would take care of these things later in the day although i took the rack down.

A couple days ago Mistress told me to move some of my boy clothes to the storage room. i took a lot of my work clothes like suits and slacks and left some of my boy jeans and shirts. It sure made a lot more room in my closet. i also cleaned out the drawers of one of my dressers of stuff where i had a mixture of boy and girl clothes.

Later, Mistress came home from work. She wanted me to go get a new coffee pot since the new one Mistress and leopet got didn't work. i was almost out the door and Mistress asked me, "Where are your boobies?" What a surprise! i told Her that i was getting ready to go out. She then said that i am more passable with them on. i went and put them on and then left. i stopped first at QT. The first thing i noticed was the security guard saw me with a surprised look on his face. i just kept my girly self and got a drink at the fountain. i paid for it and left.

i then went to Linen and things where they were closing the store. i couldn't find a good deal on coffee makers. Next was Target where i was returning the coffee maker. i returned it and looked in the store for another. i left and went to Kohls where i found one on sale like Mistress liked but they didn't have one in a box. i ended up getting that one since it was a discontinued item at an even better discount.

i left and came home and had some lunch.

One thing i would not recommend is to try piercing your breast forms. At least with silicone ones like mine it wouldn't work! Mistress gave me a 40% coupon and told me to get a new pair at Joanns.

In the evening it was really slow. W/we all worked on various things in the playroom. Mistress said that She will be interviewing another sub this Wednesday and will be playing with different subs on Friday and Saturday. Wow!

sissy girl

Monday, July 21 2008

Yesterday i got up and had a blueberry muffin and coffee for breakfast. i took coffee up to Mistress. She said that W/we were going to get a new coffee maker since O/ours hasn't been working too well. i lay down for a nap and was awaken later by Mistress who said that She and leopet were going shopping and to rest. i woke up later and took my shower, shaved my legs and then plucked my eyebrows and got myself pretty.

i was out watering the gardens when Mistress and leopet came home from shopping. i took the new coffee pot and set it up but had trouble getting it to turn on from just plugging it in. i did make a pot of coffee.

Mistress told me She had some errands for me. She told me to go to Joanns to get some black vinyl since She was making a pad for the st andrews cross. She also wanted me to go to a hardware store to pick up mounting brackets for it. i took off my bra and was wearing a cream collared cami and my girls jeans and black strappy shoes and went to Joanns and got the material. i am ever consious of my new pink ribbon nail polish on all my toes and finger nails. Mistress and i both love the color. In the light they really gleam! i then went to a hardware store but it was closed. i then went to Kmart and had no luck finding the brackets. i stopped at QT for Mistress's ice tea and came home.

Mistress and leopet was in front of the tv on the futon. leopet was naked and i realized She was playing with his cock. i asked Her what She wanted me to wear. She told me to put on my cute pink nighty so i went up stairs and put it on along with my breasts. It must be wonderful to have real breasts. i love the feel and look of the bra with forms on me.

i came downstairs and got Mistress a glass of wine and asked for a beer. She said i could have one. W/we watched an episode of Stargate Atlantis and then some Penn and Teller. All the while Mistress continued playing with leopet's man cock. She didn't play with my clit until later. i thanked Her for playing with my clit. She asked why did i thank Her for it. Isn't it Her property to play with. i said yes Domina. She said that i had nothing to do with it. She plays with Her toys as She wishes. leopet went to bed. After the shows Mistress told me to make up Her bed. i went up and put everything away and made Her bed. i bent over to pick up some clothes and Mistress corrected me. She said that a good girl will not bend over but will bend her knees and pick up things. i thanked Her for Her correction. She came up and gave Her a kiss. i asked for a beer and She said one. Usually She has allowed me to have three a night but She said just the one. She said "Why should i have you ask for it if I don't control it?" i said thank You Mistress. i definitely feel Her control more and more. i feel weaker and have less control. i love it!

i went downstairs and got on the computer for a couple hours and then went to bed.

sissy girl

Sunday, July 20 2008

Yesterday was different in a lot of ways. Like i wrote yesterday, Mistress met a potential sub at a local restraunt in the morning. T/they they came home and met leopet and myself. Mistress showed him the playroom and then Mistress, he and i sat out on the deck and talked about the lifestyle, scening and such. he isn't a sissy but into BDSM. Mistress and he are setting up dates in the future for him to come over for some play.

Mistress, leopet and i then went out shopping and had lunch. W/we ended up at Borders books where Mistress interviewed another male sub while leopet and i was browsing in the store. i enjoyed a double espresso.

W/we stopped at the grocery store on the way home for steaks and then headed home. my sissy friend kristy who i met several months ago at a hardware store was waiting. i introduced her to Mistress and leopet and W/we all went inside. i showed her the place and then put my bra on with the forms. Mistress told me to bring down my shoes and corset. i put on my new periwinkle strappy heels. They looked wonderful with my denim shorts. She then laced up my new corset. i love it! She said it gave me a more hourglass figure too. i then put on my other strappy heels with a higher 4 or 5" heel. They were actually more comfortable than the other ones. i had my wig on for awhile but Mistress said She preferred my natural hair.

i grilled the steaks and Mistress baked the potatoes and W/we had it all out on the deck. After eating W/we went inside and Mistress took leopet up to the playroom. sissy kristy and i went up to watch and help where needed. For the next 45 minutes Mistress played with leopet on the st andrews cross using a variety of floggers, paddles, etc. After that W/we left the room and went down to the living room where W/we all talked a bit then sissy kristy went home.

Mistress and i then watched Swingtown while leopet went to bed.

What a nice day it was!

sissy girl

Saturday, Things are starting up

Just now Mistress left to meet with a potential submissive male. This afternoon Mistress leopet and i are meeting another at Borders. Later on in the afternoon i invited my sissy friend i met a couple months ago over for bbq. These are interviews to see if how they will work out as friends/play partners, etc. i wanted to go with Mistress this morning for this breakfast date but She wanted to go alone. Thats a first for me. Its exciting and a bit scary for me but as Her sissy cuckold it lets me know She is the one in charge and the one who makes the decisions. One guy had emailed Mistress about cuckolding as it was his interest as a sub. She emailed him back telling him that i was Her sissy husband that She was cuckolding. That was the first time i have seen Her admit it like that. A couple years ago i brought up the subject of cuckolding and She was so against it mostly because of some negative things about it that She thought of. How things change. i love Her so much and She loves me too.

A couple days ago W/we went shopping at a thrift store. W/we found a couple of wonderful heels for me. One strappy black one with 5 inch heels and the other a periwinkle with about 3 inch. i love them! Mistress also found a couple skirts for me, a jean skirt and a beige one. They are both cute :)

Mistress was so happy with Her car. i detailed the inside and shampooed the upholstry and carpets and cleaned and put armor all on all the vinyl. It really seems new. Yesterday i cleaned the house by vaccuuming the carpets and spot cleaned it with the shampooer as well as washing the rugs.

Last night i cooked dinner for U/us all. W/we had pot pies down in front of the tv. Mistress said She loved having Her naked boy on one side and Her girl in silk on the other side. Mistress played with his cock while W/we lay there watching Stargate Atlantis and left my clitty alone. Surely my clitty begged for attention but knowing that Mistress does what She wishes is how it should be. It is definitely erotic to me.

This should be an exciting weekend :)

sissy girl

Thursday, July 17th 2008

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Shopping and cable Tuesday, July 15 2008

Yesterday i got up and showered. i usually get coffee and breakfast first but the Road Runner tech was coming over to fix O/our cable tv problem. i thought about shaving my legs but opted on waiting until today. It seems to work better for me to shave every other day but i sure hate feeling stubble. i love feeling smooth.

Mistress came home for Her break and i got a call from the cable guy to confirm his visit. Mistress thought i should take my tits off since they might be too distracting for him. i asked if my lipstick was too red. She said no, its fine.

As Mistress was leaving the cable guy arrived. i explained the problem to him and he started looking at things. He asked if we had an amplifier for the signal. i told him that when it was all installed we had two more jacks put in and the tech put in an amplifier. We went to one of the rooms and saw the amplifier with the AC unplugged! That was it! i plugged it back in and all is working now!

Mistress had two errands for me to run. She told me the night before during O/our play i explained in yesterday's post to take Her double vibrator to Priscilla's an adult novelty store and tell the sales girl, "Mistress told me to get batteries for this so She can fuck Her boyfriend with it". i took the vibrator and drove to Priscillas. i went in and the sales girl was on her cell phone. She put it down and asked if i needed help. i told her what Mistress told me to say. She said, "I understand" and got the batteries. i told her i wanted to browse and she held the vibrator and batteries for me. i browsed around and then paid for the batteries and left.

i then went to QT for a drink then to Super Walmart where i picked up dinner and a magazine and came home. i found Domina awake reading Her laptop. She has been corresponding with people W/we have found on Collarme.com. Maybe soon W/we'll have more play :)

i went back upstairs to ask Mistress a question. She seemed a little stern. i asked if She wanted me to knock before entering from now on. She said yes unless i knew She was asleep and i really needed to go in Her bedroom.

i cooked a stir fry with egg rolls and crab rangoon. Mistress, leopet and i lay in on the futon in front of the tv and watched an episode of Meanmen or something like that. Mistress was playing with leopet's cock. W/we then watched Confessions of a Callgirl. Mistress then went to bed.

A couple miscellaneous things; While W/we were shopping last weekend. W/we found a cute strapless bra that works very well for me. Its skin color and holds my breast forms wonderfully. Its so nice being able to wear strapless dresses and spaghetti strap camis and such and looks so real like. The only thing is that its tighter around my breasts and presses in on my nipple rings. Its not so bad though. i usually wear my usual bra with pockets for the forms.

Another thing. i told Domina i'd like to get another tat or piercing. As far as a tat i'd like a girly one like across my lower back or something like that. i think it would be nice to have 'sissy girl' under my kitty tat on my tummy too. Mistress said She was thinking of a guiche under or over my clitty. W/we'll see.

sissy girl

Monday! July 14th, 2008

Yesterday i had my usual coffee and cereal. i got a call from Mistress telling me to put some clothes on and take the jeep over to Home Depot. She wanted me to meet Her there and pick up some mulch for the garden. i went upstairs and put on the same cami and jean shorts i had on the day before. i then shaved my face - How can a girl go out in public with hair on her face? lol. Next i took O/our westie and proceeded to Home Depot. i got there and Mistress met me with some clearance mulch. i took it and came home. i unloaded it and then watered the gardens and the other plants.

Since W/we did the switcheroo with the craftroom and bedroom to make the playroom there was still a lot of Mistress's craft things in storage. She told me during Her morning break to move them so i cleared most of the storage room to the garage where Mistress's craft room and workbench will be. There was lots of stuff! teehee

W/we had been having problems with O/our cable tv service for a couple weeks. When Mistress tried recording on the DVR it would say it was recording but no shows were being showed as available to watch. W/we had called the service a few times and was told that the problem was the model of box that W/we had. Since last Friday however W/we had no cable tv service. i called the service again and they told me to bring the box in for exchange. i told Mistress this and She told me to go to Target and pick up a few things as well as Sams Club. i took the cable box and went straight to the service and exchanged it. i then went to Target and picked up the items Mistress wanted as well as a new NYC lipstick called 'Red Flame'. i think its fun experimenting with the different shades on my lips. Mistress later said She liked it on me. i also picked up some more Noxema Female razors for me. i then went to Sam's Club and picked up Mistress's favorate pretzels as well as some Biscotti for leopet.

i came home and installed the cable tv box. It didn't work! i called the service and told them what we had done thus far. He scheduled a technician to come over today. i then changed the lightbulbs in the bathroom and kitchen.

Mistress woke up from Her nap and came down. i explained about the cable tv box. She wasn't happy but glad that a technician was scheduled to come out.

leopet came home. i told him about the box. he started doing some work around the house. Mistress was in the garden. She told me to cook tilipia and rice for dinner.

While i was cooking dinner Mistress was playing with leopet upstairs. i saw that She was using some bondage tape at least. Awhile later T/they were in the shower together. i thought that was pretty hot to watch.

Awhile later Mistress came down wearing Her satiny night shirt and Her laptop. Dinner was soon ready. i had asked Her what She wanted me to wear. She told me my cami top with my bra/forms and my panties. She likes me in that at home. leopet came down naked. W/we had dinner watching Stargate Atlantis on Her laptop. All the while She was playing with leopet's cock and my clitty. i stayed pretty hard for a pretty long time but She stopped with me and continued with leopet. She played with me for a while longer again. How i love Her touch!

She had mentioned that W/we were going to watch some more Queer as Folk but after two episodes of Stargate Atlantis She put Her laptop down and told me to just lay there and look pretty and watch. She then rolled over to leopet and told him not to just lay there and be pretty and T/they started making out. i layed there excited. my clitty surely got hard then. T/they kissed and kissed and groped. Then Mistress got on top and rode him. What a look in Her face! After awhile She got a dildo that had an end for Her too but the batteries were dead. She told me to take this to the adult book store today and tell the sales lady "my Mistress told me to get batteries for this so She can fuck Her boyfriend pet". i said yes Mistress.

She then used it on both of T/them. After awhile She told me to get Her strap on with the big dick. i did. leopet is so good taking that. he soon came. Mistress then told me to get my clitty hard. She wouldn't fuck me with that soft thing. She told me to stroke myself. It has been months since i've been allowed to do that. i did. After a few strokes i got so hard and felt like cumming then. She then said i probably wouldn't last 10 strokes. leopet said 5. i got on and lasted 15 until i begged Mistress to let me cum. She said yes and i exploded!

i thanked Mistress for allowing me to cum. She told me She was going to bed. i tucked Her in and did my usual night time computer thing.

What an evening!

sissy girl

Nice weekend July 14, 2008

It was a relaxed weekend mostly.

Saturday

Mistress, Her son, leopet and i went shopping at Super Walmart for some things and had lunch at Subway. W/we had pizzas for dinner.

Sunday

Mistress and leopet took Her son to the airport to fly back home. i was taking my nap. When i got up i took my shower. i put on my eyeliner, eye shadow, mascara, face powder, red lipstick. i put on my pink skirt and my bra with breast forms. i felt pretty.

Mistress and leopet came home. Mistress told me that farmer scott was coming over for play and to socialize. W/we all took naps and then Mistress went out to the garden and took a shower. She then went out on the deck with Her laptop. She had me get wine for Her and had me get Her things and such.

farmer scott arrived at about 4pm. i took him out to the deck where Mistress and he talked. She then took him up to the playroom for about an hour. She told me to have dinner on the table at 6pm.

i grilled some hamburgers and had them ready by 6pm. Mistress and farmer scott came out and W/we all had dinner. Afterwards W/we all talked. Mistress was talking about how W/we are opening up to include local people in the area for play and friendship. After a few hours scott left.

Mistress, leopet and i then went down to the living room and watched Queer as Folk. Mistress then went to bed.

sissy girl

Wednesday, 9 June 2008

Yesterday was mostly a run a round day. i got up and checked the computer. Mistress came in for Her break at about 8:00am asked for a bowl of cereal which i got for Her promptly.

After Her rest Mistress told me to take a box of books to 1/2 Price Books to turn in. She then returned to work. i took a short nap and then showered and shaved my legs. i put on my eyeliner and mascara, a blue camisole and lady's denim shorts. i further put on my Covergirl face powder and then my lipstick.

i went out and watered the gardens and the various other plants in the yard.

Mistress came home from work and went promptly to bed. She was really tired. leopet came home for lunch and i was getting ready to go out. i went upstairs to let Mistress know i was leaving and saw leopet in bed with Mistress. Mistress was naked but he wasn't. my clitty started to stir. i asked if T/they were going to have some fun. Mistress said i wasn't going to miss anything since leopet had to go to work and She had to sleep. i left with that vision in my head teeehee!

i called for my stepson and we left to do errands. The first stop was Target where i picked up some shampoo and conditioner for Mistress. Then we went down town to the 1/2 Price book store where my stepson got several comic books and i got a movie editing program. Our last stop was the grocery store where i picked up a couple coffee cups for Mistress. One was decorated with "Early Riser" painted on it.

We then came home. i put everything away and then grilled pork chops. W/we had those and sweet potatoes for dinner. W/we watched Coupling, Confessions of a Call Girl and then Swingtown.

Mistress then went to bed. i followed a couple hours later after computer time.

Some things i love:

• Mistress of course
• leopet
• stepson
• O/our dog
• pink
• lipstick
• perfume
• Shaving and being smooth
• Being girly
• my bra with breast forms (so wonderful looking down and seeing them as well as in the mirror).
• face powder
• my Lady's shoes
• Knowing everything i am wearing is female, (except for my glasses, i think they are unisex)
• my purse (how did i ever get by without one before?!)
• Mistress correcting me when i start talking like a boy
• Mistress telling me to put lipstick on
• When coming home from work when i was working and Mistress telling me to get those boy things off and get my girl clothes on.
• When i please Mistress
• When Mistress plays with us
• Hot Femdom, cuckold and sissy stories

Some things i dislike:

• Times i have to pretend i am a man
• Men's clothes on me
• hair on my face and legs
• Times i dissappoint Mistress

sissy girl

Monday, July 7 2008

Hi all, not too much has been happening for the last couple days. Yesterday W/we concentrated on straightening up the garage. With all the moving between rooms to create the playroom Mistress is without a craft room. W/we threw away a lot of things to the curb and collected some things to turn into the thrift store. W/we moved a lot of the remaining boxes to the front of the garage. i will be going through those boxes to see what i can get rid of. The rest of that side of the garage W/we will be moving Her workbench there and will be mounting some peg boards. Domina has such wonderful skills with different crafts such as leathercraft, pottery, stained glass, costume work etc. It will be wonderful to have that area for Her. It will also serve as a work area for house maintenance.
Today i received a call from Mistress telling me i will be going shopping. She gave me a list of things to get at Super Walmart. i was wearing a pink Old Navy tank top, girl's button up jean shorts, my black strappy sandals, my purse, eyeliner, Cover Girl face powder and lipstick. It was so nice getting out of the house and shopping. It was fun going up and down all the aisles there. i also went to Sams and got some chicken breasts, wine for Domina and some frozen Tilipia.
i came home and read my email. i took a short nap then Mistress was up. i brought Her a glass of water and then grilled the chicken breasts and cooked some rice and steamed veggies. i dressed down a bit. i took off my jean shorts and panties and put on a pair of black lycra shorts i didn't know i had. W/we had a nice time watching Stargate Atlantis in front of the tv. Mistress played with my clitty a bit through the lycra shorts. It felt so good!. After the show was over Mistress went back to bed.

sissy girl

What a weekend so far!

On July 4th,

Mistress had to go into work Her usual time. She did like the fact that it was paying double time and they were getting a bbq for lunch.

Mistress called me around 10am to tell us to be ready at 1pm to leave for the movies. leopet and i went to Target for some shopping. i got some pretty pink nail polish called 'Made You Blush" by Sally Hansen Salon', some bug spray and a few other things. On the way home we stopped at McDonalds for lunch and brought some home for Mistress's older son.

At 1pm Mistress was in the drive way. She yelled out to have me get my prezzie out of the trunk. i went out and saw it was a wet/dry shop vaccuum - something i'd been asking for for awhile since O/our last one went kaput. i thanked Mistress and we got it in the garage and got in Her car.

W/we drove to the theatre and saw "Hancock". W/we really loved the movie and i noted applause at the end. Since i'd seen a preview months ago i had wanted to see it. Lately though, there were mixed reviews but W/we still wanted to see it. It was quite fun though!

W/we then got home. Mistress checked the gardens and then took a nap. i got on the computer and painted my nails. It worked so much better buffing and smoothing my nails with one of those buffing blocks. i used one called California Nails.

Later in the evening W/we got in Mistress's car and headed out to a local town on the river front and watched a spectacular fireworks display.

On July 5th,

i woke up and did my usual thing on the computer. i started feeling listless and wasn't feeling too good. i heard Mistress yell down for coffee. i got some coffee for Her and took it too Her on my knees. i told Her that i wasn't feeling to good and that i was feeling listless and all. i laid down for a nap. Mistress got up after having Her coffee.

After my nap i was feeling a bit better. i took a shower and shaved my legs. i took a tip from one of the crossdressing sites i've been to and used hair conditioners as a shaving cream on my legs. Its been working wonderful for me. Also for bumps i've been using a combination of St Ive's oatmeal and shea butter bodywash with some antibacterial soap such as Dial or Softsoap and its worked so much better for me.

i came downstairs and found that leopet had cleaned up the kitchen. That was so nice of him! i went and unpacked the new wet dry vaccuum and tried it out... Awesome teehee! i went out in the yard and saw that Mistress was working on the patio table i picked up off Craigslist. She told me to go and get some gray primer for it. i left and went to a local store in my pink cami and girls jean shorts and purse. i had my lipstick on as well as eyeliner and mascara. Lately i have been feeling more like a girl going out and about. i have felt less about the fact that i'm a sissy going all en femme but of course i sometimes feel the stares.

i picked up pipe tobacco, energy drink and some other things but could not find the gray primer. i left and headed to Kmart where i found the gray primer as well as a container for archiving bills. i then went to McDonalds and got a Happy Meal for Domina and a salad for myself. i got home and found that they got the order wrong. Domina told me to take it back. i did and got it right. W/we then had lunch.

A little later, Domina's daughter came and picked up Her older son for the rest of the weekend. She went up stairs for a shower. i went up and freshened up my makeup and put on a cute pink skirt i had. Mistress told me not to wear panties. She said She liked that i was a naughty girl...

i was feeling so girly. i love it! i grilled some brats and brought wine to Mistress. W/we settled in front of the tv and watched some episodes of Queer as Folk and had a great time as Mistress used paddles and strops and other things on leopet's ass. Mistress was playing with his cock for quite awhile. She reached under my skirt and played with my clitty once in awhile. It felt so good and got hard sometimes.

Soon Mistress and leopet went out to the deck and W/we all sat on the chairs that Domina had refurbished. Soon Mistress sat back on leopet while he was carressing Her breasts and Her pussy while i sat and watched while smoking my pipe. my clitty was getting so hard watching. Mistress told me to get Her favorite vibrator and She was using this on Her pussy as T/they were rocking back and forth on the chair for quite awhile. What a site. T/they then decided to take it inside. i came in and sat on the floor watching. Mistress and leopet then really started making out. Mistress then told me to get behind Her as She was on top of leopet kissing him. i did and as i watched T/them kissing i came after probably 10-20 seconds which surely didn't please Domina. She told me to get off as T/they continued making out. What a site it was! Soon Mistress was on top fucking leopet. i could only watch. It was truly a hot scene!

W/we had been watching an old episode of Star Trek and it became so late for U/us so W/we all went to bed.

Wow!

sissy girl

Happy July 4th!!

Thursday errand day

Yesterday i got up when Mistress came home. She had several things for me to get done; Take Shenaya Her cat to the vet, pay the insurance bill, pay the Time Warner bill, and go to the grocery store. i took my shower, put on my eyeliner and mascara as well as lipstick. i put on my short dark blue cami and girls shorts and my girls sandals and left the house.

my first stop was at the vet. They weren't taking appointments due to the holidays but only first come first serve. Shenaya, Mistress's cat has had a history of skin allergies that has been temporarily remedied with shots. i got there and checked in. i noticed a guy was there with an old dog. He was looking sad and i thought maybe he was there to put him to sleep. i took Shenaya in and the doctor gave her the shots and also put her on presignone or something like that to see if it might work better. i came out and saw the young guy come out with a box and realized his dog had been put to sleep. That was really sad and i empathized as i remembered having to have my Westie mix of 14 years put to sleep some years ago. i thought about that as i left.

The next stop was at the bank where i deposited a check. Then to Time Warner to pay the bill. All this time i was feeling girly and i felt great!

i then went to pay the insurance and found they had closed early. Across the street was Priscillas, one of several adult novelty stores in the area. i went there and browsed the store. i called Mistress on the cell and asked Her if She wanted me to get some lube since She mentioned it a couple nights before. She said to get that and pick up some Italian bread for dinner at the grocery store. She also said that She had been giving some things thought and She thought that W/we might liven up the lifestyle by opening up to local people to play with. W/we had been waiting on things in O/our local BDSM group but thought it might kind of jump start things to look for people to play with in O/our area. i think the episode W/we watched on Swingtown helped Her see that.

i left and went to the grocery store where i picked up some wine for Mistress, some Lemon Drop and Long Island Ice Tea for the weekend. i had a double espresso and picked up some other things.

i got home and put everything away. Mistress was already home and taking a nap. i was on the computer a short while then took a short nap too. i had created a second account on Collarme as a couple's account. Mistress said that She will go in and work on it.

Mistress got up and started dinner. She cooked a nice spaghetti meal.

W/we settled in front of the TV and watched an episode of Angel. Mistress loves that series and had been missing the 4th season which i picked up for Her the other day. Earlier in the day i had buffed all my nails and was putting flirty pink nail polish on. The polish got too thick to work with and once i got to my finger nails it just wasn't working very well. Mistress said i could get some more the next day at Target.

leopet was feeling pretty randy and got under the comforter. Mistress started playing with his cock for quite awhile. Mistress then told me to put on a DVD of Queer as Folk's first season. i did and She told me to get the lube. i came back and got under the comforter too. She then played with both leopet's cock and my clitty. It felt so good! It got hard for awhile and then not so hard so She stopped playing with it. i was appreciative that She did play with me. W/we watched the episode and then it was time for Mistress to go to bed. i followed Her up to Her bedroom and straigthened up Her bed and kissed Her good night.

i went back to the computer and surfed and read email.

Earlier in the evening Mistress told me that She scouted out parts for a new massage table/cage She is planning on making. leopet got involved by finding some great plans on the net. It looks like a great undertaking but Mistress is getting quite enthused about it. So far the plan is having a 30" by 6 1/2' cage with bars with the bed above with removable pads. i've always been excited about being put in a cage. Mistress has done that at some BDSM events but W/we haven't had one. Maybe soon W/we will! She thinks it would be exciting to put someone in the cage while playing with someone on the bed. woohoo!

What a day!

sissy girl

Interview

Yesterday my interview was scheduled for 1:30pm. i got up like i normally do and had breakfast and checked out my sites on the computer. i removed my pink nail polish from my nails and buffed them all. Mistress called in sick from work with a stomach flu or something. She just wasn't feeling very well. i watered the gardens and the flowers around the house and then took a short nap. i got up to get ready for the interview.

i took my shower and shaved my legs. i used my new triple bladed Noxema razors and they worked so much better for me. i took my ear rings out and made sure all my eye makeup was gone. i used a hair mousse/gell i have and worked on my hair. Using that and the hair dryer i thought my hair looked presentable.

Standing in front of Mistress wearing my light pink thong panties and more feminine pink cami She thought i looked pretty. i put on my dress slacks and grey shirt and put on my tie. Mistress looked at me with a kind of sad look and said She wan't used to seeing me not so feminine.

i took off and stopped for an energy drink, In light of my mission to get a job i got a drink called, "Relaunch" teehee! i got to the interview spot downtown and was first interviewed by a human resources person and then she took me to the manager. The interview went well. i won't hear anything for a week or two because of a couple other interviews.

After the interview i called a guy who was advertising a patio table on Craigslist. i drove over to the address he gave me and ended up giving him $40 dollars for the table with the umbrella - $10 less than he advertised.

i got home and found Mistress in Her bed feeling much better. She had been working in the garden and had pulled poison ivy plants up - carefully. W/we are all so allergic to poisonous plants. i showed Her the table i just bought and She was so happy with it.

i went and got undressed and put on a blue cami cut high enough to show off my new belly button jewelry and put on some Female shorts. i put on my lipstick and i got on the computer for awhile and leopet came home from work. i got my purse and W/we all had a nice dinner at a Chinese Buffet. i love the Mongolian stir fry! i felt especially girly out and about.

W/we came home and Mistress and i watched Adventures of a Callgirl and Swingtown and then Mistress went to bed.

i was up a few more hours on the computer, surfing sites and stuff.

What a day!

sissy girl

Shopping Tuesday

Today i woke up kind of cranky. i think the Benadryl does that to me. i got on the computer for awhile and then showered and put on my eyeliner and mascara. i put on a light blue cami and Female shorts. i came down to my office and put on some Cover Girl face powder then my flirty lipstick. i then went out and watered the garden and the flowers in the yard.

i put on my new black strappy sandals, grabbed my purse and then proceeded to the bank. Mistress called and told me to pick up a trash can for the garage and the kitchen as well as some steaks for dinner. i went to Super Walmart and picked up those things as well as some triple bladed Noxema shavers since the four bladed ones i bought last weekend weren't working too well for me. i browsed the store a bit and spent some time looking at the Ladies clothes. It was nice to hear the checkout lady call me ma'am when i was checking out.

On the way home i stopped at QT to get a drink. i was putting the top on my 44 ounce drink when it slipped and the drink fell to the floor and created quite a mess. A girl working there rushed there and cleaned it up. i thanked her for her help. i later told Mistress that i apologized like i thought a girl would. Mistress thought they probably took me as gay.

i came home and put everything away. Later i grilled the steaks and cooked tator tots while W/we lay in front of the TV watching shows. Domina played with leopet's cock and my clitty. She told me to go get the lube and started playing with us again. my clitty got really hard to Her satisfaction. i thanked Her. W/we watched Hells Kitchen and then Mistress went to bed.

Tomorrow is my interview. Its been delayed twice but it looks like its on. i sure hope it works out!.

sissy girl